living normally after being addicted to this board for years is very unusual. things are just weird and exhausting. i no longer feel so apathetic towards everything which is good but its very draining to care about your life
I miss when the thought of suicide used to not bother me so much.
I have a lot to do and a lot to lose. What does it take to stop caring? I want to dissociate from the world for a bit to go back to who I once was.