>tfw you're a SPED kid and your whole family and almost every adult you met in your life fucks you over since you were a kid because they believe you're simply incapable of living without assistance when in reality, you wouldn't need assistance if it weren't for them>and then as a result of that lifelong sabotage you're unable to get a job nor make any real friends as an adult, with your only way of coping with any of it being smoking copius amounts of weed and cigarettes since it's the only cope that actually works>and then they start blaming you for being an absolute failure of a person and try to gaslight you into believing that you need to somehow "do better" because they refuse to admit that they single-handedly ruined your life with no way to undo the damage>but you can't cut your losses and just kill yourself because that's a vewy vewy bad thing to do and everyone will miss you!! :( (they'll forget about you once you've been buried and then lock you up and take your autonomy for a couple of days you even remotely mention thinking about suicide)So what the hell do I do now? Just stay a NEET stoner loser for the rest of my life and accept the mistreatment forever? Maybe if I were born in a rich family, i'd at least have money to indulge in my interests, which is hard as hell to do when you're broke. I'm honestly so discouraged that I don't even want to clean my room or leave the house anymore, because I know that nothing will ever change even if I did.I thought I saw a site that says the same thing with actual medial research behind it, so I'll drop the link here when I find that site in my browsing history. But you get the point, don't you?Also, i'm not looking for pity, just genuinely upsets me everytime I think about it, so i figured I'd vent about it. Maybe someone out there feels the same way too.
nigga shut the fuck up you don't even know why they bully you. you're straight up a bad person
>>85853095Fair point, I may be a bad person now, but I blame that on the liberals online that groomed me for 7 years stright into believing that being a hardcore political activist like them would somehow make my liufe better (it never did, and then they started calling me problematic and sending people to attack me online when they had no use for me.)And thankfully most of the more extreme bullying has died down since I got kicked out of school, but the damage it's done to me still remains long after it stopped. Maybe if at least my parents would stop pretending to be the victims of an autistic's rage for once and actually tried to get me back on my feet, everything else will get better too. But I know, they wont. :)Also i found the link I mentioned, so that's at least good. https://templeofzagan.org/2026/07/20/the-neet-breeder/Read it or don't, doesn't matter, it's basically the same shit I said just with more professional wording.
>>85853095>>85853186I misread your comment, I deeply apologize. I'm just going to add on to what I wrote.So, just to clarify: the bullying I faced mostly had to do with my autism, or at least it's symptoms that were apparent (sometimes even subtle shit too). If you've ever been to a school with a sped program in the US, you might've seen a group of retarded kids always going to the exact same few rooms around school everyday, except the ones with IEP plans that allowed them to be in the general ed class for a couple periods. As mentioned, I was one of those kids up until circa 4th grade, and I'm not sure if it had to do with the stimming I used to do or just the fact that I generally didn't understand how other people socialized (like jokes n shit), but whatever it was, they DID not like it. You can't even cover it up because they can somehow sense you're different from a mile away. It's probably at it's worst in middle school, I'm telling you, kids around that age are MEAN as fuck to anyone not exactly like them. Maybe it's because they simply just don't understand, but what the hell do I know?Combine that with the naiveness that got me groomed by the libtard foids, my parents and teachers treating me like shit in an already shady ass SPED system, and the general constant social pressure to be a "morally good person" that started during COVID after the whole BLM thing, and eventually, I just kinda stopped caring about morality all together. If nobody is gonna treat me right, why should I do the same?If I had a gun, i'd be shooting up schools right now.Honestly I'm just wondering what's even the point to anything anymore, and I know that I can be angry about it all I want, but there's nothing that's going to change it. You know what I'm saying?
>>85853049So were you like an actual sped or were you just placed in a social skills class for an elective while everything else was standardBecause if it's the latter you should probably get over it already
>>85853433I was an actual sped kid, since preschool too. I was diagnosed when I was three, and they saw it on my medical record and put me in the class accordingly. Most of the kids in the class had the same fate, except for the school I went to during my last years of high school.I honestly wish I wasn't born with this wretched disease, it's made almost everyone i know refuse to take me seriously, and the few who did only did so when I turned 18, in which they blamed me for being so far behind. I hope that I can get my hands on a cure when and if it comes out, I want to at least feel normal for once.
