if my venting bothers you for some reason and leads you to start a trend about me "seeking attention" thats totally fine, just ignore it and go ahead and block me...

i just cant be like you. i cant talk to people casually without feeling exhausted. i cant ignore the fact that the people i care about are online and not messaging me all the time. it irritates me and makes me incredibly envious...even though i wouldnt send a message myself out of shyness. i hate you, i hate everyone and i hate myself most of all. i want to die i want to put an end to this i want to die already but im such a pathetic retard moron idiot whore coward bitch that dont even have the guts to kill myself... i want to cry i want to disappear fuck you all

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Your fortune: Bad Luck

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i never understood why i didnt have any friends in school. now isolated and feeling free to speak my mind online thanks to anonymity i realize why: im a selfish weirdo

i dont deserve anything everyone who hit me or spat on me was right. i hate myself too

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>>13259301

what happens when i die? will the people who knew me know? will my old friends cry? will my family forget me after a few days? will the girl i love and imagine marrying know that i would give up everything to marry her? will my drawings, stories, music, games, manga, poems, comics and art be sold? destroyed? stored away? what happens to my clothes? will they be donated and used as pajamas by other people? its inevitable that i will be forgotten, its inevitable that in a few years there will be nothing left of me. about who i was, what i liked, or what i did... where i went, what i listened to, and what i had in mind to do. i have this feeling with family memories. you dont know what happened before your birth, you dont know who your mothers best friend was in school. what they did or what they liked. and even if she tells you, the memory is eternally hers and only she knows what she did. its not about curiosity. everything were experiencing will be forgotten, just like your favorite childhood drawing or your favorite toy.

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i should have provoked my bullies even more so they would have killed me when i was 10 i should have just died back then fuck everything
so long and goodnight...

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What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long, not goodnight

i hate helena i hate this song because it reminds me of crying for two periods straight in the school bathroom. i hate everyone from my old school i hate my retard classmates i hate the teachers who harassed us and i hate the fat principal

>>13259277
dubs

Being weird is cool, just pick one goal and accomplish that, that's how I keep my mind off these thoughts. This stuff is all real and valid and therefore it feels ... productive? correct?? to fixate like this ... but it's just a mind spiral.

Not that you're asking for advice. But yeah. Just set one goal and do it. Then another.

Your fortune: Godly Luck

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>>13259342

>>13259260
all I can say is stop treating human interactions as a matter of life and death. people judge you not as much as you think and you don't have to suppress yourself when you deal with other people. this is why you feel exhausted. believe me when I say that people will like you a lot more when they get to know your quirks and don't be bothered too much by assholes, but don't be selfish either. I used to be just like you

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>>13259342

as you get older, these things will get easier. not better, but easier
at a certain you have to figure out if you're capable of killing yourslelf, and if you're not, you dedicate yourslelf to living with the pain. the tolerance builds over time and it gets easier

Your fortune: Good news will come to you by mail

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>>13259342

Everything will be okay. Take it easy friend. You're a good person.

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>>13259301
my greatest goal was to find someone who would love me and care about me. just when i believed that had finally happened i ruined everything

ive given up on all my dreams i wanted to be in a band i wanted to be a film producer i wanted to create my own famous anime and manga but im just not good at anything whenever i think ive finally made some progress i realize how much better others are at the very things i thought i was good at ive given up on my life and my dreams i dont have the kind of body or face that i could sell online so ive let go of everything im just going to keep using my computer until i can finally swallow all these dipyrone pills at once and suffer a fatal overdose

>>13259324
>>13259327
>>13259316
i always say this: im far from a good person

im the kind of person whos easily forgotten someone you might send a message to only to then forget about for months thats assuming you even remember me at all...
im not anyone special and i never will be im just boring

ive always just wanted friends to go out with the kind i see in china or japan...even if it just meant getting out of the house to smoke, drink or do drugs out on the street...i wanted friends to film stupid tiktok trends with or to post photos of the drinks wed have while out for the night.ive never had any of that and now that im getting older i feel like ive missed out on everything that could have truly made me happy...

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>>13259342
life's hard and mostly shitty in my experience. not just for the maladapted, either; you'd be amazed how many normalfags spend their entire life suffering
i think it's possible to accomplish anything, but i know i won't achieve any of my actual dreams, because i won't try to. i'm more comfortable being miserable than i am motivated to try to be successful
but i recognize this as a choice i made, rather than something that was inflicted on me - which is what i mostly felt in my teens into my early to mid 20s - so i don't worry about not being successful. i could be different, but i don't really want to be, so i don't complain about how i am. i am successful in my line of work which gives me enough money to live, and that's enough, so i don't complain about not being rich. i'll never inflict myself onto another person in a romantic sense because i know for a fact i'll hurt them and myself, and that's a choice i've made, also, so i don't complain about loneliness. i'll die eventually and i firmly believe that's the definitive end of all experience, so it doesn't matter if i'm suffering now, because the alternative is nothing, and i want to suffer more than i want to not exist. that's how i get along
and the older i get, the less anything bothers me in general

Your fortune: Very Bad Luck

>>13259356
u sit in ur room all day lil bro
no shit there's no evolution

Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger

>>13259342
you don't have to be special to do dumb shit with friends. of course it's difficult for people to like you when you're a piece of shit. so if you are a piece of shit, stop being a piece of shit and if you're not a piece a shit, stop to worry about people not liking you

>>13259358
not op fatfish
but when i'm going through an intensive spell of self loathing, reading someone else's self loathing helps sometimes
the man of jasmine is a good book for this except with psychosis

try taking a deep breath that usually helps also drink some water

>>13259237
you may be a weirdo (or an avoidant) but you probably only ended up that way cause the shitty childhood fairy visited you, and you didn't do anything to deserve that, and neither did you deserve to be bullied and ostracized. no one deserves that. instead, we deserve compassion and acceptance, even if that is cruelly difficult to come by.

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thank you all

sorry for that stupid meltdown i had. my family is also really annoying and that just kind of added fuel to the fire... im going to spend some time away. idk exactly what im going through but i dont want to lash out at anyone anymore and i dont want to hurt feel any more hatred... in the meantime you can read more about me (idk if you want tho) in my little 2024/25 diary: https://myturn.neocities.org/

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>>13259481 >>13259483 >>13259523 >>13259578 >>13259583

goodnight everynyan~
see you next time

Your fortune: （　´_ゝ`）ﾌｰﾝ

>>13259473
night, dude

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>>13259473
good luck to you

Your fortune: Excellent Luck

>>13259473
Goodnight, hope you wake up feeling better

Your fortune: Outlook good

>>13259473
good night, I take it all back you're a hopeless retarded faggot and I hope you die lol

Your fortune: Outlook good

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>>13259473
N'ight Star-chan, have a G'dream.
>>13259237
I stopped seaching for people and just let them come to me.
I view them all as strangers hence why I feel nothing good or bad towards them.
Me socialising here is fun but not a good place, or rather I have nowhere to go.
Either way talking with people is enough for me~

Your fortune: Excellent Luck

>>13259237
Fuck the anti-namefig posters and anyone else who tries to police how you can use [s4s]. You're allowed to vent here.

>>13259584
Hey. Watch where you're walkin...bro!

>>13259584
a little bit is okay, especially if you're schizo and do it entertainingly
but if it's allowed to propagate the board will eventually just turn into /r9gay/ - bury pink edition, so it should be discouraged

>>13259629
I think people generally don't care about namefigs

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>>13260000
quads of irrefutable truth

Your fortune: Very Bad Luck

>>13260000
people generally dont care about anyone, really

Your fortune: Average Luck