Im married, have 3 kids, have a good husband and a fairly comfortable life and i still wanna fucking kill myself every day. Fantasize every day about doing it multiple times a day. Idk why I ever thought a freak like me could live a normie life. Spending my formative years on this website must have fucked my brain up permanentlyI just wish i wouldve never got married, hes not a bad man but i never shouldve been put in the position where im alone with 3 small children for years on end trying to not have meltdowns at the noise and everything else. You cant make an autistic foid into a housewife, dont even try.
Just leave them all. Run away and live in some hotel. Go out for milk so to speak.
>>85851199I dont feel thats an option for women even though i fantasize about it thoroughlt i cant think of a way to truly get that plan to work At this point i think im also borderline too low functioning to fend for myself
>>85851208Do you live in niggerland? There is nothing special about this plan. You just need some savings that is all. Living in hotels is safe in the first world. You can find either work or some crazy cucksimp to pay for you in few months.
>>85851193Sleep with men. Take loads and then go back and put a load in her.
>>85851193Meh I've seen autistic foids become housewives. I think you're just pathetic and need to man up.
>>85851193It would be really funny if you cheated on him with a younger guy
>>85851218Leaving a man just to go depend on another man sounds retarded though. Like yeah i could. But that seems to defeat the point>>85851235Thats what my h*sband said the last time i cried about it. I still feel I cant handle it though. >>85851240Haha
>>85851251No if you have a simp, you are not "depending" on him, you are exploiting him, the different juxtaposition of power will make it automatically feel more rewarding and fulfilling.
Sit with silence whenever you can, even if only for a moment. Let go of what comes up.
>>85851284I dont know that i can do that. Maybe>>85851309I cant do that all the time and no amount of breaks make it better
>>85851193jesus christ this is why you never marry some retarded cuntgod i hope i dont end up with a woman like you
>>85851251>Thats what my h*sband said the last time i cried about it. I still feel I cant handle it though. You should emotionally cheat on him. He clearly doesn't care about you or understands you.
That's becausd we were sold a lie. We were told this is what we're meant to do and our purpose. Niw I know why my mom, grandmother, great grandmother were either on benzos or were almost drunk all the time.Seriously, you just have to look at this ad. It's very self-aware.
>>85851342Being on meds and getting fat might actually just make me swallow a bullet. Ive tried before it was terrible. Not worth the slight change in mood. >>85851334Yeah thats what i was saying retard>>85851340Im too painfully self aware and I know thats not true and im just an asshole that cant just be happy
unrelated to your problem OP (sorry) but since these edited vidya quotes have become a bit of a fad/meme, are there any REAL ones?i don't know what exactly i'm asking for. not necessarily politics, just weird dialogue and shit. like the English text on the Japanese Sonic the Hedgehog box art.
>>85851382>Im too painfully self aware and I know thats not true and im just an asshole that cant just be happyI think you wouldn't be having these issues if you were with a fellow sperg.
>>85851467I guess i wouldnt know
>>85851193Just hire a babysitter and go out from time to time. Sounds like youre larping as Lindsey Clancy to bait people but if not, the reason youre going nuts is because you dont spend time outside. Arrange some alone time with you and your husband or go away for one weekend
>>85851193can you take this bullshit off my robot board?we don't need you shitting the place up with "I'm a normie!" every day.it's literally your own bullshit that's making you want to kill yourself.just shut the fuck up with your nigger fingers and LURK, DO NOT POST.
>>85851484I have zero interest in killing anyone but myself. Im not psychotic im just miserable. Its different. >>85851508Ive been lurking this board since i was actually underaged until now that im 30+I can do whatever the fuck i want nigger
>>85851544then you'd know you will never be a robot.fuck off back to /b/ you stupid whore.
>>85851550Yes ill fit right in with all the porn botsThanks though anon this kind of cheered me up, its like back in the old days
>>85851617it was me you always came back for. despite all the copypasta and 404'd bump limit threads I made that you always loved you chose Chad in the end.you even let him breed for his 1488 LARPisfaction.now that Chad can't actually delivar like I always did, you come crawling back for more and to rub it all in our faces.well guess what?I never knew you even existed the same way you never considered I'm a robot, not a person.normies just wouldn't understand and you are testament to the fact that robots shine while normies cry.I pity your lack of vision.your children will get older, your problems today will vanish by then.for real robots, we'll have no one but our walls.
I feel sorry for those kids of yours. They're probably fucked. May luck bless them.
You probably arent masterbating enough. Post a video of how youre doing it so we can tell, with timestamp. Otherwise you know the drill. Get the fuck out. This isnt reddit.
>>85851709it is when you're here. fuck off back to discord, pedophile nigger.
>>85851193women have genetic diversification drive, not to be confused with sex drive. you're brain will be unfucked if you are taken by a new long term mate. just don't overstay at one more than it would've ancestrally taken for about 1 child to be born and nursed
>>85851544> Im not psychotic im just miserable. Its different.If this isnt a larp, then go outside from time to time. In shows I used to watch, moms were always going to spa days or hanging out with the girls. If youre spending all day talking to miserable retarded losers who jerk it to loli on r9k, many of who are on welfare or being taken care of by their own mothers, of couse you are miserable. You are raising a family while scrolling doomer shit. Plan a weekend for just you and your husband and make it a priority to have a date night once a week. Do something that isnt being a mother or scrolling a board of autistic genetic dead ends.
>>85851709I didnt want sympathy i wanted to be told off. Reddit wouldve just held my hand and been heckin wholesome i wouldve never gotten the masterpiece that is >>85851660 this response on reddit. They cant make me smile like that.There is nothing else like 4chan when you want people to tell you you're a miserable retard. I love all you robots, im sorry for attentionwhoring a bit, its not my usual bit i just needed something today. >>85851667If it makes you feel better i try my best to not let it reach them. Part of my misery is because i want to be better for them. >>85851736I feel being a deadbeat is more typical moid behavior. At least its more accepted for men to do.
>>85851757Not a larpNgl i dont scroll r9k anymore, Im usually on /a/ or /v/ or other hobby boards. This crashout is just not appropriate for there and i felt like a lot of my views and choices in life on what I should do ended up being molded by spending time around r9k in my late teens early 20sI uh just dont have any friends in real life. Its hard to get along with other women, i have to mask really hard to not say something stupid and they always have retard opinions about something that i have to not comment on or I'm a social pariah.
>>85851762there is a sense of love that comes from the years shared. but it is forbidden in this world.at least you're not armless, legless, in a wheelchair, or needing a sip cup to use the computer.the world is made hard by many deceivers.you'll make it...
>>85851778>i felt like a lot of my views and choices in life on what I should do ended up being molded by spending time around r9k in my late teens early 20sSister what ? Why would you take advice from the internet on how to model your whole entire life? Niggers peddling a lifestyle are disingenuous faggots and would crash and burn their lives in a heartbeat if they havent already done so. Just enjoy your life and dont follow another retard off a cliff
>>85851778the conclusive result of truth ultimately outweighs temporary gravity of social friction caused by feigned agreements.chimp out and you will become a true Chad eventually. you can inspire others to not buy bullshit with their mouths.>>85851862tripfagging cancer
>>85851762>I feel being a deadbeat is more typical moid behaviorI don't think these gender war meme copes would help your kid if you end up killing yourself. It is highly unlikely you are sexually attracted to your husband by now, I'm not talking objective "good husband" assessment. Female peak sex drive goes at start of new relationship for upto six month and significant drop start at 2 years. Evolution built all parts of body around sex, making kids and related signal management.Tell him it's over. Create small list of minimum viable long term next mate. Use random number generator to pick one. Force yourself to stick to him for a month because female heterosexuality activates at initial post-paired like setup but until then they fear and get icked by everything. After the month, you'll get 2 years of happy time. Remember to switch after the 2 years max. It has to be long termish, do not do causal sex/hookups but also do not actively hold out sex until he proves himself or compares equivalently to some bs measures, which will unnecessarily delay the process.
>>85851870>you will become a true ChadLol? You cant even follow the retarded thread. She is a woman complaining about being unfulfilled and miserable as most women are prone to do.
>>85851862I dont think youre gonna get it tripfag. Your reddit tier advice isnt helpful. I've already tried all the things youve said>>85851831Larping normalcy is what got me to this messNice paramore quote tho>>85851870Ill work on chimping out more
>>85851899We still have sex. Sex wont fix me anonIf it did this would be much easier.
>>85851903>>85851870Oh i get it youre the mom.
>>85851908you are way oversimplifying what I'm talking about. I wasn't talking about sex. I was talking about how to unfuck your brain. I also suggested against casual sex. I think you are trying to avoid assessing your feeling towards your husband.
>>85851193how dare you use a screenshot from such a kino game alongside your evil foidtalkin a just world your husband would see this and promptly have you lobotomized
>>85851921No then i dont get it. I love him in whatever way that im capable of love. I dont get the feelings thing, its about commitment and about wanting the best for them. I dont want him to suffer with his shitty wife anymore. And im burnt out
>>85851193only read the first sentence but all i have to say is your pussy your problem
>>85851903you don't have to LARP any longer. no matter if you end up away from computer in a cell, in a tent, in a forest, out of this earth.God loves you.that's more important than any robot or groomer tourist.I don't want to think about you out there as a fan of my posts for decades in pain.>mfw already thinking you hurtingI didn't know you'd come here to strike me in the heart while having a settled family foundation.But just know I know now.thanks for coming to 4chan all these years but please come up with some creative posts in the true original fashion of r9k instead of blogposting about reality because some of us have attempted suicide already and are still here. one guy even shot himself in the head and now he has to just keep posting with his face experiencing permanent consequences.you have sex, you have family, it's not satisfying because we're all enslaved to pedophiles operating a blood money pyramid scam planet wide racketeering operation. maybe one day you guys will want to fight it and we can all share freely. until then it seems the weight is overburdening many. you get to raise your kids and they'll get better at life in ways that impress you just as I hope you fucking niggers get better at posting on 4chan than the glownigger spam of /general faggot eternity/ threads, discord blog posts, and camwhore samefagging tripniggers.
>>85851921only US government nigger zogbots say "unfuck" which means you are not a robot
I know it was stupid to come here because my life is the complete opposite of everyone here and none of you could get it. But i still feel something for this place. Am done blogposting. Have a good day r9k>>85852077Ill get over it, hopefully. Ill be posting on 4chan from my deathbed. Ill go hug my kid and clean my kitchen and stop being a stupid bitch. Ill live to larp another day
>>85852148alot of us failed, too.we failed our pursuits, we failed posters like you, we failed so much that we're shown negatives become positives.we're all in this world together.it's none of our faults this life and world is how it's been.I love you
>>85851193Lady i have sisters. im gon b real with you. Yur prolly starting your period soon.
>>85851193Cry me a river Maybe it would have made sense if you only had one kid and then stopped but you proceeded to have threeYou were selfish when you had them and now selfish because you think you can take it back after having them
>>85852914It wasnt really my choice. Not even for the first one. Though I was happy to stop at 1 or 2 instead I didnt get any breaks.My husband still wont get a vasectomy either. >>85852823Nope youre wrong. Im always like this. But im also 5 days to ovulation so theoretically I should be in the best mood of my cycle.
>>85851193Cheat with some Chad. It's the ONLY way.
>>85853211Do you like him as a person? The way he looks? Have you at least in the past?
>>85853211How is not your choice? You live in a first world country And honestly motherhood at that rate would be a strain on anyone and it's going to get easier as they grow olderI don't think autists who'd be completely incapable of being parents would get to that stage at all
>>85853231Yes, i dont like some of the choices hes made in the past and how he treated me before. But right now he's good.>>85853257I think abortion is wrong, i asked him to not finish inside and he did anyway. Though the third time was a failed pullout.
>>85853282Dude, birth control
>>85853315Ive tried, multiple times. Had me staring down the barrell of a gun or otherwise actively hurting myself. Closing the thread now dont worry about it ill deal
>>85853336You sound like you married an absolute shithead Get birth control without his knowledge so you don't end up with a forth, there are many options and some he probably wouldn't know aboutIt makes all the sense that he would dismiss your complaints
>>85853357Wait are you saying you tried to kill yourself or he threatened you? If you mean that the birth control messed up with your hormones you should look through other options, there are many
>>85851382The meds they give now-a-days are useless crap like SSRIs. It doesn't help at all. The only thing that has helped me is klonopin. Yet, it has so many risks like dementia and shouldn't be used long term. No wonder why my great grandmother and grablndmother developed it, and my mom is on her way too. I might as well jump on the family bandwagon.
>>85851193go do it then
