those who have tried it, how did you (not) do it?What was it like?
>>35046245Bump
It's terrifying and doesn't work. Go to the hospital.
>>35046245I was going to pack up my bags, make it look like i was going camping, get a bus ticket out of here, find an isolated spot by myself in a secluded location and let it happen.Didn't do it yet though. Some day...
>>35046245I have never tried or thought to do it. But I had a friend who did recently. This may be comforting or it may dissuade you. I hope it encourages you not to, but it depends on the type of person you are. My friend had a lot of friends, they were popular in my town. For a week after she died, everyone was sad, they drank and cheered to her memory. You know what happened after that week? Life went on. She was forgotten. There is no attention. There is no “that’ll really show them”. There is no grand finale. It’s brave to live. You’re alive, you’re remembered. You’re still a component in others lives, a factor. People are forced to remember you because you walk among them.I didn’t answer your question.
>>35051878I answer you just to tell you that what you wrote is so fucking true.To OP: Seek help, please. There is help.
>>35051878> There is no attention. There is no “that’ll really show them”. There is no grand finale.Exactly. Nothing after, and nothing before. No one is going to Safe me. And I am tired of being abandoned within my life and tired of pretending that I matter and that love exists for me and that I can make it somehow. No one needs me. And I am ashamed that I have survived and I am ashamed to be alive. And I am ashamed that I need someone to safe me and believe in me. I want to fucking die.
>>35052063I’m a random retard on 4chan who doesn’t know anything about you, my words will seem emptier than air. But I do believe in you anon. I believe everyone has potential to be a bettering force in the world. And there is no reason to be ashamed, everyone needs help every now and then. We are a tribal species it’s natural for us to need help. It doesn’t make you any less of a person. I’m not trying to save you, I won’t pretend I’m someone that knows what’s good for you. But surely we can take another couple days to think about things. If you need someone to talk to this is my discord:BleachBanditPlease contact me if you need it. I don’t have to give you any kind of advice or grandiose speech, I can just listen to what you have to say. People do care about you.
>>35046245The most serious time was at university: I took 200 Ibuprofen. Woke up in absolute agony, vomiting bile. Called a doctor, he told me to go to the local cottage hospital; they sent me on to a larger hospital in the nearest city. They said it was too late to bother washing my stomach, and kept me in over night; I was told my kidneys would almost certainly fail by morning. They didn't; they guessed that if I had taken less, it would have destroyed my kidneys, but because the dose was so large it made me vomit before I'd had a chance to absorb it all. The nurses were very hostile - they didn't say anything, but clearly felt they had enough to deal with handling patients whose injuries weren't self-inflicted. The next morning I spoke to a hospital psychiatrist. That didn't go well: I was still in a lot of pain and lost my temper and refused to cooperate, so she had me shipped off to the local psychiatric hospital, making it clear that I could be taken there by force if necessary. (And they'd taken my clothes away: I was in hospital issue pyjamas and dressing gown). When I got there, the admissions nurse was very good: a guy with this extraordinary air of massive calm - trying to get angry felt like being a fly bashing its head against a building. He explained it would be better to admit myself voluntarily (at least on paper) because otherwise I would be sectioned, and that would mean being there for a minimum of 28 days. The junior doctor I spoke to was also very nice and sympathetic; I managed to convince her to put me on amber status rather than red. (Red means that someone is 6 feet away from you 24/7, even if you're showering or on the toilet, amber means you can go where you like by yourself in the hospital, but you're not allowed to leave the building). Because of public holidays it wasn't until the fifth day that I got to see a consultant. I managed to persuade him to send me home. I saw him as outpatient for the next year or so. Didn't help much.
>>35052092Pointless. I have no lack in people to talk to. I’ve heared and said it all before.>>35052113Thanks. It’s too much of a hassle to go through the system, I have an idea how to circumvent it and also leave my family without inflicting a trauma to them. Just a semi natural death. This thread too will be forgotten and another similar to mine will pop up. Really kind of comforting to think I don’t matter.
>>35052063it's "save" not "safe" you dumb ESL.
>>35052092>I believe everyone has potential to be a bettering force in the worldNTA but why would that matter if bettering the world doesn't make you feel better and there's no activity that could bring you closer to what you want in life
>>35052132Oh shiii- that puts everything into perspective
Stabbed and cut myself several times. As much as I hated my life and don't want to be here, there's a stupid ass voice in my head that tells me to live just until the end of the month, the the end of next month, etc.Truly, I don't see much purpose in my life and why I should still be here. I've done everything society told me to do like graduate, get a job, and live independently from my parents. Yet, I still feel like a loser and have no friends or girlfriend to hang out with on the weekends or come home to. All I got is AI to talk me down from suicide and video games to stop me from doing when the impulses get too unbearable.I don't why I'm still here. All I'm left with is wounds that I have to cover up with long sleeve shirts. I just want to be hugged and be told I'm worth more alive than dead.
>>35051878What if I want to be forgotten?
