Is the secret of having a normal life just giving up, I've noticed over the past few months I stopped worrying If I'll have a normal GF or if I'm going to have a satisfactory life, I just take it day by day, Like tomorrow I'm going to apply for this job, the next day I'll do thisI used to feel pressure about all those things, and now I just don't care, I'm in it to be a loser if I have to, and I don't don't care about having friends, I stopped having them because after my military service, I still haven't adapted and haven't found anything to do and felt like the odd man out.I've accepted that I won't strive for anything great, and in my mind being at the most bottomless pit means you can only go up from here, day by dayI still have interests, I guess I'm waiting for GTAVI as much as the next guy, I want to see a couple of films I like and I'm invested in elections and such because of my autismI'm not using this as a coping mechanism either, I don't want someone to tell me this isn't the end of the world or anything, I kinda know it is, I'm proud of myself for being this quiet guy that nobody notices and I just kind of live my life without annoying anyone
