Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supporthope you're enjoying the fallhello>How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
The links, for you> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>85852511>>How are you doing today?tired. I started training for a big physical test for a possible job. been studying to test in for a different job. Turned a job down today because the pay was below average.>>Any plans for today?A lot of testing>>Is there anything bothering you right now?I wanted to use this time of the year to hang out with friends and work on passion projects. Idk, if I'll get to either. By i got a costume at least.>>85852511how you doing cat?
>>85852610hey!>physical test for a possible job. been studyingDx so much to do best od luckk :<>I'll get to either. By i got a costume at least.hope you somehow get to what your costume!!?? :o>how you doing cat?goodjust playing around
>>85852610>A lot of testingI did a web app that makes tests for me because those tests webs don't give me ALL the paragraphs but this localAI can do tests for everything if prompt correctly :).>hang out with friends and work on passion projectsSounds fun. Need a good close to me job for that though. That's why the tests are important. Study hard please <3.>>85852739>just playing aroundWhat were you playing ? o:
>>85853050hey birbI mapped a little and played roblox with meowster :D how was your day?
>>85852511hi catbro!>hope you're enjoying the fallit's ok. haven't been outside much the last two weeks, so haven't seen much of it.>>85852610hi cynic! o/>I started training for a big physical test for a possible jobmake sure you rest enough before the actual test>A lot of testingwish you well>Idk, if I'll get to either.that sucks. let's hope you'll be able to at least hang out a bit>i got a costume at least.what costume? :0>>85853050hey hb! what's up?i watched the second seasons of haunted hotel and edgerunners today. that's about it.
>>85854404elloo>haven't been outside much the lastya gotta go on a walk sometime soon before all the leaves fall off!>haunted hotel and edgerunners today.did u like it?I had a dream last night, I was in like a foggy village and there was a witch apparently as I was walking I saw some zombie guy, I reached for a knife but it turned out it was just a normal fella checking if I was alert he went around the corner when heard screaming, there was some big beast wrecking everything and the witch showed up I hid in some hole lying face down hoping they won't see me when I heard creepy whispers in my ear I was listening to some asmr thingie as I was sleeping so I think that's what those whispers where lol
hello everyone. its late but i have an essay due in a few days and im kind of behind in my studies but i cant focus.. im gonna be so busy the next few days and aaaagh i just feel like shit my mental illnesses are hitting me hard
>>85854458>ya gotta go on a walk sometime soon before all the leaves fall off!that's a good point. maybe this saturday. i can just do my workout and then go for a walk. are you planning a ride or a walk soon?>did u like it?i had a good time with hh. even got a little emotional over it at times. edgerunners was alright, but i didn't connect with the characters very much, so i wasn't very invested.>there was a witch apparentlyvery sad. many such cases.>turned out it was just a normal fellayikes. should work on his skincare routine. D:>I was listening to some asmr thingie as I was sleeping so I think that's what those whispers where lolmust have been a halloween themed vid ^^>>85854561hey anon!>i cant focusalways annoying when that happens. would it be ok to call it a day now and start working on it when you get up?>gonna be so busy the next few dayssorry, buddy. wanna complain a bit about it? maybe it'll help somehow
>>85854651>would it be ok to call it a day now and start working on it when you get up?im gonna do a bit of research, write a little then sleep. i havent got much time to do it tomorrow>wanna complain a bit about it?its not anything i dont like, im seeing my friends while visiting home for a few days. the biggest thing upsetting me is family. i feel so ungrateful saying these things, but i really dislike them even though they are doing so much for me and have improved a lot lately. but i feel so much more, diminished? if that makes sense. being around them i feel so out of it
>>85854561hello anonbest of luck, ot sounds tough :c>>85854651>planning a ride or a walk soon?nope it's too cold now >been a halloween themed vid ^^dunno but the nightmare was cool sleepygn
>>85854751>im gonna do a bit of research, write a little then sleep.that's a good plan, but don't overdo it, you hear? have a good study session.>im seeing my friends while visiting home for a few daysthat sounds nice. hope you have a good time there.>i really dislike them even though they are doing so much for me and have improved a lot lately.that's rough. i always say: you can chose your family, you can't chose your relatives. what's the matter with them?>being around them i feel so out of ithm. i've also never related to my relatives at all. not really their fault, but i just had no connection to any of them and avoided most of my extended family.as much as possible.>>85854796>it's too cold nowgotta dress accordingly and bring something warm to drink. :>>the nightmare was cooli had a similar dream recently. i'll try to recall it tomorrow.>sleepy gngn and st. i'll go get some sleep, too.
hello cute cutter bwois. can i see some of ur self-harm injuries ^_^
>>85854796thanks cat ^^. i hope ur doing well!>>85854859>that's a good plan, but don't overdo it, you hear? have a good study session.thanks! ive decided to sleep now, i think i can reasonably get my essay done tomorrow or the day after. then i just have some things to catch up on, which dont have a due date. unfortunately its all maths and a module i dont like.>what's the matter with them?they used to be quite cruel and abusive, maybe worse - i was also abused by a group/organisation and i wonder if they were involved. things have changed now, and i sort of forgive them, but i dont really trust them.>no connection to any of them and avoided most of my extended family.as much as possible.yea, i have no clue what to say to any of my family, its awkward ..
never mind I cant sleep. I feel so bad ..
>>85856496what are you feeling bad about non?
happy halloween to all of you, ily all :)
>>85852511Tis almost spooky day. Wish everyone a nice All Hallows' Eve Eve
hello everyone I think today is going to be a good daywbu?>>85857214hellohappy halloween do you have any plans to celebrate?>>85856496hey hope you managed to have a good nap somehow :<
>>85857739hey office waddup?any plans? I want to watch a horror movie but I'm not sure what to watch any recs?
>>85857909hey hey cat!I'm all right. Zero plans for the weekend. I might download Cyberpunk 2077 and do another playthrough since I'm kinda in the mood after the anime.>any recs?unfortunately, for horror, I'm really the last person in the world you should ask lol.
>>85857945>and do another playthrough since I'm kinda in the moodanother? you've played it once already how did you like it?>unfortunately, for horrothat's alright
Are you guys dressing up for halloween or doing anything fun? I'm just gonna have a chill night and watch some spoopy games on youtube
>>85859317hey meow >dressing up for halloweennyoare you?I'll just watch some scary moviee>have a chill night and watch some spoopy games onnice!whatcha gonna watch??
>>85859872Nah i'm not dressing up, being a shut-in. As for spoopy games I'm unsure, maybe do a little Resident Evil marathon or some outlast trials
>>85859881>not dressing up, being a shut-in.understandable >little Resident Evil marathon or some outlast trialshave fun ^^ what your fav scay game?
>>85860050Hmm i'm not sure desu. I do really like Resident Evil but it's not exactly scary. Maybe Vile:Exhumed?
>>85860069>but it's not exactly scaryI feel resident evil is plenty scary>Vile:Exhumednever heard of itis it a small game?
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>>85852511Hallu /cat/. For halloween you should go as /rat/ :D>>How are you doing today?Mostly good. On the way to a rave this hallows eve, should he fun. Gonna spend some time at the arcade too.>>Any plans for today?See above. I'll probably try my go-to of 3rd strike and jubeat out again, maybe play some of the game consoles there of they're free. As for the rave its just 5 hours of dancing, not much to say on it. Also, I brought a birthday gift for the girl I'm gonna meet there, to reciprocate the one she got for my birthday.>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?About a week ago drinking and nearly 2 months cutting.>>Why did you hurt yourself?Drinking let me escape the nightmares and rumination that comes with the night... still its a bad solution. As for cutting I can't remember why, its been a while.>>Is there anything bothering you right now?My parents are on my back for going into the city late at night and are threatening to lock all the doors and change the locks while I'm gone. Don't care if they do, wouldn't miss this for the world.>>85859317Hallo Meow>dressing up for halloween or doing anything fun? Fun yeah, no costume unfortunately.>>85857739Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!>>85852610Hallo cynic>>85854651Hallo yuanon>>85853050Hallo HB
>>85861364heo toga>you should go as /rat/ :Dor maybe a /bat/ :3>On the way to a ravewoaa have fundon't get all bruised up>reciprocate the one she got for my birthdayaw cute what is it?>my back for going into the city late at night sounds annoying to deal with
Good news, I had a good interview with a new lab role.>>85857766hi cat>I think today is going to be a good dayWas it?>>85854404hi yu>make sure you rest enough before the actual testthanks i had a good rest.>i watched the second seasons of haunted hotel and edgerunners today. that's about it.I haven't seen the new edgerunners yet. how is it?>>85854404>what costume? :0>>85852739>what your costume!!?? :ogeralt of rivia I'm using my sword collection>>85853050hi hugging bird>but this localAI can do tests for everything if prompt correctly :).yeah but i don't wanna get accused of cheating by the state government.
>>85853480My day was good and chill. >>85854404>i watched the second seasons of haunted hotelGlad you like it :>>>85862071>yeah but i don't wanna get accused of cheating by the state government.The AI doesn't do the exam for me, but it does the tests I need to study for the exam with all the paragraphs. Unlike the tests I buy that don't give me all the paragraphs. It just changes some key words for each paragraph and then outputs the complete paragraph with the words it changes highlighted. So it feels fast just click and train the keywords. And I made that aws managed website.
Lul post-rave bump, I'm aching...
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>How are you doing today?not great, wanted time off from work this weekend but didn't get approved, and I was stuck training an unironic racist, sexist, homophobic moron>Any plans for today?going to have dinner, drink a bit, then head to bed>When was the last time you hurt yourself?a few weeks ago (but I'm feeling it now)>Why did you hurt yourself?I was bored, honestly>Is there anything bothering you right now?yeah, the moron at work lol
>>85852511>Is there anything bothering you right now?I don't understand why I'm developing this urges now. Can they stop? Will they go away? I guess I "won" a fight today, but I don't want any rematches.
>>85865385hey>was stuck training an unironic racist, sexist, homophobicsounds really really annoying though if he's loud about those things maybe you could report it somewhere so that you don't have to be the one to train them?>morongoes without saying >dinner, drink a bit, then head to bedHope at least that part of your day was enjoyable what did you have for dinner?>>85865748hello>developing this urges nowthey just appeared seemingly without a reason?did you used to hurt yourself?>Can they stop?yep if you wait them out and avoid whatever makes you wanna hurt yourself it should be fine Stay strong anon!how was your day btw?
>>85865851>they just appeared seemingly without a reason?Well, they come as an alternative to quiet the even worse thoughts that I have, but this only leads me into that direction. They don't fix anything.>did you used to hurt yourself?I did for some months many years ago. It was light stuff.>if you wait them out and avoid whatever makes you wanna hurt yourself it should be fine I'm starting to get really gloomy moods where I feel like self sabotaging and doing bad stuff. I've recently become quite hopeless about the future and I'm having a lot of trouble changing the way I think. Today was a good day. Not only good, I would say great. I was even thinking about trying to do stuff in the future, stuff I'd like to try out, how I should try to get some kind of part time job to boost my confidence and have some money that I feel it's mine. Then suddenly and for no apparent reason all joy vanished and I spend an hour in the bed just spiraling and getting this urges. I felt bad after, ate lunch with my family and I started to feel better. Now I'm back to feeling ok and I'm trying to play a horror game. How about you? I hope you are having a good day.
>>85865996>>85865996>quiet the even worse thoughts that I haveoh ig it makes sense why you have them if you're so unwell do you know why you're feeling hopeless like that?have you tried visiting a therapist or meds? I'm not saying you need it, I'm just curious hope you somehow manage to motivate yourself to do something, maybe a change or environment around you and your daily routines could help>back to feeling ok yay\o/> I'm trying to play a horror game.watcha playing??>How about you? II'm doing wellmostly I spent today learning how to make a skybox for a game now I'm going to watch some horror movies and get snacks ^^
>>85866368I never had any direction or dreams in my life and now I'm paying the price of not accomplishing anything. My only option for independence right at this very is being homeless and I've basically been a neet for 4 years which has tanked my confidence in myself. I have to try and change things up, but it's hard to break habits. I went to the university therapist for the first time this week. That's one of the things I'm doing now to try to change something. He asked me to try to think what my dream job would be for the next week, and this task triggers me so fucking much. >watcha playing??Soma. Seems fitting for the occasion.>mostly I spent today learning how to make a skybox for a game Do you want to make a game? That's cool. Do you want to share anything about your vision? >now I'm going to watch some horror movies and get snacks ^^Sounds comfy. Any movie in mind?
>>85866535>never had any direction or dreams in my life andsame>dream job would be for the next week, and this task yuck>triggers me so fucking much.can't blame you manit does the same for me too, dream job? noneJust know you don't need to give them as answer but tell them that it makes you feel unwell >Somagood gamehave you played it before?>you want to make a gameI make little maps is hammer (for source games)>anything about your vision?not much to say yet I'm just throwing ideas at the wall>Any movie in mind?beetlejuice beetlejuice beetlejuiceand Friday the 13th
>>85866966>>85866966>it does the same for me too, dream job? noneIf only life was so easy. Some of my friends got the job they always wanted. Others had to give up on their dreams, which might be even worse. I just wish someone would just tell me what to do. It life would be so much easier that way. >Just know you don't need to give them as answer but tell them that it makes you feel unwell I will torture myself with that question for the rest of the week. I don't like to disappoint others. >have you played it before?First time. I got stuck under the game map, I noclipped to a previous area and I got stuck, so I think I'll take a break. Maybe have dinner even if I'm not hungry.>I make little maps is hammer (for source games)That's cool. I've had so much fun playing mods. Such a same that modern games want to kill that art. I hope you are having fun.>beetlejuice beetlejuice beetlejuice and Friday the 13thGot me there. I haven't seen either of them.
>>85867156>just wish someone would just tell me what to do. Itif someone ever does that, especially with working, it'll probably be to their benefit and not yours even if you don't like it you are probably better off trusting yourself anonyou can do it! ^^ >will torture myselfhmm idk.. therapy is supposed to help I don't want you you make yourself miserable I think you should note down your thoughts about it all though >don't like to disappoint others.to such extend?honestly sounds like another thing that would be good to mention on your next meeting >think I'll take a break. okay, maybe you could switch too to not get bored >Maybe have dinnerwhat's for dinner?>modern games want to kill that artyep it makes me sad too but at least the games that allow you to do that with be modded for even longer :D>haven't seen either of them.maybe you should some time soon? it's the spooky season after all
Hello friends, hope you're all having a spooky halloween.This evening I'm facing my biggest fear: editing the paper my supervisor wrote using AI and passed off as his own writing.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HXMl6mAlFk>>85852610Good luck with your job tests! Hopefully they pay decently.>>85854561Good luck, anon. A Pomodoro timer might help you stay focused if you struggle with that sort of thing.>>85859317I might give Look Outside a try once I'm done with work. Although it'll no longer be Halloween if I do. >>85861364>I'll probably try my go-to of 3rd strike and jubeatJubeat is good fun. I haven't played that in a while. Do they have Pop'n or Sound Voltex there?>>85862071>I had a good interview with a new lab role.Good job! Hopefully you'll get an offer soon.
>>85867332>working for their benefit Yes but it's a purpose, even if it is imposed by another. Leaving everything up to me doesn't seems to have worked too well. But I get what you are saying, I know it's not the optimal thing and that this is my pessimism talking.>therapy helpI think it can do me good. This is the first time I've ever gone, but I can understand the benefits. Talking with someone about all my thoughts can help me ground me. And I really think I need someone to hold me accountable, because I don't trust in myself to suddenly change and do better>yourself miserableI have to accept that I need to suffer. Maybe things will get better.>note down your thoughtsI started a diary this month to write all the stuff that comes to my mind. I helps to calm myself at times and in others it lets my worst thoughts flow. At least it reminds me that what I feel is real. You are supposed to write whatever you want in those, but I just use it to vent all the bad stuff.>to such extend?I guess yeah. When I think about moments I've been really distressed they almost always involve another person I might be disappointing in some way, even if what I was doing wasn't really bad per se. But they are extremely uncommon.And I think I need to push me. I guess that he wants me to find something to be hopeful about and to try to achieve. A goal or something. I understand that it would be useful to have something like that. And if I refuse to think about this because it hurts me them I'm never getting anywhere. He told me to treat it as a game and to not punish myself. Fuck me, this is hard. >not get bored Not really bored, more like I hope I didn't brick the safe. I'll check later.>but at least the games that allow you to do that with be modded for even longer :DWhat's the map for? A game mode? A campaign? >spooky season I should. I can watch Friday the 13th. Smile is also in one of the streaming sites I have. And this Tuesday I'm watching HopeLove your cats
happy spooky day everyone>>85858888you got quints on this post and didn't even get to see till now nice>how did you like it?I love the game. Tons of replayability and tons of content that just wasn't there when I played thanks to patches that came after>that's alrightever figure out what to watch?>>85859317I don't think I've dressed up for halloween since I was in 3rd grade. Been a real long time>>85861364>Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!I'm so excited to finally see her get animated>>85862071hey cynic!>I haven't seen the new edgerunners yet. how is it?I really enjoyed it, but I'm also get really into the cyberpunk world in general. It's different than s1 in many ways, so regardless of how you feel (since I know some preferred season S1, some thing S2 is better) I think it's still possible to appreciate they tried something different>>85867573Happy Halloween Discanon!>editing the paper my supervisor wrote using AI and passed off as his own writing.my sympathies. Every time I read something written by AI and the person who sent me doesn't even know what they wrote says... I just want to scream. Daily challenge I'm faced with these days.
>>85867573hellu ^^>editing the paper my supervisor wrote using AIaaaaa D: the scariest of them all, ai ruining everything Hope it's goes well>>85867633>up to me doesn't seems to have workedmaybe but maybe it's not your fault >thing and that this is my pessimism talking.probably probably >think it can do me goodI really hope it does anon >don't trust in myself to suddenly change and do betterI don't think that's realistic for anyone >have to accept that I need to sufferI think that's just gloryfying misery imo focusing on the little nice things even when you're down works better but that's my opinion >started a diarynice and it sounds like it's helping you^^I think you're taking steps in the right direction >A goal or somethingmaybe tho he might also just be trying to see how you'll react to that>hope I didn't brick the safe. now that would be spooky o.o>What's the map for?just a little placenot really anything with gameplay or anything and what do you like doing anon?>one of the streaming sitesif you want I can like you some websites where I watch everything for free>Love your catsthank you :3I love cats very much
>>85867846hey !did you do anything spoooky today?>quintswoaw >thanks to patches that came afterit's like a whole new game^^>figure out what to watch?Friday the 13th and Beetlejuice :>
>>85867866>maybe but maybe it's not your faultIt is my fault. I've had everything I needed in life to succeed, more than what many people have. Don't take this as I hate myself or I live cursing my existence, I lament taking some choices and being too comfortable not growing up as a person, but it is what it is. I can't blame reality or god, I can only blame myself. I'm the one responsible for my actions. And I'm the only one that can save myself.>I think that's just glorifying misery Part of it might be. But if I run away from everything that makes me uncomfortable and it is painful I won't change. It's just a week, I think I will survive that even if I don't make a breakthrough. But at least I will have tried.>I think you're taking steps in the right direction Many things have changed this month>just be trying to see how you'll react to thatThat sounds a little sinister. I don't think you said it with that intention. >now that would be spooky o.oThe second scariest thing this month. I won't talk about the first.>and what do you like doing anon?The trifecta of vidia, movies/anime and reading/manga.I would like to pick more hobbies, but I need to find a job for those.The free ones I want to start would be writing and music.What about you?>I can like you some websites where I watch everything for freeI would appreciate that. Maybe it's the one place with SkinamarinkI didn't say anything before, but I hope you are having a nice day.
>>85867573>editing the paper my supervisor wrote using AI and passed off as his own writing.Is that allowed? Is he going to get in trouble? Are you going to put it through a second AI with some instructions to edit the text?
>>85867846>Happy Halloween Discanon!Happy Halloween to you too!>Daily challenge I'm faced with these daysGrim. To be fair, in this case it seems like he wrote an article then fed it through AI to pad it out so he does at least know what he's talking about. >>85867866>Hope it's goes wellIt's getting there. I've still got about 50 pages left to edit but it's not too bad.>>85868055>Is that allowed? Is he going to get in trouble?I'd assume (well, hope) reviewers would be able to catch it and reject the paper outright because the prose is so bad.My biggest worry is that a lot of the citations seem to just not exist, and that will come back to bite him if it ends up being accepted anywhere, which could then end up biting me in the ass if he ends up having to retiring in disgrace...>Are you going to put it through a second AI with some instructions to edit the text?No but that might be a fun experiment.
>>85868197A friend told me he new someone who asked the AI to make him a thesis about school regulations in my country. The AI made it all about the pandemic regulations. Somehow he got a passing mark with that shit.
>>85868241To be fair AI writes about as well as an undergrad, so I'm not entirely surprised to hear that, especially if this was a few years ago when professors weren't as familiar with the tells of AI writing. Now I think you'd struggle doing something like that without tripping.That said, universities are incentivised to keep as many students on the course as possible, and are way too lenient with this stuff as a consequence of that.
sleep timegoodnight friends !>>85868046>But at least I will have tried.best of luck anon>sounds a little sinisterdidn't mean it on that wayjust that, not having an answer for a question about a dream job is an answer in itself >What about you?besides the usual I like mapping and bikes (riding, repairing, so on)>would appreciate thathere ya go https://ww.fmoviess.org/film/friday-the-13th-6788/https://watchseries.bar/movie/friday-the-13th/4488https://reanime.to/anime/castle-in-the-sky-hqebtu>but I hope you are having a nice day.thank you ^^I'm goodgoing to sleep now>>85868197>about 50 pages leftDx
>>85868306>That said, universities are incentivised to keep as many students on the course as possible, and are way too lenient with this stuff as a consequence of thatin other words it's so much easier to be a college student now than ten years ago. basically just exchanging money for certifications, no actual merit involved.
>>85868312Me too, I'm going to sleep. Have sweet dreams. I hope you don't get any nightmares this spooky day.
>>85868313To a degree (heh) I'd say it's easier now than it was 10 years ago, but higher degree classifications still need quite a lot of effort. Outside of grad schools or specialised jobs, nobody really cares though and a passing grade is probably enough.At least where I'm from, at lot of universities are bordering on insolvency and will accept as many international students as possible (usually with lower entry requirements) because they can charge more and desperately need the money. It's doing irreparable damage to our reputation as a good higher education provider...>>85868312>>85868323Have a good snooze!
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