If I went out I wouldn't have enjoyed it anyways...
real
I have no friends and I work in the morning anyway.
>>45182325earlier in the month i got invited to a party which would've been my first time going outside for something social in years but it ended up falling through which isn't bothering me at all i don't even care
same, i went to a Halloween event alone and seeing all the happy better looking sociable people around me made me fold in under an hour. between preparing myself and commuting i wasted like 4 hours just to run away immediately lol
>board slows to a crawl during halloween Is this board just queer normalfags larping as asocial losers?
talked to noone today except my mom lol. hope youre all doing well
>>45182325I had nowhere to go Fml im literally killing myself in a few months I can’t believe i didn’t get 1 good Halloween before i died
its chilly out where i am. im hiding under my covers typing this, unless its just driving around in my warm cozy truck im not trying to freeze because vibes i wont feel because my mind will be on how cold out it is. But Happy Halloween everyone. >>45182547alcohol. Not a lot just some. Helps not care about social jidders. I have terrible social anxiety but when i drink I'm the life of the party. Just cant keep it up without drinking tho. and the headaches suck. idk ymmv its what i got for advice
>>45182325it's been so horrible for so long why won't it get better, i wish drugs were a viable option but they would just make everything worse in the end. i can't feel anything good just echoes of echoes of positive emotions while everythong else is just dissociated foggy static that constantly hurts and wears down my nerves and brain and makes me even more sick. nobody even truly cares either. what point is there to any of this if i'll never be even a cheap copy of what should've been the real me?
>>45182325this is know a sad tranny meme thread, maybe the jpgs will make me feel less lonely this halloween
>>45182690doesnt alcohol make you look ugly..
it's the same thing every yearalonealonealone
>>45182785this person does not exist
>>45182690I feel alcohol doesn't work if you're autistic because it makes you stop masking and then disaster ensues.
>>45182832ssshhhssh lemme dream nona
oops >>45182844 was meant for >>45182823 i'm fucked up
>>45182696what do you mean "should've" none of us should've even existed in the first place, we're all failed abortions in this imperial hell world that runs on suffering and nothing else.you might as well make friends with the maggots crawling in your gut, they're the only thing that will accompany you into the great rot beyond
>>45182832this is my experience, but it's also my experience that some people like the disaster. everyone's a little fuckn fed up with the world right now, share your autism with someone and maybe they'll you'll both feel a little less alone
>>45182559Wife and I went to a movie :P
I'm so tired of not living my own life
>>45182983aww nice, was it the new stop motion thingy ?
I should have found friends that I was more compatible with when I was younger
>>45182998Saaaame, being repressed in all aspects of life was a mistake, to no one's surprise.
>>45182991live someone else's life, maybe you'll find yourself living your own life along the way
>>45182998what does "compatible" even mean here, every relationship in life requires some amount of compromise. if you don't find your friends a little bit insufferable, and vice versa, then they're not friends, they're coworkersbe a fucking annoying piece of shit, and expect he same, and you'll make friends for life. i wish people were okay with being mean to me, i kinda like it actually
>>45182991>>45183016Monogatari talks about this.
>>45183015i feel like some amount of repression is kinda necessary for survival right now, but that makes the people you can really release your inhibitions around that much more special
>>45182325it's true. I was moping about it today but I know if I actually found a party I would've been surrounded by people who would've clocked me as a mega autist tranny in under a minute. I'm not made to socialize. I am meant to be alone.
>>45182559yeah, i mean obviously all of 4chan's userbase are asocial losers, but i think queer people literally have to have at least some sort of support network irl, otherwise we would literally 41% or detrans/go back in the closet or soemthingnot me tho, i'm built different :']
>>45183087and aslo nietzsche talked about this, you know
>>45183015I really thought anything I wanted, or liked, was bad for me. Relationships, sex, interests. I was so mean to myself. Not worth it at all>>45183070Compatible as in understanding and trusting my idiosyncrasies. I have given these people I grew up with a lot and they really have either misunderstood me or just internationally taken advantage of me. I don't care to figure out which, I just want to be more honest and respectful of myself now, and part of that is realizing I am allowed to pick better relationships for myself and I dont have to keep trying with people who don't want to try with me.
>>45183137that's fair, if you feel like you are putting in so much work to a relationship, and it's not being reciprocated or you can't even talk about it, you can only give so much until they have to want to live and continue to live as an acquaintance of yours.sorry im real fucked yp, so maybe i'm projecting some feelings from my last relationship, but i really feel like partner was giving a lot more to me than i was giving to them from their perspective, but from my perspective i was literally homeless, jobless, schoolless and hrtless, so i was giving as much as i could but it looked like a one-sided dynamic from both sides.ig communication really is key, if they can't give you a reason for why they can't reciprocate your effort in the relationship or show that they have goals and want to have you in their lives, you are totally justified and in fact are doing them a favor by giving them space to get to a more stable place in life before they are able to actually engage with you on terms that are mutually intelligibleo algo, jesus fuck me i didn't mean to type allat
>>45183126no he didnt
>>45182943yet i'm here, we all are. lying down and rotting doesn't do anything for anyone except make them dead. love is all that matters and when you don't have love then hope is all that's left. i hope for a better life for myself and others, for everyone that suffers unfairly.
>>45183286you're right, that's more stirner type shii just wanted to say the jordo beebeson line :'3
>>45182325If you aren’t some variety of normalfag (even non-normie subcultures have their own normalfags) then there’s basically no point in trying to socialize.
>>45183343living and hoping is just rotting in a positive direction :)sorry i got rot on the brain, i'm listening to mc bushpig on this lovely halloweenyoutu.be/FTIRDHJS8Pg
>>45183380normalfags actually love ND weirdos, we're more interesting than anything in their world and it feels like community service to them just talking to us
>>45183111this one's for youalso, see >>45183391
>>45182547almenos saliste, yo ahora mismo estoy tomando monster con vodka y llorando
>>45183571no hablo espanol, pero yo se mucho vodka y monster
okay, thank you OP for letting me use your thread for my manic depression meme dump <3i'm going to bed now, have a lovely and safe halloween all you lovely nonaslife's a bitch, but damn can she fuck
>>45183620>>45183625Goodnight, nona
>>45182325Me every single day
>>45182785this is me
