I'm genuinely afraid that I am cis because there is nothing feminine about me and I have always had an aversion to anything feminine which made it impossible for me to work on my transition besides taking hrt because of fear and shame. I feel like I'll always be mentally stuck a man and I hate it so much and I don't know how I can overcome that. If I can't find a way to change this, I fear I will have to detransition. How does one get over shame, fear and disgust? I'm also so far from passing that doing anything feminine just highlights my masculinity and that doesn't make it any easier.
Don't identify with the ugliest version of us.Don't define yourself as "not a supermodel".Don't try to garner sympathy by agreeing with terfs that you're just some confused liar.Personally i think the whole thing can be easily justified from the perspective of, "I can do, be and act however the fuck i want."Focus on the parts of you that you like.
>>45176710Easier said than done but I'll do my best, thanks
>>45175868How long on HRT? How far along hair removal? Do you take care of your hair and skin?
>>45177090>How long on HRT?About one year>How far along hair removal?I only bought an ipl device and I was lucky that I didn't have strong facial hair prior to getting on hrt. The ipl managed to get rid of it to a point where I only need to shave every couple of days and most of my hair is transparent>Do you take care of your hair and skin?Always tried to, but nothing ever really worked. I've tried tons of different products and routines but I've yet to find one that works for me. It's getting increasingly better and easier to manage on estrogen tho which is nice
>>45175868Why are you so afraid of being cis? If you’re questioning, that’s healthy, and you should acknowledge your learned biases
>>45178683I'm afraid because I'd have to be a man then. I mean, I already am, but then I'd have to be a man for the rest of my life
sounds like a skill issue to me. maybe detransition is right for you?
I too am wishy washy
