>>25625040
met my therapist to vent about my relationship. made me realize how shit it actually. left feeling so light because i know it's over and that I don't need to feel the subtle occasional shittiness from being w her

60 teenagers had a party in the cul-de-sac in front of my house last night. I was in the city getting way too handsy with a nervous mom on dance floor so I didn't see any of it, but the neighbor said the cops came and the kids scattered down the cliffside and off into the woods and through everyone's yard. I'm old enough that I hope some of them turned their ankles or their trashed out cars got towed. Happy Halloween everybody

Halloween is for fucking the skinniest single mom you can find, preferably in her house with the paper thin walls so the generational nightmare of being 12 and putting a pillow over your head to drown out your mom's grunting stays alive.

>>25625040
Gonna be a very boring one for me. Was gonna hang out at my friend's house but those plans got dashed.

Have an idea about a short story on a methadone clinic heroin addict who has taken it upon themself to be resident OP of this inherently awful /wyt/ thread. A character deeply seen into and judged with scrupulous fairness. Think it’d be a good mouthpiece for some other feelings I have.

It's fucking mindboggling how fucking obsessed leftists are with christianity ("religion")
>the bad guy thinks he is the head of a religion like the pope!!!! cuz he's evil and like, dude, christians bad!!!!!
>dude biblically accurate angels!!!! they're like FREAKS man like holy shit lmao totally fucking alien dude bro christians?!
>lol dude there's god like, god but he sharts himself lol!!!! so fucking funny hahahah!!! lol god is shit bro!!!!
>dude god god god god god god god god god christians jesus religion!!! virgin mary giving blowjobs cuz lol christianity fucking lmao funny!!!!
I'm an atheist and I think about religion or christians maybe once a month. If you're an atheist how can it be that important to dunk specifically on christians every 5 seconds, I know it's because you're guaranteed no consequences unlike with muslims who'll chop your head off with an axe, but why? Is it really all about perceived rebellion against the system when you use chatgpt more than your brain? is that not the system or what?
Why do they never make fun of jews? It's cool to be pro Palestine too right now, why do they never dunk on jews? Not even zionists? I'm not sure if they know what a zionist is. A lot of them don't even know the old testament is jewish, how the fuck do they not know? How do you become so obsessed with a specific religion when there isn't even some basic information that warrants this obsession except that it's been white people's religion and the worst thing it did for you was mention that mashing your dick to porn 27 times a day is not a good thing?
It's so mentally exhausting I don't fucking know how to deal with these people wasting my fucking time. Every other person my age is a leftist and they're all running this script.

>>25625107
ever considered staring your opinions normally or nah?

>>25625109
They assume you're also running the script and if you're not then you are a right winger (you can't be a christian cause you're smart) or some other spook. I'm pretty sure I've got a bunch of labels on me already for facecrime. I don't want to get into arguments with people when there's nothing I can achieve with it like a more intelligent conversation
It's so fucking tiresome I just want to be alone

So in Chicago you really just can bring a weed vape legally into a concert?

dude... weed...

>>25625116
sorry! i just meant talking like a normal human being. there’s an ancient idea about ‘how you talk vs what you talk’. it still lives in small talk among normies. worth paying attention to.

>>25625116
I don’t know, find Christian spaces

Oh, go take a hike and hit a snake on the head with a shovel

>>25625100
Who writes this stuff?

>>25625054
Are you the engaged guy from last thread with cold feet?

>>25625138
It only just occurred to be how hilariously ridiculous this sounds but it’s actually just a recount of the reality. Stranger than fiction…

>>25625132
how about you fuck off back to rddit you fucking gay nigger retard?

>>25625187
yeah yeah i know swear word are still
funny on 4chan but if you could (hypothetically) actually talk normally to another grownup how would it go.

Thinking about twinks and learning latin

>>25625198
NTA, but, please, leave.

>>25625229
the feeling is mutual

>>25625127
One time I was at a Danny Brown concert (or was it Mac DeMarco?) at the Roseland and someone in the crowd in front of me blew a weed hit straight up and they were promptly found and escorted out. This was before it was legalized, thoughbeit

i’m too clever for this board

So what do I say when I open the door today? I've never handed out candy all evening before. I open with a smile, they say "trick-or-treat!" then I say what? "Nice costumes"?

You know you go for too many walks around the neighborhood when one of the ladies in her garage stops you and says, "hey! do you not have a job?"

because i feel close to ending, i want to kind of write a goodbye letter, that goes like this:

save them kids, even though evil witches were not invited and made a mess, i hope the world turns around beautiful.

i will never know the truth, which is probably breaking many rules. perhaps i am not grown up and real because of my lack of, well many things. just know that i tried.

i am not mad of any circumstance, that left me feeling a chunk of me was taken, probably it that was necessary for whatever reason. id like something like if i cant have a life here, i take my story to the other side.

i just wish i would have made it, you know. to see.

I don’t celebrate Halloween, I don’t feel capable of bringing children joy at this stage of my life.

leaving my porch light off and staying inside tonight since my neighborhood is like 95% families with young kids and im the weird perma single incel loser creep and the idea of giving candy out and thus having to see and speak with a bunch of happy families all night long is mortifying

>>25625278
Sad. Be communal, anon.

>>25625280
no way. no one wants to deal with a poorly socialized ugly sperg on a holiday like this, I would just bring the mood down for everyone who came by. much easier to shut myself in.

>>25625286
>no one wants to deal with a poorly socialized ugly sperg on a holiday like this,
They will if you hand out some candy (and wear some decent clothes and shower). Let this be a lesson in life. If you have something to offer, people will gravitate to you!

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>>25625319

>>25625040
>You will never be in your early 20's in 1980's in Europe/USA, go clubbing, have fun with your friends, fuck hot bitches, then marry a girl, buy a house, have 3-4 kids, get a job and work until you retire 40 years later, back then you didn't had to worry about being watched 24/7 by cameras/drones or being on social networks
>instead you live in a nightmare that will keep getting worse until this World will make Hell look like a fucking joke

I am so tired

>>25625290
>If you have something to offer, people will gravitate to you!
I don't have anything to offer though

>>25625207
I’m interested. Care to elaborate?

>>25625313
...again, the candy.

>>25625308
>instead you live in a nightmare that will keep getting worse until this World will make Hell look like a fucking joke
Check out from the news media and voila, life is tolerable again!

I need to make myself a drink before the trick-or-treating starts, calm my nerves.

>>25625319
>dude just ignore reality and things will be fine lmao
>gas prices still high as fuck, food prices keep rising, to buy a house you need to sell your kidney and go 30 years into debt, 24/7 massive surveillance, job market is a trash on fire etc

People like you will close their eyes while the house is burning

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Whats the difference between Amor Fati and just exercising gratitude?

>>25625116
I'll show you a face crime, Emiru isn't the only picture my jack off tablet can display pal, let's just say bring one of those clear lucite masks that some basketball players have to protect their nose, PAL.

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I freak the fuck out when applying for a job. How can I take it easy.

>>25625333
there are flowers everywhere for those who want to see them

>>25625127
Almost everywhere with legal weed you can bring your vape in. Some places will kick you out of you start using it where everyone can see you, usually they stop bothering with that a ways into the concert. Best to go do hits in the bathroom or outside in the smoking area if they have one of those, but you'll always see a few people discreetly taking puffs most of the time if you look around.

I used to have a disposable I would bring out so I could cheaply replace it if they wanted me to not bring it in and I didn't want to walk back to the car and get back in line to keep it, but no one ever bothered me about it so I just bring my regular one that takes the replaceable tube things now.

>>25625315
He sent me a long email about tying up their junk with lengths of jute cord but he said I can't repost it here because of copyright. There's a few sections in Latin and it all looks correct to me but it's been years since I really studied it so who knows.

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>>25625386 >>25625421

>>25625368
Wrap his balls up tight then paddle them hard with your hairbrush as he cries then lecture him to be a good boy in Latin: Eris bonus puer!

There's electricity in the air. Can you feel it?

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>>25625447

Yeah so I'm doing a dopamine detox this coming week, which means I'm better than you btw because I'm bettering myself and you're not. Ceteris paribus thats just simple logic :)

>>25625374
What I don't like about Latin is that to yell "Go!" at someone, like maybe they have gotten their cart of tied up twinks stuck in the ruts in the road in front of you and you need to make it to the public bakery with your lump of uncooked dough in time to have it baked for you before nightfall, anyway you're yelling "Go! Fucking gooooooo!" at them but in Latin that's just "I! Iiiiiiiiii!!!!" so you just sound like you're making a beeping sound with your mouth. Should've learned Greek instead of this goofy ass sidelined lingua franca.

My scoliosis has gotten worse lately, I literally can sense left rib poking my intestines.

The instruction "you are to" greatly amuses me because it's simultaneously very polite and incredibly rude.

>>25625361
Although I agree with triple of truth >>25625333 this >>25625319 was a little let-them-eat-cake-ish of me as I live in my own flat and can somewhat sustain it financially.

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>>25625374
This is peak dark academia!

No pedo shit but I like hearing the sounds of children laughing and playing—it fills me with joy.

>>25625380
Can’t you just buy a dumbphone off eBay and call it a day?

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>>25625386
>Should've learned Greek instead of this goofy ass sidelined lingua franca.
Look on the bright side - you get to understand cat memes on Pinterest!

There are times where a song or a section of a music gets stuck in my head. This currently one time.

https://vocaroo.com/1oLx1q2C5ybe

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>>25625490 >>25625509

On the edge of sleep, do ever find yourself back in the pocket worlds of dreams you had years ago and haven't given a second thought to since? An impossible concrete silo in the middle of your walk to elementary school, or a beach in an approximation of the mediterranean full of thousands of people? Just as you left them years ago.

>>25625479
You never actually forget your dreams. In fact you don't really forget things at all. You just lose the way back to them. When you're at the gates of sleep, you can find your way again because you are in a similar state of mind as when you remembered them last.
If you make an effort to consciously take note of your dreams immediately after waking, before you even move, your recall will improve. If you are like me you may notice that your dreams all take place in one shared space, or more eerily, that the person who you experience being in dreams is not who you are when waking.
In a similar way, you can recall things long forgotten if you can find your way back to the exact train of thought you had when you last recalled whatever it was. This is difficult because most people do not consciously take note of the specific circumstances under which they think of something, but the unconscious part of the body does what we do not do consciously. The next time you smell something specific and a deeply buried memory returns unbidden you'll experience what I mean.

>>25625425
I think that's virtually universal outside of malcontents and misanthropes.

>>25625490
Very interesting stuff. I've only written down a few of my dreams in my life, just quick rambling notes. Here's one (I often think about making things into music videos)

wierd dream to the tune of this is a call by foo fighters: nursing baby in crook of my arm on the train having a discussion with someone when suddenly it merges in to my arm which becomes like clear amber jelly in appearance. One of the major veins in my arm is now directing oxygen in the baby's nostril, it's is encased in my arm comfortably and happily like some lynchian cronenbergian test tube imagery. the baby is in its next stage of growing, the fact of which apparently everyone knows about except me. Music video where drumming and learning to live with it till it's time for the arm baby to be born once again

>>25625479
I had a haunted house dream that I revisited with many small variations between like 18 and 24, often semi lucid dream, in later redreamings I would consciously be trying things in the dream to see how the dream was built or whatever, testing it out kind of academically while still dreaming about a house we had become trapped in and had to struggle in to survive. Lots of the details and runs I've forgotten, but at least I remember the generalities.

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>>25625576 >>25625674

HAPPY HALLOWE'EN!!!!!!!

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Good night and happy Halloween yall!

I've got two characters who are the first I ever made. Been with me since I was about 10. Very dear to me. I've got two stories I think they can slot in, the first is my main project and a big fantasy world with an overarching plot while the second is a comedic slice-of-life and a lot more personal as it's based heavily on my own life. In my heart I think I know that they would fit like a glove in the SoL because they are also heavily based on my traits but I want more for them than that. I want them to be the protagonists, the villains, whatever, just part of something larger than a down to earth episodic type comedy. I don't know what I'm gonna do.

90 minutes till sunset, I'm getting nervous!!

Especially because it means I'll have to hangout in the living room for three hours instead of my room so I can hear the knocks on the front door.

>>25625519
Who the fuck is 'bill' burroughs? did he write Baked Lunch?

>>25625572
Just got our first trick or treater. Last one we got exactly one so statistically that's going to be it.

>>25625610
Just one? Sad.

>>25625040
Happy Halloween anons. I'm not a big Halloween fan, but if you are, I hope you're having fun.

in my first week at university, i met a girl at a club. i didn’t know anyone. i went with my roommates and they were dancing while i sat at a sort of corner table with only a jamaican guy who gave me two puffs of a joint earlier that night. she came up to me and said ‘you’re beautiful’. and gave me her number and said text her tomorrow (‘you better do it’). turns out she was 27 (9 years older than me). i only saw her three or four times after that. one time was a ‘date’ at her apt, which was very nicely furnished, she had a big tv on the wall which was playing bloom by beach house on youtube while we ate pasta alla vodka then watched the first half of an antonioni film on her sofa. i made no first moves.

I'm at a conundrum. My porch light is really dim, so I'm thinking I should leave the blinds to both sides of the front door open with the indoor light on, but then people will be able to see me inside and that's just awkward and weird. But then I worry if I close the blinds with the lights on, some people might think we're not open for business anyway. Ahhh!!

>>25625621
Th..That's the whole story? Did this just happen? Are you still in contact?

>>25625623
that’s all folks.

>>25625612
I thought we would get a lot of them last year. There are kids around here. We're the last house on a dead end and it's hilly, so I think the kids just skip coming down here.

Got two today now, which is going to look good for the metrics on the truck or treat index.

>>25625621
Did she suck your cock?

>>25625651
That's 100% increase YoY! You'll remain as CEO yet.

>>25625654
I didn't even have the light on. It's on now but I think two is going to be it

I want to eat my Costco chicken legs and hummus but can't because of the finger grease potentially interfering with a third trick or treater

>>25625653
she probably did his personal color analysis and got the ick

>>25625621
YOU’RE CUTE

babymaking sex with ______ ________

Hypothetically, would it be illegal for someone to be watching porn in their living room while opening the door for trick-or-treaters? They'd probably have news vans at their house within the hour, huh

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>>25625671
yes

>>25625519
Thank for for sharing this image
t. Burroughsfag

>>25625673
I didn't expect a reply this fast.

>>25625670
who me

>>25625671
sexy-women who-don't-know-my-real-name

>>25625676
Getting my final posts in before I have to go upstairs and sit by the front door for a few hours.

>>25625621
Did you hold hands?

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>>25625691
Wholesome basement Anon.

>>25625672
sounds like an old always sunny in philadelphia episode

i want a dog

If you've ever asked yourself why your favorite youtuber is suddenly uploaded so many videos towards the end of the year, it's because ads in the Christmas season (which starts in October for companies) pay for a lot more.

>>25625672
It's illegal unless the person with the porn on is also retarded. Then it's fine.

there’s a certain type of ugly girl that i have a real affinity for.

>>25625734
Only fatties are truly repulsive and ugly.

>>25625747
Just say you have low testosterone and shit taste and go.

>>25625747
This.

>>25625752
Only black people like obese women.

have an idea for an ending of a film. a big crowd of young people, maybe at some concert (outdoors), but the camera is far back enough you also see the empty fields around the gathered crowd. and it it slowly pans further and further back.

then the song begins.

https://youtu.be/9JdTZV--oqs

>>25625757
No, plenty of white and latino and south asian men like them. Only race that seems opposed is east asians.

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>>25625794

>>25625757
and ancient humans

>>25625734
I like Asian girls too, you don't need to speak in code.

>>25625765
White people didn't like obese women prior to 1990. This fact will be lost in time, but a fact it will remain. It used to be a frequently mentioned point of brotherhood between white men in locker room chat about the mysterious nature of those men who speak like cats -- we were united in finding thinness appealing.

>>25625769
Genuinely what are these things supposed to prove?
>here's a fat blob, from tens of thousands of years ago, it is proof that humanity has always loved fat women
Fuck off, nigger. For all we know these could've been self-portraits of pregnant women.

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>>25625794
well thats one thing.
but no nothing just that all the oldest man-made works are sculptures of huge t&a women.

I scored 666 points in Scrabble tonight. Feeling pretty good about that, it being Halloween and all

I miss you. I wish we could’ve spent Halloween together :(

>As I stood alone and forsaken, and the power of the sea and the battle of the elements reminded me of my own nothingness, and on the other hand, the sure flight of the birds recalled the words spoken by Christ: Not a sparrow shall fall on the ground without your Father: then, all at once, I felt how great and how small I was; then did those two mighty forces, pride and humility, happily unite in friendship.

Everyone in this school is a crook or a moron. I am going to make some big leaks in the school newspaper of the rumors I heard around the grapevine and dug up on their social media. The permanent pessimism is justified! Life is a prison. This place is a circus, and I am the only sane person left.

>>25625893
uh oh

I've only had two knocks so far, three with the first, two just now. Sad. Are my lights not bright enough? Is my street too out of the way? Or is American culture and trust dead? Sad.

bro i haven't post on /lit/ in a minute what up fools

>>25625852
should have text me

actually i think i'm gonna get in bed and listen to an audiobook unless someone posts some majorly engaging shit rn

>>25625908
you posted like three days ago

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>>25625927

It just occurred to me that it isnt immediately clear to me who or what is despise. Feels weird. Why would i despise anyone or anything? It is a useless feeling to have

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PkoFImDpx_M

>>25625917
How could you know?

>>25625919
*i

FUCK

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>>25625937 >>25625939 >>25625973

I hope god kills me before I reach late thirties. on sight.

>>25625088
Good news going tomorrow

>>25625107
You're an exception though many atheists are virtually obsessed with something they deny is real. Its almost fetishistic. Its like they can't have an orgasm unless they start thinking about a bearded man in the sky while cursing like Linda Blair in the exorcist.

>>25625930
But what if your thirties are going really well? Better than you can imagine right now, being all grown up and posting on 4chan? The place where you have to be older than 18 to visit, or even post...

>>25625930
man i fucking love audiobooks prob one of the top five things of life

>>25625937
did anyone here actually only start posting after the age of 18?

>>25625937
I'm 44 i have a decent circle of friends but women are virtually repulsed by me except one 18 year old girl at college who seems to like me. We both have autism and go to the gym together but her father is younger than me. Le sigh.

>>25625943
Maybe
>>25625944
Dude, just dominate her dad. Flex your prowess in whatever field you are adept. Play their piano, whisk them off their feet

>>25625930
Audiobooks for this feel?

>>25625943
There was no such thing as posting when I was 18 unless you count fucking Usenet

I remember interacting with the Something Awful Forums before 4chan existed as well. There were other forums already then but they were all based around bands or hobbies or interests or a videogame. So as far as posting in its modern generalized form earliest date is going to be 1999 / late 1998. There are plenty of people here who were posting then in some form, I'm sure.

>>25625981
In between playing gta 1 and browsing rotten.com i would just google ´/b´and browse whatever came up -this was the late nineties

>>25625910
Do you mean textED?

>>25625981
>Something Awful
I hated those fuckin idiots. What kind of retard pays to use a message board?

>>25625991
Actually, that forum is somehow still alive.

>>25625981
can’t fathom making the conscious choice to first post on 4chan as a fully-developed adult. actually that’s an interesting line of thought, those guys probably rally against newfags but if you
were 20+ when you first started posting you’re a permanent newfag in a way. didn’t grow up in the culture.
shoutout SA.

>>25625992
I knew someone who posted there who also posted on the Teeth Of The Divine metal message board. Those people grew to hate me though and I eventually got banned. I was the second youngest person on the board is think.

>>25625996
In my defense the Captcha refused to work for years. Not sure if it was my IP or internet provider.

>>25625973
Mishima's Life For Sale is available on audiobook now. A Japanese man offers to do any job asked of him so long as that job costs him his life in the classifieds. There is a scene where he becomes disgusted by how some people chew on raw carrots as though they were horses. There is a scene where he builds rapport with the vampire that hires him. There's a scene where a book is described which contains the clue the pharmaceutical company needed to develop the mind control drug he is hired to test -- it is a book on rare beetles.

Okay, back downstairs now. Only gave out candy to five kids, lame :(

There were a lot more last year. What happened?

>>25626003
life for sale is fire p funny but also paranoid in a pynchonian way

>>25626003
Sounds dope.

Also, if I had known it would be so slow, I would have given those first three kids two or even three pieces each instead of just one. That's gonna provide me with guilt the rest of the week. Fuck.

>>25625996
To some small degree the posts I made then were a guide or else a counter example against how to post for newly arriving teens as they started getting old enough to use the computer at their house. If by newfag you mean I have one for in Internet culture and one foot out then yes, newfag is fine. But the Internet was never supposed to be something anyone kept both feet in. It was supposed to just be a curiosity and an occasional reference far in the background of your life.

>>25626011
Book is confirmed sick AF

It was published in a weekly magazine and I think it was a while before it was republished as a book. We didn't even get an English translation until 2020. It's doesn't have the polish of Mishimas other book and feels pretty raw and wild for him. I mean as far as the writing goes, obviously any Mishima book is fully capable of being raw or wild in its events.

You know what kind of words I really like? Old school, short words which describe a kind of person. For example,
>lush
>tart
>prig

Anyone know any more?

>>25626016
it’s more complicated. though i agree with the notion. unfortunately it’s best described by gay 4chan diction: its reddit.
actually the newfag charge means nothing tb h, you can be a lame poster who’s been here for nearly two decades (audiobook poster above) and you can be a new goodposter.

when i read i feel like the author's slut. that makes it really hard, because i have no desire to read most people's writing, yet i have to when it comes to all this nonfiction that i have to read. i have all these books on various topics, also scientific articles and lectures, most are just not pleasant to read at all.
somehow it didn't use to bother me, i guess the sense of wonder about the topic was enough to carry me through, but that sort of thing died in me long ago, and all that's left is to be bothered by the shit writing.

>>25626046
really the author should be your little slut.
wilm shaxpy once wrote
fall to them as you find your stomach serves you
no profit grows where is no pleasure taken

>>25626051
>really the author should be your little slut.
my point is sometimes it's not how it plays out, sometimes the author wins, and you have to play the role of the slut, a little bit like your quote describe actually.

>>25626051
>Kill me
>Eat me
>Drink my stock
>Squash me
>Beat me
>Cordially you are invited

That time I made such a clever pun in AP Lang the entire class laughed and my teacher put her hand over her mouth she was so impressed. One of my prized memories. Sadly, I cannot tell you what it was because I'm saving to use it in a book someday.

I need someone to need me. To ease the void within.

I'm so radically unlike anyone else I've encountered that it makes me want to scream. There's a certain kind of brain development trap that people with high verbal IQ + mild aspergers + high degree of sensitivity get into where they just become people who are truly destined to have no kin on this earth, truly destined to be alone.

>>25626056
give & take

>>25626065
I need you, anon. Don't ever doubt it.

>>25626066
>get into where they just become
should probably be ‘in which they just become’. & asperger’s is possessive.

The extent of my being unlike other people is so pervasive and all-encompassing that there's no situation and no company on earth where I can drop the mask. Even if I think I've found an unconventional, oddball, quirky, artistic, off-kilter, counter-culture, high open-mindedness group, if I so much as say a handful of my own genuine thoughts, I'm almost immediately met with total confusion at my jokes, or people see my beliefs and decide I'm a villain. There's just no break, not ever, not one, not one time.

>>25626082
Your mind was poisoned by 4chan and internet counterculture. It's not too late to become normal, or at least pretend.

>>25626085
Nice.

>>25626086
There are millions of minds poisoned by 4chan. If that was the only poison, it would be fine. There are so many countless poisons and most are probably genetic.

>>25626082
You can have one or two beliefs like that just by statistical chance. If so many of your beliefs are like that that it makes it hard to intact with normies at all I would suggest you should be very concerned that the apparatus by which you construct those beliefs is a faulty one. People help each other figure these things out, and a group of minds can very often easily understand something or drive something to happen that any single mind can't. This is both a suggestion to you to examine yourself suspiciously for serious faults, and to involve other people in your life more. Which is maybe not that different from what >>25626086 said.

>>25626082
step 1: stop quoting from the Elders of Zion

>>25626085
Source

>>25626100
It's just genes, man. It was always genes. I was given a very extreme and outlier-tier set of genes and now I'm left to cobble together some semblance of a life out of them, a nearing on impossible task. It can be genes, you know - you ever look at Byron's family tree? The man was screwed from the start. Maybe screwed is the wrong word, but he was always destined to be like that more or less.

>>25626108
YOU AIN'T NEVER BEEN NO VIRGIN KID
YOU WERE FUCKED FROM THE START

>>25626108
dislike this idea of blaming your genes. blaming your parents. i think the spirit that existed before we were born chose the genes and chose the parents that best fit its needs. the issue isn’t in them, its in us for not living accordingly to our true self (the god that made us).

>>25626117
Even if your parents fuck up incredibly hard, you're supposed to become a rapist, a child molester, an abuser, a murderer, or a psychopath. You're not supposed to become whatever I am -- some random, pure nonsense, haphazardly put together combination of conflicting urges and desires which refuse to fit together or integrate at all into our world as it exists. You really cannot fathom what it's like to be me. Since I was a teenager, I've only become able to relate with certain rare figures like Rousseau, Schopenhauer, et. al. But I would previously hesitate to identify with them. Now I feel absolutely no shame in saying that I am on the same order of uniqueness as these men, the exact same order, let talent or performance or results be damned, I'm on the exact same order of uniqueness as them. I have to live this existence out every day, and you don't. I don't care anymore. This is my life, it's what it is, if I have to live the daily existence of getting stuck with pins every morning and night for simply being different, then at least let me be honest, and say what I am.

>receive invitation to a costume party where you're supposed to dress up like detectives from literature
Uh... Sherlock Holmes, John Watson, Irene Adler, and... uh

How many should a cultured, literary person be able to name anyway?

>>25626120
Chase money and the rest won't matter. That's the Zuckerberg/Musk/Bezos/et al. route.

>>25626120
think you just steamrolled my actual point in order to satisfy your desperation to go on about yourself. i knew a girl at uni who did findom and she said the deep-down issue with those men is they can never get over themselves. schopenhauer for all his flaws would probably turn in his grave at this.
remember the old trope of midgets and dwarfs in literature: they all have delusions of grandeur. something to that.

>>25626121
Kogoro Akechi, Sherlock Holmes, Dupin, Poirot, Roman Calvo, Isidro Parodi, Phillip Marlowe, Sam Spade and Maigret

>>25626121
poirot, sam spade, phillip marlowe, miss maple.

>>25626129
Oh, and Father Brown

Buddy of mine met a girl he really clicked with and married her last year. I'm happy for him. I was a little worried it would never happen.

>>25626128
>remember the old trope of midgets and dwarfs in literature: they all have delusions of grandeur. something to that.
Right, but that's a trope.
What if you're born, and nature simply happens to churn out this bizarre weirdo who can't slot into any niche in society without chopping an arm or a leg off? What if you're born like a land-dweller to a family under the sea, and for your basic survival needs you have to constantly swim back up to the surface to get some air? I am trying my hardest in life, I'm sober, I'm exercising, I'm eating well, I'm conscientiousness. Life is just really, really hard when you're an accident of nature, something that apparently doesn't belong anywhere, like a bizarre stain on the fabric of the world of some unknown origin.

There's people paying hundreds of dollars on the internet to get their "physiognomy analyzed"

>>25626137
>but that’s a trope
to write things down to that isn’t the same as writing them off altogether. you know there’s basically never been a dictator if above average height.

>>25626139
I know you’re talking about blackpill looksmaxxing but want to hear my thinkpiece on physiognomy?: it works on the same level as attraction. Our conscious mind has no power on what we find attractive. It’s all wrapped up in nature and reproductive instincts. Reading someone’s face appeals to us on a necessarily secret and intuitive level. Any attempt to make a science of it is sure to be wrong-footed and probably blunts the instinctive tool that the skill requires, the way habit and intellect starve out imagination.

>>25626142
I don't really know what to tell you man. You are not going to convince me that I'm not an incredibly unique and isolated person, because it's just the truth. It's simply true. I'm never going to get to experience real friendship, real romance, real sexual satisfaction, real camaraderie. It's really just a done deal. You'd have to fabricate up some really incredible argument to convince me that my decades of experience are all wrong here.

>>25626146
yeah. well i’m not really talking about you, just in general. my dad used to say ‘don’t trust short people’. so much of life is seeking to compensate flaws. survival tactics. once you can’t get a girl or whatever it is the mind has to find some compensation and hold on for dear life.

>>25626153
But it'll generally pick the closest coping mechanism. We're all bitter in some way, but some of us take that and become dictators, while others become drunks.

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>>25626156
the drunks are the real heroes out of the two

fuck shit up and start a riot

bought an air purifier.

i’m half a xanax im a fading lamppost i’m feta crumbled over a salad i’m a door painted green im drug money im a high spec sound system playing kyoto by yung lean i’m cyan i’m a coldwater prawn i’m a woman’s shoe by the side of the road

It's kinda nice though to suffer a lot of pain while you're young and in exchange you get to know for a fact what your relationship with XYZ in life is. Like you have one bad relationship and then go crazy wondering how it could have gone different. You go through 5 bad relationships and you're like shit I guess relationships aren't for me.

the goyim have gone insane

yeah i know

being a gooner is all that matters

>>25626182
Like the little touch of adding a rapper so that the narrator becomes unlikeable / untrustworthy.

used to be a sweet boy holding very tight to daddy’s hand