dont know if we should call cps
NOW WHAT
One of the items on my todo list is binge the entirety of One Piece.I want to die
I unironically have a fart and armpit fetish and I can't find a woman to indulge me.
I don't care that you let me down over and over. I still care about you and I hope you're doing alright. I know better than to reach out directly and scare you away again, though.
THEY'RE TRYING TO PUT ME ON PROZAC AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
The local Walmart has already taken down their Halloween decorations and is already decorated for Christmas. It's October 29. What a selfish, gluttonous and narcissistic holiday Christmas is. Well, I guess since we can celebrate holidays whenever the fuck we feel like it now I'm skipping Christmas and celebrating St. Patrick's Day this December. Fuck Christmas.
I don't regret the cheating, i regret getting caught.
im not going to work until my sister gets a job.its my turn to freeload MFkers
I think I'm borderline asexual atp but it's hard to know without making an emotional connection with someone First
>>35045281If you need an emotional connection to be attracted to someone, that's called being demisexual. Nothing wrong with it.
>>35044420A few halloween ago my mom and I got drunk and swapped underwear for the evening.
I need to take ungodly amounts of ibuprofen to deal with my pain. I wish I could just get opiates.
I'm an AI fencesitter, and people don't like that. People expect you to either be all-in on AI, or totally against it, and I'm neither. I hate polarization and I'm sick of it.
I think I'm going to quit my job and become an onlyfans girl. I'll make my niche by getting naked and dping myself with toys then leading hour long presentations concerning anatomy and physiology without acknowledging it.
i wish it would bother me less, knowing you are back and ghosting me all this time, like i dont exist anymore to you
>>35045344I don't have my protonmail anymore. Don't blame me.
I don’t believe I can ever succeed, and because of that, I can’t see any goals or a potential future. I feel like I’m going to fail at everything I aspire to, and because of that, I don’t aspire to do anything to begin with. I’m not suicidal but I’m not too eager to live, I wish I was the daughter to make my parents proud, but I’m numb as hell that even that goal doesn’t feel significant anymore. Honestly, why even wish for it? What’s the point?And if we’re talking about something more shameful to admit, well, I’m struggling a lot with owning a high-need dog and I find myself hating her a lot sometimes because of it. Sometimes I really wish she’d die so we can both stop suffering. I’m giving her the best life I can but I feel so extremely guilty for not being able to feel more positive emotions towards her. I'm a pos
>>35045343Please make some bbc content
Fight the future!
>>35045356Does it matter if I'm not white?
Recently trying to get better with women. Only one I talk to is one from hs, knew b4 about her. Only connected after HS.Now mid 20's, heard she broke up with BF. Want her for myself. Only recently started hanging out, in wanting more/closer bonds, confided in her and really started talking more and planning more meetups.I really do not want to mess this up. I feel like my confidence as a man will be shattered. I think shes at least warming up or into me a little. I just want to feel loved by someone I consider important thats not family.
I know how much you love your fatherAny other man's just a problem
He fucking did it again. Fuck this I'm out. I apologized, he said he was too hurt to talk - so I didnt. Gave him space. Then more passive aggressive bullshit. Bye babe. Miss me with your high school drama babyboi
I haven't been getting many You's
>>35045522have one, love
tfw im too poor to ever get a woman like this. this is mbappe's ex or whatever. fuck my life
>>35045527thank (You), God bless
>>35045535don't stop believing
It's going to be a long winter. Kinda wish I could go back to my province.
>>35045522You you you you youWhat's up how's your week going?
>>35045574BAD
>>35045588Fucking hear that brother. Too much shit gone wrong for me I lost count.
>>35045606FUCK
>>35044608One Piece is so good that you may genuinely change your mind about the whole wanting to die thing partway through.
Getting real sick of the constant nausea
>>35045339Polarization is intentionally used to control people. Going all in on one side or the other means accepting views that you wouldn't otherwise accept simply to belong to a label.
fuck you bitch. coming over here waving that tight little butt around like you dont know
When are you coming back? I'm sorry, I didn't know what I had with you, and even when I did I was too afraid to tell you exactly how I felt. I'm getting better, I promise. If I reach out through the usual channel, though, I'm afraid you won't see it.
I get that you appreciate something only after you lose it, but it's too late, waaaaaaay too late.
>i couldve been what u needed!!!! ;A;Ok then why werent you???
>>35045744I was mad at you because I thought you were abandoning me. I didn't realize until you left that I was pushing you away the whole time. I've never met anyone who made me feel protected the way you did. Can we try again?
What if there is nothing more? What if there is only emptiness? What if there is nothing more beyond the code of deliverance?
>>35045813Then you make the best you can in the here and now, for yourself and others.
>>35045631Truth. Fuck doing that, I can form my own opinions on things.
>>35045827What all things just decay? What if we've all just been betrayed?The code of deliverance leads us closer, we are closer to the end
>>35044420Feel like everything is designed with the explicit intention to burn us out. Like we’re rung-out dish rags that have soaked in the hot sun for DAYS but we’re still being twisted for any residual water. Social media algorithms trap our attention through drip-fed neurochemical ”rewards” obtained through constant exposure to vacuous slop and pithy, thought terminating cliche “discourse”. We’re plugged into everybody’s thoughts which becomes overwhelming to the brain, which is, like any organ, consumes and expends finite amounts of energy. Sifting through mountains of garbage manifest as rage bait, advertisement, and worthless nothingness.Employers have no impetus, no incentive or requirement, to pay employees a good wage. The employer has the ball completely in their court, and can demand obscene amounts of devotion and work for what amounts to pennies. This aggravation is compounded with the fact that everything has become expensive. You cannot even criticize this, because society has been brainwashed into stripping workers of any autonomy. So even the act of negotiation, even within a free-market, becomes impossible.Society is obsessed with trivial issues. With severing our connection with the other by engaging is divisive rhetoric that serves only to empower the people who benefit from the division. We are seeing a general upswing of tribalism, pseudoscience, and a fundamental lack of empathy.I’m tired of this. I feel exhausted all the time. I want off this ride.
I had an exceptionally good day yesterday regarding a creative project. I thought it was gonna be a disaster, and that I'd barely make a start on it, but I somehow finished the whole thing in one sitting with way better results than I expected.I have two similar projects I'm working on. Completely fucked one of them today, will have to start again, but whatever. Tried to muster up the will to start on the third but failed. I just need to recharge, which is frustrating when yesterday it all felt so easy. I wish every day could be like that, oh baby.
Trying to come off tramadol for the billionth time since I started taking it 20 years ago. When you think about it, it seems so easy. "Just stop taking and plow through the few weeks of pain." The reality is, it's like telling someone to stay in a stuffy pitch black concrete room with no light, air conditioning, phones, or entertainment for several weeks. You will feel every slow agonizing second. There are no distractions. There is no peace. Nothing feels good, nothing tastes good, nothing sounds good. You can't sleep worth a shit and dear God does time just CRAWL.On top of all that, with something like tramadol, after 20 years it's not a simple 2 weeks withdrawal. I'm at the point where I'll be dealing with post acute withdrawal syndrome. We're talking months to years before getting back to normal. My mother who ended up quitting (and had started when I did) went through an extremely tough year that I don't look forward to.
>>35044628If a girl loves you enough... They'll do anything, blew loads over her school uniform, did extremely noncey things with her for fun.Pwhor miss the days
How do I reconcile my love of French girls but my hatred for the French language?See a French word? Forget half the letters in there and it'll maybe sound correct
>>35044628Pray to your patron saint Joyce
>>35045378No
You do realize people fall out of love if you don't reciprocate their feelings, right? I wasn't love bombing you or lying to you, you just waited way too long to show any interest.
>>35045343I'm not going to lie, this is a niche I'd be into.Informative porn, girl showing how deep a toy goes, why it can go so deep.Favourite home made porn I ever made was my Ex being pissed off with me to only grab her web cam and explain every little bit of her pussy
I miss going to that rundown mall with you to get your drinks. If was really fun exploring the roof and seeing all the weird eerie shit there with you, and knowing I kept you safe. When you would say «I’m scared» and I would hold you, tell you everything would be alright. It could be. I want it to be… Ah but that means condemnation, no forgiveness and helping one another. So stuoid to think otherwise and try for so long. I’m tired, and alone. I no longer have a confidant, someone to take on the world together with. Someone to care for and help. A happy home to return to, a family to gift my children. I’m sorry.
>>35044836Damn femanon
When I bawled my eyes out and kept whispering sorry all night while holding you, and you said you forgave me. I really believed you. When I told you I forgave you I really meant it. I risked everything to atone, I had an easy way out but I put myself inbetween them and you. I really tried. Why can’t that be enough? Will there never be anything that will? Why must I be bad? I don’t think I’ll kill myself, I caught myself having fun yesterday, gained a new ridiculous story to tell others, and managed to help a lot of people. I’m not bad. I’ve done bad, but I’m not bad. I thought the same of you. One way street. Hurt.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDnt_Up0imc
Weakness is to be punished. I know. I’ll cherish the good memories and be kind, even though it hurts. It hurts. I wish help would come. To have someone bandage my wounds, even if they inflicted them. I’m so dumb, but I was dedicated enough for that to have worked for me, even if (((professionals))) would advise otherwise. Ha, it really wasn’t healthy was it? Haha. So why do I still crave it, violently?
Like the drugs I never tried. I deserve my pain. Should never have shown weakness. So angry at myself for having to learn the same lesson I’d do painfully learned a decade ago. No apology will come no compromise. Your extended hand will be ignored, arm strained, until you run out of strength and it drops to your side; retreat within yourself. Would hope die then too? I did what you did as a kid and out their whiskers in my face, hehe. It was fun.
>>35044836It's okay Ethan, if Hila was my wife, I'd fuck someone less ghoulishTamara is still a 3/10 but even then I understand on a pure looks perspective
I think the soulless comments hurt the most. The grey eyes when I retreat to avoid pain, I think, anyway. It’s my best guess, never had anyone else say that but I think that’s what you’re talking about. Doesn’t matter.
Nothing I did was ever good enough. Evidently. The gratitude must’ve been like the forgiveness, just mouthed words. Still the most painful.
bro just apologize and do better or sybau and stop shitting up the threads
ooouah i treated my gf like shit and she left me shes evil and im so saaad
Legalizing and regulating prostitution would solve a lot of problems.
>remember, I love you We ride the tidesThe waters wide(So wild)Calm the troubled water!Hear the angels singin' all nightand all dayYou hear them say:Glory hallelujah!Lay your burden downYour time is nowTurn aroundPraise to lovePraise to godWe belong to the waterWe belong to the airWe belong where there is loveJust remember this:You don't walk aloneAs the storm it ragesBe not afraidLet it pass awayHear the angels singin'Remember to remember! (turn around)Praise to lovePraise to godCall to godFor loveWe belong to the fireWe belong to the airWe belong where there is loveWe'll ride the tidesThe waters wide (so wild)Calm the troubled water
I <3 alcohol and caffeine
I want to kill myself. There is no way to live on this planet. I cannot fathom a place where I belong. I cannot lift myself up from where I am. And I come back again and again to the same spot without any difference. This life is not for me. Please find a good way, your way, to end it for us both. I love you but I cannot love this life and as my friend and sister you owe it to us to forget we were ever here.
Kind of ironic how they can't handle the consequences of their own actions and continue doing the same shit
Such a fucking shame, a waste.
>meet goofycute zoomette>shes pretty cool>actually shes fucking perfect>be 40>might as well be 80fuck you, universe. youre not funny.
it's over.
It's only just begun!
Over for us, at least.
So obnoxious when someone is so committed to twisting or ignoring your words to victimize themselves and avoid accountability.
>>35046362The truth has always had three sides, babe. Yours, mine, and how it went.
>>35044420>WAHHH I'M ON PAYE>THE GOVERNMENT RAPES ME! SHUT UP NIGGER, imagine being on PAYE and not calling yourself a cuckold.Don't even fucking talk to me brokie.
i'm so fucking tired, boss.i've been developing my own mod for something i'm passionate about for years, and it's like i'm shadow banned when it comes to trying to get it out there. hits no algorithms, nothing.meanwhile someone else shits out the exact same thing and it gets ALL the downloads and praise.i guess i should be happy with the fans i've got but still.
Thrashing around in my mind praying that they see reason. This is what a lack of stability growing up does to a mfer. No consequences could be justified because I alone would feel bad and I alone decided that’s wrong. Haha. Eyuh.
Still playing at insults and pretending like the only reasonable thing is to forgive and forget and accept continued harm and disrespect and lack of value.
>>35038439>leaving someone who does this is a bad and selfish thing
>>35046420narcs always flip back to attacks when their selfpity guilt trips dont work
Honestly just go back to /soc/ and find my replacement again lol
>>35046408Exactly this. Somebody immune to correction is an idiot, willfully. You cannot apply more logic or hope to change that.
>>35046473So true, if only the anon you replied to would realize that.
You get soooo close to catching my sympathies and always quickly correct that with the insults and usual shit.
>>35046518a narcs best gift theyll ever give you is revealing themselves when you deny them their supply
You know I apologized for my actions, but I never got an apology for yours
Saw her old comment on my Steam, sent shivers down me. Maybe I don't know what I want.>>35046607I know that feel.
I'll go find that sweet, empathetic, honest, vulnerable man I sat on a bench with once, one day.
>>35044608If you're open to reading instead, one piece moves a LOT quicker if you read the manga instead of watch the anime. That said, some people prefer the slower pace of the anime and even like the filler.
>>35046607I know she won't admit fault because she's deathly afraid of rejection, but the fact that I apologized for my mistakes multiple times and corrected it while she stayed silent and kept acting the same was exactly the behavior I needed to see to move on.
We'll be free in a couple of years, anyways.
I know not having a good relationship with your dad is cringe, but I can barely even speak to him. He's like 1% of the person he used to be when I was a kid, and my older siblings back me up on that. It's like he's always trying to turn everything into an argument, like whenever I say anything he finds the right combination of words to turn what I said into a condescending speech that proves he's right about everything. It's draining. I feel like every conversation with him is more diplomatic than a real conversation.
Guilting me into taking disrespect, and leaving me with no avenue for correction without Pathologizing it is not nice. Could borrow an inapplicable term here.
I would look at your picture to get me through the times wherein everyone including those with the power to utterly destroy everything I’d worked for told me to give up on you and turn against you. Despite that, this.
>>35046634You really think I'm doing that? I'm not trying to guilt you into anything. Why would you think I'm deliberately trying to hurt you?
>>35046620I didn't apologize using the right words, or at the right time. That was enough for her not to accept anything. The two things I said about her were absolute betrayal to her. The constant stabbings I took from her, those I took, I tried to forget, just to make her see.But she's the mature one.Then she says that it hurts to be treated like the bad guy, but I'm the one who lost everything to her telling everyone how much of a bad person I was.
Aww, you must be really bummed I didn't kill myself as you wished. Everything would have worked out so well for you then, hm?
>>35046646>I forgave you >no Jk I lied thanks for risking everything for me >(didn’t even say that last bit) Haha hahahahah
I'm trying to be a better person.
>>35046663Good luck
i am in a kerfuffle.i have a legal situation that literally doesnt matter if it goes in my favor or not because ultimately its not going to solve the problem its adressing for either party i have no job and have not been hired for almost a year now.freelancing isnt getting me anything. i have no luck finding a job.everything is too expensive now and gets even more every week.i can barely afford my bills with the trickle i am managing, i can barely afford to eat food.I'm sick and tired. i might have to quit college. I might have to surrender myself to the goylife.I can't move because rent is ridiculous (not paying rent) and the afformentioned legal problem is making life here miserable and is making me unable to sell my apartment.I'm fucked and i turned to the only people i could and they said no.i have nothing and there is no hope. At least my social life is... fine. But even thats strained by the stress im under. people started calling me "mussolini" because of my temper. I try my hardest but its hard to keep it all in anymore. i just want a release.mentally i am regressing to my skinhead phase. Even doing a roman makes me feel safe now. i am distressed.
>>35046665Oh. Thank you.
>>35046661Cooked bro
>>35046674Yeah bro
>>35046668what sort of situation? I've heard the job market is tough right now, but in my area a lot of low level positions are still hiring. I'm guessing you've already thought of that though.
posted once on soc and I got like 20 chats going sorry what was your name again?
Guess we're forgetting that I was the only one honest (I'm going to lie.mp4) about what both of us had done, and multiple people recognized you as the aggressor
Sure am glad I recovered that lol
>>35046690Low level is not off the table, it's just nowhere near enough money. And it takes so long to find a new job even for something that stupid. Freelancing does save me but its apparently not good enough to actually get hired, despite my long CV.I send about 50 applications a day. Nothing. And it's still not enough money to live.
>>35046653What was it you said about her that was so unforgivable?
>>35044420My life the past three months since I moved in with my mother after my father's death in February have been some of the worst of my life.My sister betrayed me. My mother is hysterical with menopause, I'm not allowed to cook, clean or do my laundry. My half brother, who isn't related to my father or lived with him like I did, has become an aggressive thug.I have been nothing but good, helpful and self sacrificing, even going to my abusive father's funeral when I initially didn't want to go, and after I move in with them, THEY ALL TREAT ME LIKE SHIT.Before three months ago, my mother was my favorite human being in the world. Now, not so much.My life feels surreal, like a nightmare I'm supposed to wake up from. Please. God or whoever. Let me go back. Let me fix all my mistakes so I would be in a better place when my bastard father dies.
>>35046726...what i'm going at here is that i am regressing into a pit of darkness i haven't been inside of in a decade and its actually looking appealing. i miss being a brother.
>>35046346Youve said "it's over" so many times here. But then I see you say it again and again so which one was over?
>>35046640Sounds like what the larper tries to do to get me to turn on maria
>>35046607I don’t have anything to apologize for involving reactive abuse. You may label me as an aggressor because you fail to see your accountability on why I behaved that way— showing your lack of empathy and compassion for me. I’m glad it didn’t work out between us because I saw through the cracks in your mask. You are a psychopath and narcissist. In before you deflect by saying I’m projecting. Everyone who defended me agrees and I won, bruising your big ego even more.
I was abused when I was 14.
>>35046759I said to her that I felt like shit because half of the time I couldn't communicate to her properly and she didn't notice and made me think I was retarded, and that has been going on for a while. As in, I'm slow and she didn't adapt to it.I also said to her that I cared about my privacy and didn't want my things looked at, but her argument is that I had a lot of permission regarding her stuff, when in truth I didn't even ask for it. These things wouldn't even come out if she didn't throw an accusation about me talking shit about her behind her back (which wasn't true, but I guess her friend likes to stir the fucking pot) and a provocation because I didn't respond to her at the right time.
>>35046866This A or C narcing out?>>>/r9k/85854219
>>35044420Is lebron James wife black?
Lol as if you only "didn't turn against me" because it would've outed what you're doing
>>35046861That makes me angry. I'm sorry that happened to you.
>>35046929?
>>35046607I have nothing to apologize for because everything I said and did was intentional. You, on the other hand, are a self-entitled and manipulative loser. You lost access to me thinking apologizing would work. Go find attention supply somewhere else. Instagram and sleeping around with hoes like Mary obviously isn’t enough for your overbearing and inflated ass ego.
I'm just so fucking skinny. Why is it so hard to gain weight
already talking shit about me inadvertently on soc, thats cool. just like how you did with the other guyi bet you with the next guy you meet, you'll tell him how much of an asshole i was, right? how i treated you so badly, how i constantly said mean things to you, right? but you'll tell yourself i wasnt an awful person per se, i'm just incapable of caring about you deeply right? all of the relationships you've been in is to just churn through and detach because you're too weak to stay with someone?you're a fucking coward. you were too scared to reflect onto yourself that you need to work on issues so you fumbled your way into a relationship with me, and got scared when you realized you started to get close, and you dumped me in the same way that would terrify you. but you dont give a shit, right, because it makes you safe, right? safety, stagnation, staying in the same place is all that matters to you. doesnt matter if it fucks me up in the end, i can handle it, right?
>>35046999fat food can help
>>35046981I had a skin rash/infection when I was 14 and my mother took me to the doctor and while my mother was making the appointment, the doctor asked if her 12 year old daughter could stay in the room and my mother consented and they let the doctor's 12 year old daughter stay in the room while I was examined naked.
The new Avatar is interesting.
>>35047014I bought some ice cream for tonight
>>35047022Even so, that was unprofessional.
>>35046999Healthy foods aren't very calorie dense, so if you're eating healthy and trying to gain weight you need to really work hard. Start drinking whole milk instead of water and add healthy side dishes to every meal. Potatoes are great. And if you're desperate, peanut butter is cheap and super calorie dense. Oh, and careful about fiber because too much of that will overload your system and make you feel like shit.
I don't like the person I became with you. Your poisonous need to harm others is infecting my impulses.
>>35047013Move on with your life, dumb ass.
>>35047053Running from accountability, we see. It’s not that person’s fault. You’re responsible for your impulses. You blame others because you’re a narcissist.
>>35047039I've been mixing clean and dirty foods. I'm calorie counting while going to the gym. It just takes so long for any progress. Even just for some fat to show
>>35047087Just the victim of one. Taking accountability by recognizing the impulses and refusing to act on them.
>>35047105You both could be narcissists, honestly. Even so, a narcissist and a bi-polar. Their fights are also epic.
>>35047119Is that the situation you're in?
You hold a lot of weight and you even flexed wellDid she phone it in with me? I'm tryna figure out her next tell
>>35046811everything.
Tell me to my face that you hate me at least, cmon, be a man.
Telling tall tales, they're about like 8'2"Especially if they're fiction saying I hate you
Where'd everyone go?
>>35047229I'm chillin. Wbu anon?
>>35047242I'm watching The Terminal List.
She has stopped stalking me.
>>35047246How is it?
>>35047259It's cool. I like it, but I have a soft spot for Military media.
>>35047249Imagine having a stalker.
>>35047249What makes you think that?
Ha. Haha. Yeah. Oh well. I learned my lesson. Again. Shame I needed such a brutal fucking reminder.
>>35047292What do you mean?
Heartbreak.I'm fucking cold.
>>35047305I didn't mean to do that. I meant to don't that.
>>35047292What happened
>>35047312It doesn't matter.
>>35047305What happened
>>35047328You matter.
Maria, Missing you a lot today.
So crazy what happens being out of your proximity.
>>35047369I miss you too
>>35047372What do you mean by that? I hope you don't mean me talking to some girl that acts like AI...
>>35047335Thanks. Slowly trying to come around to feeling that way.
>>35047385Good.
>>35047381What do -you- mean? Is this an irl girl acting like AI when you guys aren't together? I meant just my mood, productivity, patience, and stress level.
>>35047406Oh. I wouldn't worry about it.
>>35047406Also, you should meditate.
>>35047415Does it count/have the same bennys if you do guided meditation via audio?
>>35047421It's better and easier to do with the electricity not flowing. But it's always up to you how you feel comfortable doing it.
I want to be held.
>>35047429My arms are yours.
>>35047428It's definitely something I've done and liked it, but it slips out of my routine frequently- especially lately. So ty>>35047421 Can we at least take turns being the little spoon?
>>35047445>Can we at least take turns being the little spoon?That made me smile and laugh. Of course.
>>35047435Are they gentle, are they safe, will they hold all of me, the best and worst parts?
>>35047473They'll hold the entirety of you, with no judgement. Hopefully will make your best eternal and your worst better.
i have accepted that they moved on, i have accepted how i dont matter, accepted how much of an aspie failure i am and accepted that im not him. i would have really liked to understand, belong but i dont, and i get that. i accept that.i have tried making my life as peaceful and quiet as possibe; ive stopped reading, watching, gaming, socializing, participating. no more apps, outings, travel, hoping, planning, daydreaming.and as i neglect my health, which each new pain, discomfort and neglected, broken tooth or an infected gum can it just finally be over ?or is my failure, cowardice and laziness really such a sin that i dont hate life enough to an hero ?i am so very tired.
>>35047499Thanks anon.
>>35047516You're welcome.
You crossed the line and committed a crime. It was there from the start, from the start.https://youtu.be/OqJQEf9q6go
>>35047249she probably got bored of your paranoid ass
>>35046872who are these people? why do you care about if they are 'narcing out'?
It's over. There's nothing left for you here. Go away.
>>35045299Just make sure you're minding the dosage, apparently it's surprisingly easy to overdo it and do damage
>>35047682no.
>>35047686I appreciate the concern. I definitely take too much of this shit, but it's the only OTC that works for me.
>>35047375I catch myself daydreaming, looking over at you lounging on the couch reading a book while I work on a project. No words needed, just each others company.
>>35047778Maria isn’t yours, she wanted C. She left you.
>>35047429If youre mine you need only say the word. Until then I’ll continue to trudge forward, a slave to the mission, empty.
>>35047906Tell that to A
can't believe i fell for a crystal girl desu
I have finally learned to forgive myself for being the reason why several people killed/want to kill themselves. Life goes on.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozlnJxCNxQQ
>>35047945shut the fuck up
>>35047938It happens. A lot of them are very hot and charming.
Id like to make an ISIS style execution video with you but it’s my dick instead of the knife
>>35047950You don't like my song?
>>35047960please leave me alone
>>35047926WHO IS A??? I don't see an A in Mike or Voltron.
>>35047975A pitiful narc
>>35047975Who the hell is Mike
>>35047952she was really sweet and very cute but naive and absent minded and when it turned out she was into crystals it made sense
>>35047975A is dead and gone now. No need to bring them up anymore
Nobody ever has anything to say to B :(
i miss A
>>35048028bloody bitch benchod bastard
what if A was only using crystals as a temporary crutch and didn't truly believe? Is that more or less pathetic?
>>35047960rapist>>35047966schizo?
>>35048028Why was A afraid of C? Because A B C. Get it? A be C.
>>35047906She did want me and was lied to, deceived by c. Also she just said >>35047375Her truth naturally>I'll always love you and care about you >No matter what >You mean so much >Yes >You complete me >I complete you >I love you more >You are the only home I have free of judgment and anything that will upset me If you want, you can lay down, close your eyes, and live in that with me You can wear my shirt >I'm crying because I need you this argument is temporary but I'll always have that empty part needing you >I am your home too I need you too We make each other whole I was thinking about that earlier No one has ever accepted me the way you do >You are perfect The best you can do is be there for me in your way >That's good to hear I love you >Lot >You make things better >Even when you aren't here, you do so much>You are the only thing that matters now >It's been like that for so long >Nothing will ever change that I want every part of you I need your touch I love you >I hope I dream of you tonight >I love you
>>35048058I honestly think that a lot of crystal girlies are only half into it and use it as a filter for men. If men are too opposed, they are probably a dickhead, if they are wayyyy too eager, they are either insane or just looking for easy bpd girlie pussy.
>>35047926>>35047975Idk who A is>>35048016Oh ok>>35048000Me.
>>35048075Crystals are retarded either way. Now astrology? That shit is science
the alcohol has stopped putting me to sleepconcerning.
>>35048075desu if that was her only flaw she would've been absolutely perfect but there were a few other severe dealbreakers. it's not a red flag by itself but it's an indicator there are probably other scary things underneath the surface.
Easiest ways to ruin your life 1. Date a Libra man 2. Become a drug addict 3. Become a porn star
>>35048103>Date a Libra man… does the placement matter?
I understand that the gifts given to me aren’t mine and are being redistributed or returned. That’s fine. I have no desire to live another live and would like to end the cycle.
>>35048072Grandiose narc
>>35048264Grandiose narc
>>35044420Part 1: Lol I got a good one for this thread. Last year when I was in jail I Beat up this older, white guy for being racists and weird. I think this dude might’ve been autistic or something. He was definitely OFF. I had noticed him staring at me outta nowhere. I was like WTF?? Tf is wrong with buddy and why is he looking at me at like random times throughout the day? I’d turn and look and he’d just be zoned out, staring at me. That happened like twice. One day, we were playing cards and I ended up playing against his team. I was tapping a pencil or something and he said something about me tapping the pencil. From that point I knew, yeah dude is slow. For him to even say anything to me, he’s completely off and lacks self-awareness. I can’t remember what I said back, but I remember we had words. I said something back, I just can’t recall what I said.
>>35048307Part 2: So one day, we’re walking back from the gym (rec time), we’re all filing through the door, a door that would swing shut if the person in front of you didn’t hold the door. Now this place was Freezing all the time and I was always pissed and mad so I had my arms in my sleeves. I kinda slid through the door without even touching it, which any other time wouldn’t have been a big deal but apparently, this guy was behind me. I hear someone say, “Get that Door for me BOY!!” Lol, I was so caught off guard and shocked yet at the same time I was in a constant state of anger because my girl at the time was as cheating and lying and making my life a living nightmare. So to be honest with you, a part of me deep down inside got happy, because this dude has possibly just turned himself into a free punching bag. At first, I just KNEW whoever said that wasn’t talking to me. Like, I gotta be the LAST mf they talking to. I turn around, and that dude is right behind me looking right at me. He looks at me and goes, “Yeah, I’m talking to you!! Ch0m0!!” LMFAO WHAT?? When he said the “C” word, that’s when I knew in my head “lol yeah I’m finna rock buddy.” Soon as he said that my hands came outta my sleeves and I Punched this dude Square in his lips! Lol. Bro, I beat the coins out this guys head LOL. People started getting hype and yelling “GET EM!!! WhOOP HIS A$$!!! Lol. This was classic movie material. This lame mf tried to grab and hold onto my arm. This guys like 20 years older than me, and my same weight and height, probably a little bigger. (I’m 6ft, like 180 pounds).
>>35048313Part 3: People were so happy that I beat this guy up that later on that night, when the day was over and I walked into my dorm the whole dorm broke into an applause and started clapping LMFAO. And on top of that, the crazy part about this whole situation is I didn’t even get in trouble and there were cameras everywhere. None of the c.o’s or staff even said anything at all. And then dude actually started acting different. It’s like that helped him. He started being nice, started helping people. So if you’re racist, maybe a good beatdown will help fix that.
>>35048307I’m mixed (for context)
Should I stay up another day, or go to sleep now?
>>35048345depends on how much meth you have left
>>35048378I don't do meth.
My ex ruined my fetishes since the day we were Skyping and he "accidentally" shared his screen while on r34 looking at loli/shota. Looking back now, iirc, he might have done that on purpose to get a reaction from me when he found out I was still talking to my former ex at the time.
I gave up on all my dreams one by one, I humbled myself and decided I just wanted a family one day, that's all, only to end up with a vindictive person that fucked me up now I don't even want to date ever again. I don't even see the point of living anymore, I just gave my sincere love to someone so cruel who uses people.
Husband came in at 430 am again. Like, buddy, you already made your point yesterday- you said you're too hurt to talk - so you try and hurt me/annoy/'prank' me again?I was too reactive this time- guess that's why you did it huh? Didnt get the reaction you wanted yesterday so you do it again. Oh well. Got me. Wow you're such a clever mastermind bullying a ditsy pregnant mom.By the way, you broke the promise we made when you said you weren't going to shut down anymore. Remember? The promise I made that day was that I wasn't going to leave you without telling you again...
Do you even like me? As in, being around me, like what I say, even what I dont say?Do you even like what I do for us? What foods I cook, what treats I buy. What I teach them. Do you even see me as your partner? When you grew up thinking about your future spouse - who did you see?
>>35048087Then why do u post about “A”?
>>35048087And why are u making false accusations about me?
>>35048467>>35048492OH SHIT!
Is the Alex x Mike showdown finally happening?
>>35048409if you can love the wrong person that much, imagine how much you can love the right person
>>35048518december right before maria comes back
Have you guys ever wondered if it's all really worth it? Friends, family, acquaintances like everything.Cuz fuck dude, I got a little drunk and started thinking that I've really been an asshole who hasn't been able to change anything at all with everyone and everything, I want everyone to be okay and not suffer or anything, but I see myself outside of that equation, kind of like my time has passed and now I'm just leaving bad things behind.
>>35048536Narc
>>35048536I really wish I'd be able to, for now I have nothing left to give, and no hope, these days I don't go out much, have no desire to do the things I used to live, or to meet people and get to know them in a deeper level.I've realized my mistakes, I lacked boundaries and ignored the red flags, never again.
>>35048594huh? it sounded like that anon just needed some reassurance.
>>35048599Covert narcissist manipulation for sympathy
>>35048607Considering the fact that it was my partner who idealized me then devalued me, insulted my body, mocked intimate moments, talked about other people they could easily have sex with, flirted with others in front me, would talk about such delight when others kept eyeing them, and only every now and then would give me a breadcrumb of attention, and would get mad that I was hurt after being insulted, I'm not quite sure I am the narc.
>>35048409The kind of Disney romance modern Christians are so fond of.>>35048640It's possible you are both narcissistsEither way, foids that fall for men falsely promising them families don't get sympathy from either side.
>>35048409Grieve the life you wanted- that's fair. But it's a blessing there's no kids involved. If you really want a family, adopt siblings when you're older/more established. Work to save money so you can be the cool mom/dad to go on vacations/presents/do family stuff. If you're wealthy get a sperm/egg donor/surrogate. I know it feels bleak and you never want to date, that's your choice and fair. But feelings aren't permanent. Live in the space you're comfortable with- date yourself. Whatever dreams you gave up, any that you can recreate now?>>35048640I read it like they were calling the replier a narc, not you imo
>>35048467>>35048492Oh you mean A as in Alex. Not a false accusationYou wrote creepy larps about mariahttps://archive.4plebs.org/adv/thread/32971796/#32986675>>35048518I really don't care to even interact with him or the background noise he produces. I only care about her. >>35048577Oh? Is that when she is? I'll listen when she tells me directly herself. I won't be influenced by others attempt for me to assume things of her.
>>35048594Saying>if you can love the wrong person that much, imagine how much you can love the right personIs not a narc thing. It's supportive caring perspective You being against that statement actually point to you being the narc and are projecting in an attempt to trap the person with demoralization so they don't leave you.
yeah that's right, i made my girlfriend cum... B^)
>>35048640If you are the girl why was abused then you are not the narc and the asshat is projecting on you to try to make you seem like the aggressorIf you are the abuser then you are being manipulative and you are the narc. >>35048655You keep trying to demoralize true love as a Disney romance. Just because you depend on convincing others that love is transactional because then instead of naturally being selfless and giving to the person you can manipulate them into owing you and forcing your way up the ladder by guilt tripping and gaslighting them. True love is not transactional and I'm thankful the person you decided into being with you is done with your narc bullshit.
I didn't write that>>35048287 #I'm not. You are most likely that at your ego was bruised so you are projecting.I'm keeping my promise to her>You're the best, perfect to me>I'm so lucky>When you become a lot of my firsts I'll be totally obsessed with youIt's 'when'>I want it to happen so bad>You make me feel things I've never felt before>I'm only yours>I love only youI love you>I love you moreDo you choose for me to be yours as I want you to be mine>I posted on r9k thinking you would see it>I do>You have to wait for meI love you with all my heart and I will wait as long as you need>I love you too. that makes me feel at ease>I promise it will be * and * at the beach someday, if your even still want to see my face
I won't ever do what I did to you and your personas ever again. I know it is wrong. I never meant harm or to gain anything from it. I honestly don't know what the fuck my problem is. Please show me mercy.
>>35048691Grandiose narc who is performing.
>>35048699You are projecting "performing" because I literally called you out for doing that in your abuse. I have faith my m knows and trusts me more than your bullshit attempts at manipulation her perspective of me.
>>35048669I’ve only made two posts as “anonymous” since 2023 and both times I immediately corrected it by indicating that I forgot my tag. I’ve made this abundantly clear and u likely read it as well so why are u playing dumb?
>>35047960U gonna behead someone with ur dick? Sick bro!
>>35048686Well done you did the bare minimum.
>>35048691So weird.. Even if you're not a liar, the way you talk about your woman-game is weird.
>>35048698this applies to everyone btw. I knew i wouldn't be able to get in. my life is over. it never even began.
A 7 year obsessive, giving advice on how to get a girl... Bit rich isn't it?
I need to get better, but I will not submit myself to being in an institution or anything. I need to truly be free. When you are trapped in a cage for so long, you don't know how to interact normally anymore, especially with people you feel so much anxiety around. This ISNT RIGHT. I WILL NEVER DO IT AGAIN. I WILL NEVER CONTACT ANY OF THE PARTIES INVOLVED EVER AGAIN. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE
>>35048724fuck you nigger
I think that nobody will tell me what to do, eventually I have to choose myself
>>35048686Remarkable.
My husband hasn't made me cum in >1 year. Im lazy and I want him to do it for me.Tried cunnilingus after asking 4x because he wanted to do it while we're in the shower? Again, lazy girl I just to lay on my back and be serviced. Im always on top.Is this grounds for a ultimatum/divorce? Or is that being selfish and sexcrazed. I do have fun during sex but never climax. He tried once for an hour with no success (I think because porn was playing, I think it was his technique to set the mood?)I think after that fail he was embarassed/lazy and didn't try again. We've talked about how this is a problem for me / think it would help our little marital spats but it doesnt seem like a priority.What do anonsAlso dude who made gf cum - good job - you the A1
Goodnight, little one. I hope it can go back to being us vs the world again.
>>35048803I wish that was my bitch calling me lil one n shit damn
unless I'm paranoid. I would always have loved to work with you. Evidently, I wasn't able to put in the "proper" work.
>>35048797Goofy hoe don't do a whole divorce over that goddamn
>>35048812Are you short or is your dick small? That's mad cute, own that lil1
>>35048814Iss like dat
not maliciously or anything, just... I wanted to be normal with you. with everyone. I wanted to be s proper human. I wasn't able to fake it like some people. I don't mean that in a weird conspiracy way btw, like a... mental way.
>>35048820Nah I got a mommy thing for domineering asss Bitches
>>35048817Alright see i just needed to hear that thank you. Without the threat of divorce how do I get him to do something? This point so far I've not been demanding or verbose about sex, just enjoy having the closeness/connection. It doesnt feel fair and it makes me self conscious about myself.He had once said (in a very cruel way, via text, while we were fighting) that my pussy stinks and sex is torture because my vagina muscles squeeze him where he is wincing from the pain but is muscling through to make me happy and 'get my sex' because we are trying for a baby.Fast forward a few months and he denies these are currently happening, yet still no oral sex, no orgasms (for me, he does, sex is 10-30 mins)I'm just not happy desu I think my feelings were hurt about the texts for a long time (I've hurt him too) I want a family but I dont want to have kids anymore, idk
>sex cum money home house car money sex Is that all there is to life?
>>35048846Unless you lump home and food as one then yes, that's all life is. But hopefully some long periods of silence, being outside, being bored, looking at the weather change. Hopefully getting old with one person. Seems like a fantasy.
>>35048846life is literally as open ended as you want to make it dude
>>35048857That’s a pretty limited life>>35048858see post above
Playing classic maplestory is helping me forget you
>>35048846Just push yourself a little harder and you'll have more disposable income to have better life experiences.
>>35048837Find out what turns him on and exploit it. Be that bitch his dick be dreamin about. What turns him on can change sometimes, jus keep it healthy. But alot also you gotta be equally turned on
Making friends is impossible in today's politically obsessed society if you're not right enough for the rightoids and not left enough for the leftoids. I hate this world.
>>35048837Clean ya pussy but I love some vag clenching. Sum ppl dont tho
>>35049025They r all dumb, be smaterer
>>35049029Both those groups are so extreme if you say even one thing that aligns with the opposite side you're an enemy to them. It's fucking retarded.
>>35049041Idiots be useful
>>35049108I don't know how you're supposed to make friends when you don't subscribe to either group because that's all the US is now, far right religious nuts and far left progressive weirdos.
Told you I'm done. Your repeated covert insults and playing poor abandoned victim without taking any accountability or acknowledging the impact of what you've actually done all over these threads, was all I needed to sever the bond. I know now nothing will change, even if you manage to play pretend for a bit. It's not surface level behavior/impulse, it's your core beliefs, your ego. There's nothing left for you in me, and I want nothing of you.
>>35049316>over these threadsthis guy broke up with his gf over gioyc posts lmao
>>35049323No, but his posts gave me a lot of clarity, enough to know in doing the right thing.
I have inoperable brain cancer. Everyone around me is sad for me, and I understand that they will miss me, but what they don't understand is that even if it was curable, I wouldn't want to go through chemo or radiation therapy. So because I don't have these options at all, and I won't be seen as "selfish" for wanting to die naturally. But obviously I would sound like a heartless dick if I told them any of this, so I don't.
After working for uber and lyft I can fully understand why wef and blackrock want to kill most of the populous.
>>35049383https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3158014/
>>35049383https://www.iherb.com/pr/starwest-botanicals-organic-dandelion-root-raw-c-s-1-lb-453-6-g/22564
>>35049026I'm 95% sure that there wasn't an actual smell issue in the first place. Im in contact with my vulva daily - have had problems/treated it and I never once was told this to my face. It was told out of spite/malice.Either way, he outright denies that it's a current issue so idk.As to his sexual prefs he's pretty vanilla/low libido. He does watch futa/trans porn so it's probably my lack of dick. Ive suggested pegging which he says yes (just like the oral sex) but doesnt actually initiate it. I guess it's on me for not asking for it in the act itself, but honestly I think he's just a minimum effort type of personThe clenching i get, that's his penis and the way he described it (sex with me is torture) makes it out like he just doesnt like me. Yes I can voluntarily kegels but I wasn't doing that - his twisted brain said I was doing it on purpose - I wasnt.Again he says it's not happening now swasnt.Finally got an apology for the texts 6 months later - after asking once in person unsuccessfully and then again in therapyBut now he's mad/hurt because I "started a fight" during therapy.I cant win with this guy but I suspect our marriage would be 10x better if the sex stuff was sorted out. Now it teetering on me not really wanting to, it's not attractive behavior (I'm into adult men, not however he's acting - he's almost 40 ffs)
if i left at 10:30, i would have been able to see both movies back to back. now i'm not even sure if there is going to be a 2 hour delay between doing everything and being able to go to the threature. i could always walk around in random stores
I dont think youre a bad person I think you have arrested development from all the weed smoking. I really want you to quit, get therapy for your anger issues.You're a high functioning addict but your behavior is torturing me.
I’ve been telling everyone my name is Alex for the past year and a half, but I want to be Joe again, so I think I’m gonna tell people to call me Joe instead Do you guys like Joe or Alex better
>>35049450>>35049448Am looking into holistics and trial therapies with much skepticism. These help, thanks anon. It's not that I want to die, but I don't want to suffer severely to be treated either.
Please don’t abandon me. I miss you. Dreamt of you. Care about you. I’m sorry. Please. I need you. Please stop hating me.
When you cried and waited and begged I came. So why?You told me you needed me. Why do you hate me? I’m scared. I’m scared. I’m scared.
Why do you hate me? Why do you hate me? Why do you hate me? It hurts. It hurts. Why? I didn’t want this. It hurts.
>>35049464I like Alex better, Joe sounds like a fake name. If you're set on J, have you considered going by Jordan?
I felt so betrayed and hurt and I still stayed so why? WHY AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH YOU PROMISED I WAS I said I wanted you, that I loved you, that when all this ended I loved you. We held each other. Please don’t leave me alone.
Please. Help.
Sorry.
>>35049482You are a bad, evil person.
>>35049483It’s short for Joseph
>>35049494Everybody leaves me. I suppose I must be. But they promised they didn’t, wouldn’t. Even when they’d write and say they did. I just wanted to be cared for and wanted. I did bad things too, things that hurt them. Things I deeply regret not even now after having been left. I cried and told them how ashamed I was and they said they forgave me. But it wasn’t enough. Now I’m stuck here alone. It’s like an animal licking a fatal wound in the wild. Whatever is left of me is going to die. I’ll well and truly become a tool, my function.
They laughed at me when I tried to talk, how? Why? Won’t you stop and help? Hug me? Tell me that you’ll always be there the same way I told you? Why must you make of me a monster? Think me an unlovable beast?
You told me you loved me. I love you. Please help. Please.
You’re pretty, intelligent, and funny. Isn’t that what all the men say?
It doesn’t get any easier haha. Stakes higher. Ruined now. Heartless soon. I’ve been living for others forever, not any different. Just hurts. I want it to stop. Stop hurty. Holdy? No? Not coming to help? Haha. Hurts. Hurts. Hurts. I’ll stop now.
>>35049486What, damn it?
Abusers be like omg I said I was sorry for abusing you YOU are abusing ME now for not letting me back into your life you heartless piece of shit!!!
For what it’s worth you were never just your role. I did see you, see the damaged girl who never felt heard. I wanted to protect you. I’m sorry for lashing out. Sorry for writing those awful things. I never wanted you to see them but you did. I’m sorry for scaring you. It’s not what I intended but I know given everything why it made you fearful. I’m sorry you don’t feel like my apologies acknowledge my culpability in my actions, intended or not. Im sorry for asking for help. I’m sorry that I couldn’t accept your demand. The label would be too much, I couldn’t ever forgive myself, that’s why I didn’t want you to wear it either. It’s how I show love. Raised differently, I guess. Maybe instinct? It’s not like someone sat me down and told me that. I promise though, I know what I did was wrong, that’s why I apologized even before. It’s why it hurt to have the forgiveness taken back. I thought things were getting better. That the worst part of our lives had passed and we’d chosen each other. I love you. I’ll keep telling you that when I see you. If you forgive me that’s great, it’s all is ever want, but you don’t have to. I don’t wish for you to be scared and unhappy. Sorry that’s what I became for you. I get why you asked what you asked. For assurance that it won’t happen again. It’s a wording thing for me, not a disagreement about actions. I’m not trying to explain away your pain and hurt. You have a right to it. I’m sorry. I want to hold you. Tell you it’ll be ok, that you’re loved. I want to listen, to tell you that you aren’t a burden. To shield both of you. I want you to not feel ashamed or that you have to hide anything from me. I remember how scared you were to give me that letter. How I said it was no big deal because you were mine.
I didn’t lie to them to protect myself. I lied to protect you. They wanted me to throw you under the bus. That’s what all their comments were aimed at. When they’d drive by or follow me after failing to get me to turn on you, it was their tantrum. They got pissy after the first week, left after the subsequent one(s). It would’ve gotten me out of it, but would’ve hurt you two. I loved meeting you on weekends. Promising we’d see each other soon. Just getting through the days until then. Tell me, did things really not change sufficiently? They felt better for me. Not perfect, but better. Am I wasting my time? Trying to connect, to be open? It’s what I want. Arms still extended, waiting for you to take your place in them.
Have you really found another? What was it 20 people already? There are some posts I’m not certain are yours, like with Mike crashing out about C before. I miss taking you to restaurants, I’d like to go to the zoo again and see our tiger friend. I miss sharing tea, and you nibbling bits of my chocolate in our cupboards for me to totally not discover later. I miss when you’d tell me stories from your childhood, the mermaid one is a favourite of mine. Could see you doing that now. I wanted to protect that girl, not harm her. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me. Like when we first went to my cottage, and we spoke about the value of it, and you write that letter to her, and showed me, and I held you as you cried. I cried myself too, even then. I don’t know if you felt, but I cried for you. I tried to hide them. I didn’t want to ruin things, to look weak. You needed strength. I wanted to be that for you. Feels like when I’m not you hate me for it, or laugh.
If I helped you in any capacity then that’s a good thing, in any case. I’m hurting, I need you. Please don’t abandon me. Please don’t hate me.
Ah but youre so good at being cold. You put on that angry customer voice yiu did to that jeet pizza delivery guy. It makes me want to smile a bit. I remember when you were scared about pregnancy and confided in me that you’ve always had an urge to run, and that it bothered you. It’s never gone away, has it? I wanted to start raising livestock together, were those plans fake? Did you not want that with me? People tell me it was just to placate me, those plans we made. They say you were plotting. I don’t want to believe it much in the same way I didn’t want to believe (((them))). Did you just need help? Want Holdy? Do you really hate me?
Im hurt, but not mad. I was doing better, I thought. I genuinely did read about it for you. Wanted to help. But it was too much already yeah? It had already been toi much for you. I’m sorry. I didn’t expect you to just ‘get over it’. That’s not what forgiveness means.
Le epic narcissistic crash out at losing his supply lol can't wait until he turns back to hating her
>>35049373Ok s
I don't hate anyone. I'm not sure if I even hate myself anymore. Should I?
>>35049662also this is unrelated to anything ITT. Goodbye.
>>35044420I miss youI need youI'll take you backJust say the words
Please..
can't take it anymore
I fucking hate living here and can't escape. (UK) There's perks to living here: NHS, universal credit but I'm very pro free speech and expression; something this country is not only suppressing but also the average normie seems to support.Online safety act has 69% in favour when polling people. 72% support the impending social media restrictions both of these mean giving up your ID or even bank details. Not to mention people are getting arrested for wrong think or even Photoshopping a politician to look like a rabbit."Just vote them out" seems impossible when every normie supports this and the alternatives seem equally shit if not worse.I don't have the money nor career path to escape this shit. Our government was BTFO when they tried and failed to fine 4chan. Expect ISP blocks for here soon...
https://youtu.be/3tAPiq9yj_0?si=FsXgF3eU5JTubpsr
I come home after a 10 hour shift. Didn't have time to eat anything all day except a quick breakfast. 1 hour commute. Arrive home. Exhausted. Can't even look forward to the weekend because I have to work to finish a project. Can't even complain because I chose to take up this amount of work willingly. Am stupid. Feel so tired I start feeling dizzy and sick. Go to the bathroom. Cut myself. Long ass hot shower with zero thoughts. Come out. Still exhausted. Hate that I cut but don't plan on stopping.Anons. Do I skip dinner. Or do I eat something indulgent. God I just want carbs and sleep...
fuck this gay thread but i really wanna kms
Out of all the things I did throughout those years, I'm absolutely grateful I gave you that giant bruise on your face. On top of that, shredding your hard work was the best part of it all. I'll never fathom the thought of doing any more harm, because my doings were enough for me to realize you're not even worth looking back at to seek anything more. What's worse than a cheater? A man that doesn't have the courage to end it right then and there only to follow his father's footsteps. You're far more disappointing than a cuck.
>>35049962Eat and go to sleep with a full belly anonYoure gonna sleep like a hibernating bear
someone backed into my car last night, now my driver side front door won't open and it creaks like shit when turning left. made a claim and police report this morning since they didn't leave info, but checked later today and they came back and left a note. texted them for insurance info and waiting to hear back.just so fucking annoyed.
>>35044420>Get It Off Your Chest
>>35049962fyi cutting is gay but I'm glad you got that off your chest
>>35050023Ate noodles and I stopped caring about overdosing. Carbs truly are life.>>35050045I'm a woman and being gay is awesome fyi
I'm more "asexual" than any self-proclaimed asexual I've ever talked to and I wouldn't even use that label to describe myself. Asexual women make me feel uncomfortable as they're almost always into some weird omegaverse yaoi rape shit and more depraved than I'll ever be
>>35050105That is because women have higher libidos than men
i got my period again for the first time in over 3 years and i can’t tell if im freaking out over it or if i can make peace with this
>>35050129That's fine but why do some many people especially women label themselves as asexual then when you get to know them it turns out they are the most sexually depraved freaks you've ever met
>>35049700who are you again? why are you posting this?
>>35049462Who is this for
>>35050178anyone ITT who smokes the devils lettuce
>>35049544what did you do that was so wrong?
>>35048714Nah. I've seen you repeatedly put 'baby girl' in posts. Same scitzo writing about your wives as you did in your creepy larp about Maria.
>>35048728If you knew who made the thread and why then you would understand why I responded that way.
>>35048757Hasn't been 7 years and I can see you are trying really hard to attack me because your narc ego is bruised. >>35048803Creepy
>>35049383Imo you are making the right choice. If terminal then it's not worth living longer with that much pain. Enjoy and make the most of the time you have left. Possibly do a indiegogo for funds to travel or live the one thing you have always wanted to do.
>>35049464Big orange cat. You said you didn't make anonymous posts >>35048714
I thought I was average height all my life. Turns out I'm not even average in that
>>35049558I don't see what you have to do with her or I
When we were communicating directly we didn't have to deal with anyone else's garbage and pollution. It will be nice to hear and see each other again. To have fun. I'd rather not respond to any of this shit and just chill.
>>35049495never trust a joseph
>>35050216You’re mistaking me with someone else, Mike.
>>35050252Correct. I don’t post with “anonymous” as a name tag.
>>35050252>>35050866I stopped posted with “anonymous” as a name tag during 2023.
might hit the benny tonight desumake that homemade zzzquil plus plus p
Can't find a cool looking winter coat that I like. There are no pleasing looking clothing articles on the market right now. Polyester makes everything look terrible.I'm obsessed with the fact that life is short and I am outraged that in the time of my life I have to put up with low quality clothing articles.
There is something old and lost inside me. It calls out for it's others, all I hear are echoes. We've all devolved too much. We've lost.
I would love to be in love with you, and I don't know how to approach this position to you yet.
>>35051010>Can't find a cool looking winter coat that I like. There are no pleasing looking clothing articles on the market right now. Polyester makes everything look terrible.budget too low
Narcing out about me>>>/b/955794863
Why are troons always trying to be aggressive and violent for their ego? How do you become the Karen you hate so much?
Must be tough being a class traitor.
>>35051486What do you mean? I'm just not allowed to be in the Intelligence community or Military anymore.
Please pray that my mom's illness isn't severe.
>>35051489Not you
>>35051483>implying chuds aren't also aggressive and violent
i'm so glad i left
I regret helping you with your Big-O notation homework. You just use people.
>>35050141You stress people out with your own stressors.
You’ve got good dick, it’s big and you can last many rounds. Too bad you’re a self-absorbed narcissist with an annoying personality that’s controlling and negative thinking. I cannot stand you bitching about your kitchen job so I had to cut ties. You’re not husband material that can lead our family. I had to stop idealizing you. Reality is you’re emotionally immature and financially illiterate. I feel bad for the girl you’re fooling. She’s settling, playing both your mom and therapist. Yikes! I’m glad it isn’t me. I’m glad all of us women before her broke free.
>>35051545>implying troons aren't just a subspecies of chuds
>>35051586cuz i started bleeding involuntarily? its a big deal to me and i dont have anyone to share it with, isnt this place meant to share things when u have no one else to turn to?
>>35051594I keep getting guys just like this minus the big dick. Now I'm mad
>>35051621I’m sorry anon. You’ll find your good dick, good personality, good person one day! Sadly that was the only thing good thing about him (his dick), so it was easy to forgive and forget him.
>>35051510Thought this was another thread, my mistake.
>>35051594>big dick>kitchen jobChecks out
>>35051545Troons are chuds. Chuds are just frustrated manlets but at least they acknowledge that
>>35051564What happened desu
should i buy a guy's onlyfans for just one month
Yo glowie are you watching for my bro the timetraveller as well? Be nice to Marty.
If I don't kill myself before 40 then I'd better have a real good reason for staying alive.
I still have your last gift with the note taunting me saying " Anon is a hater xD " and the stale homemade biscuits.
>>35050141Why would it be a bad thing? It's s sign of good health unless you have already gone through menopause.
>>35051794i didnt have it for so long cause i was on hrt but i recently made peace with being a girl so ive been easing off testosterone but i still stayed on a low dose solely to avoid menstruating again yet it still happened, apart of me is glad to get it over with but i still wish i just didnt have a uterus at all to avoid it entirely since i never wish to be pregnant so its all for naught.
It's kinda unfair that my friends with peaceful lives are turbo normies who can't read explicit erotica because it feels too exposed and just have intimacy with their partners, and think liking feet is weird.Meanwhile I, with the fake stupid dumb ""trauma"" and fear/disgust of sex and intimacy and self-hatred and awful relationship with my sexuality, ME, I have to be sexually aroused when I cut myself or by thinking of overdosing and dying.What the fuck.
>>35051797Ah, dysmorphia being involved does change the conversation, yeah. I hope you are happy and comfortable with living as a woman, anon. Periods can be annoying but they are something almost all women go through, they are normal and your body working correctly. Even if you won't have children, having a menstrual cycle I'd actually one of the most protective factors for overall health known to man. Women in fertile age tend to have a lot less medical complications than men. So even if you don't have children, you can think of it as your body taking care of you :)
>>35051804thanks anon, ive always just chalked up periods and even having a uterus in general as just being a thing for pregnancy and nothing more so ur new perspective did make me feel a bit better. i still plan on getting a hysterectomy but for now i dont feel too bad abt being a bleeder again. like u said, its normal.
>>35051489why not?
>>35051865Personal reasons.
>>35051867so it's not "I'm not allowed" you just dont want to.
>>35051870My Dad said 'No more'. Which is why I said "Personal reasons."
>>35051872okay. what is his reasoning? you're an adult. I assume be must be wise.
>>35051883I'd rather not get into it, but I think it's something to do with my service in a past iteration of this reality. He doesn't like the way they treated me, for some reason or another.
>>35051886what? are you...sane?
>>35051891Some don't think so. This is why I said 'Personal reasons'.
>>35051894I see. Well, I'd love to understand, but we don't know each other.
>>35050199What about drinking too much? Dont you do that?
>>35051925sometimes yes, sometimes no.
where did you think you were?
>>35051595Literally
>>35051931Sounds like arrested development
>>35051952worrisome!
Gothic Castle?
Are you a vampire? Are you here to..... oh no ...... my bloooooooooooooood : (
i have a crush on this one tiktok looksmaxxer's brother that he often shows in his videos w him, he’s got these cute big eyes i wish he was my bf
I'll never be able to go home.
>>35052088why?
>>35052088Depends
What is this called? When you say something and someone gets seemingly very hurt and makes an absurd statement. For example >someone sends me a lot of links/reels/shorts>look at a couple of them and react to them >they get upset that I haven't reacted to all of them >tell them it was a lot of links they sent in a short amount of time and I probably missed some >they say 'fine I'll never send you any links ever again' Or like>someone is spending a VERY long time talking about a subject>basically having a monologue and I may as well not be there >ask if they can summarize it because a lot of time has passed >they say they'll never talk about that subject ever again Like how am I supposed to proceed when that happens? It seems really childish. I usually say 'ok' and then the person gets even more mad?
>>35052121Its childish, butt hurt reaction. They care more about the link, the subject than they care about you.
>>35052143It's annoying as hell
It hurts. It all hurts. All the time.
At least I see through it now, can see what would have lay ahead. You're not hurt, you're just mad I left.
Well, they're not called dreams for nothing. Haha.
Had I been more patient, more discerning, could I have found what I needed? Someone who cared, was kind, patient, safe, rather that someone who demanded to be seen that way despite acting otherwise? Someone who saw my outstretched hand and took it, rather than seeing an attack and punishing me for it?
How can one forgive such things, such harm? And I really did try. Is it truly my own cruelty that keeps me up with nightmares and panic attacks of *their* actions and words? Is it my lack of forgiveness that spurs them to keep doing the things they demand my forgiveness for?
My final request - a plea for help and to rebuild together - shot down, with black eyes and venom tongue.
Deserving it - is that what made you feel entitled to do the same? That I had endured harm before you, meant I had to endure it with you, too? I remember the anger with which you said I had stayed with others longer, put up with their harm for longer, as if that was permission for you, and I was expected to stay and bear it.
That I deserved it, had done something to make them treat me this way and say such things, I think was the most honest you had ever been with me, and explained everything about why you did the same.
I see why other women warn to never share with a man how another has harmed you. It gives then blueprints and permission to do the same.
They don't care how they've harmed you, only that you deny them access to continue doing so.
Vampires. It's the greatest harm, abandonment, to them for you to remove yourself from their bite.
I let desire for love and acceptance blind me, lead me straight into a trap.
I'm going to vomit again.
Did I really deserve that? Was it all I was worth, and only barely that?
I suppose a wife really is just a whore with a ring. Be quiet, be what he wants, accept what he decides you're worth.
I won't drink too much, in fact, I will have fun. I might even meet some people. That wouldn't be too bad. I just never know what to expect
You wanted me dead. Why is this not enough?
I really do want to let go. Rest.
Despite it all, some small, stupid, weak little child still loves you, because she doesn't know any better, or anything else.
Ha haha. Grew up being glared at, dismissed, snapped and yelled at for crying, for needing, for not being what they wanted me to be. Of course that was what I ended up with.
