I dont know if anyone can relate to this, I may sound like a coward saying this but its really the reason I gave up on life. True life is sacred, our lifes are sacred, and embracing that sacredness means living in thin air where everything can fall apart, but it is indeed the true life, and requires a level of love and humility that is beyond me. The fact that I escaped that life that was presented to me when I was younger made me genuinely hate myself, and abandon myself to the point I didnt even care about my life, I was never suicidal but I was at the edge, thinking I can get away with living a sort of entrinched roadside life larping as a sort of "wise" just made me miserable. And now im 24, and I genuinely see no way back to the real life, the light is too bright, it burns, and I have come to love the darkness, sadly
What`s that drug called?
>>35041595CopiumMan I hate captcha
You don't stand under the weight of the word sacred nor do you truly believe life is sacred. It will do you know good to place a special value on life when your own isn't being held in high regard and thus not treated as such. You want to die and that is all the evidence needed to prove that life holds no special meaning in your eyes. The darkness isn't your friend. Using religious imagery doesn't supply you either. If you continue on as you are, then you may end up dead in the gutter having never cared for life at all.
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>>35041578I think you're creating idealized fictions of the world that act as voluntary shackles that simultaneously inhibit and protect you
>>35041578https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hCLHkaHOO80
>>35041578Read 1 Corinthians 13:1Have love. Knowledge, power and living without love is just abrupt noise that fades. There's no point on losing the chance to learn about love of the Lord. His own son revealed it is the only true way to exist.
>>35041578Hey man, I do relate, and to help I sincerely recommend Jesus’ parable in Luke 19:11-27. (I have nothing to gain from sharing this other than joy.)>>35045328The Lord is peace in the heart.
