im so sad, idk what it is. i have lost weight recently and get attention that i have never got before, and instead of feeling happy its making me so sad, like 10+ years of my life i believe i was worthless and unworthly of love, and society just completely flips because im in shape and better looking now. i hate people. i feel like im living in someone elses body , i dont deserve praise its just so weird, im going insane genuinely , i cant believe people treat you 100x better because you lose weight and look abit better. its so shallow. ive rejected girls when for the past 10 years i wish i had 1 single person to talk to. i feel like ending my life, its not worth living, i overthink everything, are people being nice to me because im me, or because i look better now. i hate everyone. im sad, im angry, im upset, depressed, drunk, everything
>>35052549that's just life. we don't notice these biases ourselves most of the time but you know you as well likely treat attractive people or people with good skin (instead of having acne) better. we all do it to some degree. that's why losing weight or otherwise becoming more attractive is a rational decision. people, especially those who can have a real effect on your life such as employers, will treat you better. becoming more attractive is wanting to have a better life.
