Happy Halloween Say whatever. I don't really care. Say anything. Just talk to me. What's up
Happy Halloween to you too opI was planning to celebrate with my roommate but he's gonna be out later than I thought I'll probably have some candy in the meantime and may drink at some point tonight
>>85869290That sounds chill. I wish I had something to do tonight. I want to get drunk or high. I ate a bunch of candy which is cool I suppose. I hope you have a good time, don't drink too much, okay? Make sure to drink water too. And go pee before bed.
>>85869264Happy halloween to you too. It is late but I'm going to the store later to buy some snacks maybe watch a horror movie later. Did you do anything besides eat candy?
>>85869435Nope. I heard a party next door and I just chainsmoked cigarettes in the cold. Get some good candy, I hope you enjoy your movie. Just going to go to bed. I'm tired of being alive and people suck. I hate this planet. Yep.
>>85869495Just got back from grabbing snacks, didn't get any candy just cookies, bread, and some soda. Did anyone wrong you? Some people are indeed shitty>Chainsmoked cigarettes in the coldSounds relaxing
>>85869637>cookies, bread, and some sodaYum. Gimme some.>Did anyone wrong you?Yeah, just got ghosted by the BPDtard who was supposed to come hang out with me. Just told her not to contact me again and removed her. Whatever.>Some people are indeed shittyI can be shitty too but the majority of people are way shittier than me. I try to right my wrongs even when I fuck up, if I can. It seems most people don't even have the awareness to at least try to be decent. My regrets weigh on me, where it seems most people don't even think twice and just do whatever on a whim. But I guess I'm guilty of that too. Again, whatever.>Sounds relaxingI hate smoking and I want to quit. But it's pretty much the only thing I can do in my current living arrangement so fuck it. Lung cancer here I come.At least I get to see my nice aunt and extended family soon. So I'll get to have an actual hug from someone I know loves me and I'm looking forward to it. Just unfortunate circumstances surrounding the death of her daughter and my pseudo-older sister growing up.Sorry for typing so much. Just have a lot on my mind lately.Seriously though - pass the snacks and put on the movie. I want to curl up under a blanket and eat myself into a sugar coma lol.
>>85869264Happy Halloween anon. I've decided to stop talking to my oneitis, despite thinking about him all the time. I'm making banana bread with chocolate chips.
>>85869703Why would you do something like that, especially if you like him, that doesn't make any sense but my big word of the night is, "whatever.">I'm making banana bread with chocolate chips.Sounds good.
>>85869711I saw him talking about the kind of women he likes, and I'm not it.
>>85869678*hands you some pink frosted sugar cookies, turns on good boy, and throws a blanket over you>Yeah, just got ghosted by the BPDtardIts hard to see that people can't afford to extend basic human decency to others, ghosting sucks and seem to be common among foids. You guys were suppose to hang out on halloween night? Did she stand you up? Maybe its a misunderstanding of some sort. I remember seeing someone talking about a giving and nice girl in one of your threads, hope its not the same one showing her true colors. Sorry to hear about your aunts family situation, that is pretty bleak but glad that you get to visit your family soon.
>>85869308Thanks anon. It'll probably be a late night for me since he won't get home until possibly November 1st. I wish he'd told me it would be that late before agreeing to hang out with me since I assumed it'd be on Halloween itself
>>85869783Men don't have a type, sweetheart. They'll take the one person in the world who shows genuine interest in them, and that simply almost never happens. Men get into relationships with women who don't even like them simply because they can't bare the pain of being alone.I don't care about physicality. I genuinely just want a snuggle bug of a partner who loves me and likes me for who I am. Those are my astronomical standards.>>85869785>hands you some pink frosted sugar cookies, turns on good boy, and throws a blanket over youthat's really comfy, thank you anon>You guys were suppose to hang out on halloween night? Did she stand you up?Yeah, we were, and yeah, she did. She ghosted me all day even though we have been talking every day for weeks, so I just said not to contact me again. Sucks, but whatever.>Maybe its a misunderstanding of some sort.I doubt it. She's an actual diagnosed bpdemon. I know they don't actually care about people beyond what they can be temporarily made to feel so I know the pendulum would swing the other way eventually. Better to cut it off now than later.>hope its not the same one showing her true colorsProbably was, if it was in my thread.>Sorry to hear about your aunts family situation, that is pretty bleak but glad that you get to visit your family soon.Thank you. And I am too. My aunt is a very kindhearted woman. I haven't seen her in years, so this will be the first time I've seen any of my family in almost a decade. It's a weird feeling and I'm anxious.
>>85869788Ohh, I see. Well hopefully he'll be around soon, do you guys have plans? Watching a movie or something? I hope you guys have a good time. You can still celebrate as if it's Halloween, right? Plenty of candy and alcohol to go around :)
>>85869818Anon, he very clearly stated that his type of woman is white, and I'm not white.
>>85869831Then maybe it's just me. The girl who just ghosted me was a mixed girl and I'm white. I literally do not care about that at all and I think people who are are simply stupid, and it's clear they're not dating for love if they're not open to potentially dating a dark skinned girl who would love them. Find someone who cherishes you for who you are. You are worth it, people who bring race into the equation when it comes to dating are literally just fetishizing race in their own way.
>>85869866Thank you anon for taking the time to reply to me in such a genuine manner. I think it's time for me to move on from him and find someone who cherishes me for who I am, like you said. Also, checked.
>>85869959Thank you, I try. I hope you find someone who will love you for who you are. Stick by them through thick and thin and you will have yourself a life partner. Wishing you all the best, anon. I hope you find who you're looking for, and I hope who you're looking for finds you."Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass."
>>85869818Don't really know the full story, but ghosting for one day does not mean its over and they intended to screw you over or don't care. It may have been a little rash, but overall you may have made the right decision if there are a bunch of red flags, a bad history, and especially BPD. Wouldn't blame you for not wanting to get hurt in the future or not wanting that stuff around but make sure you're not sabotaging yourself. Knew a girl with bpd before and she wasn't evil just a little histrionic and overly emotional/hurts herself. >Probably was, if it was in my thread.Damn, thought there was a good thing going> I haven't seen her in years,A family renunion? A decade is a long time, have you guys been regularly keeping in touch? I haven't been apart from my family and wonder what distance and time apart would do to the dynamic. It really must be weird, seems awkward. You're not going back to your childhood home are you?
>>85870043It just sucks because she seemed to genuinely like me. It's just better for me not to deal with that at this point. I'm not going to stand for someone standing me up whether or not I do like them. I can't sacrifice myself in that sense, for my own wellbeing.>thought there was a good thing goingI thought so too. She bought me clothes and groceries and said a lot of the right things, but I guess in certain respects saying the right things can just be as much of an automated response as anything else. So whatever. It's done.No, I'm not going back to my childhood home. I didn't really have a singular childhood home because I was moved around a lot as a kid. I'm not seeing my parents either. I've seen my dad once in probably ten years, this is my extended family on my mom's side. I don't speak to my mom for good reason. But her sister is a pretty cool (albeit flawed, but still very human) person.
I should probably go to bed. Thanks for talking to me tonight. As usual, I'll drop my discord and anyone can add me if they want, I'd be happy to chat.apeiron0652Goodnight, and happy halloween :) thanks for making me feel a little better tonight. I really appreciate it
