anyone else used to be sad but became filled with hate?I am 6 ft ( 183 cm) and I never had a girlfriend there used to be this girl I was interested in - however she is also tall (at least 180 cm) and it just fills me with rage I always assumed that she was shy and had no boyfriend but apparently that is not the caseI saw her happily chatting with dudes that were like 6 ft 5 ... a smile on her face - it just breaks me some of those people used to mock her back in school for her "masculinity" but she gladly got laser surgery and now happily talks to those menmeanwhile all I get is either hate or mockery from women
>>85858577I used to be sad and feel bad about all the terrible things in the world but now i have grown detached from it when i realized that i am voluntarily playing host to these things, be it victim or perpetrator, when i know that it can and will never change.I used to think as a teenager that i can find some finality in doing something like getting a family or achieving some grand destiny. I realized that civilization is built around giving people these false hopes and promises, for as long as the individual opts into this premise that they can achieve these hopes and promises. You can voluntarily reject society because society demands that you accept its rules before it lets you play the game. Normies will continue to wageslave while I neet as much as humanly possible. The only thing I value anymore is time for myself. The more time I have to myself the better my life is, even if all I do is walk around my room or think about what I'm going to do today. It's more realistic and honest than clocking in and out to a job where your boss hates you and wants you to make as much money as possible for him so he can fuel his hopes and promises that were sold to him by society. It's a vicious cycle and the only way to break it is by refusing to have kids and work as little as possible
>>85858577Allow your mind and heart to grow cold, it helps. It helps with everything, dealing with others, work and love. Sometimes I'll see the smile of a woman and it feels like warmth but it's fleeting and never for me. Not for me in the sense I could never reciprocate, women are easy to fuck, harder to love. If you got this woman, you'd realise it too.
