I'm considering ending my life at the end of this year. I'm FtM, but I will never be able to transition. I live in Egypt where being a tranny is illegal for "immorality", and I have extremely conservative parents who would never support me nor let me move out and live a life of my own. In Egypt T is not a controlled substance so I could technically buy it without prescription from a pharmacy but the issue is my parents finding out would get me honor killed probably. My mom found out when I was 12 I present as a male online, so she beat me, choked me until I was unconscious, and told me she would, and I quote, slaughter me if I ever transition like one of these freaks. The way I was born is why I'm not allowed to travel abroad to study or even go outside alone to have a walk. I'm only allowed to go outside alone for uni. With my chronic physical and mental illness, it makes me completely dependent on my parents for medication. The only way they would let me move out is if I marry some man they pick out for me, which I would rather kill myself than do. I am forced every day to present as someone I am not. Dysphoria is making me want to shoot my brains out. It's basically over for me. I'm completely dependent on my parents and cannot escape them. Do I just kill myself?
>>45175138no clue of how the laws work for you but if they are not controlling your finances try to build up a decent sized savings not only to leave the country but to get everything you’ll need once you leave because there is no use trying to bring your things outside of one luggage worth so bring whatever you can’t replace and get everything else new wherever you arrive, so long as you can meet someone online you trust to live with till you can get a footing in a new country, genuinely just dip, stop giving a fuck, figure out what meds you’re on, look into their restriction within wherever you’re headed and assuming they’re all easily accessible, you can just get a new doctor to prescribe them all again by telling them the context of how you got there and why you need those meds, so long as you can stop them short term you have the time and ability to leave; if they’re completely unregulated, just steal them and bring them with you in your luggage so you can both maintain dosing and to prove you were prescribed in egypt to get a new prescription.
>>45175138I think it's great your parents I love you so much. Transition makes sense for ugly male, but not for pretty females
>>45175138Might as well troon out and call your parents' bluff. Best case they exile you and let you live. Worst case they kill you which is what you want anyway. Make those assholes have to live with themselves
>>45175209I can't leave the country because getting things like a visa requires interviews and visting embassies and governmental institutions to get paperwork done which I have no clue how I'd explain when I'm not even allowed to leave the house to take a walk around my apartment complex. I have my own bank account but the card doesn't work for online transactions because my parents don't want me buying anything online without their permission. So I don't know how I'd pay for things
>>45175138You clearly have at least enough freedom to bitch about your situation on the internet.Grow a spine and just leave.>b-but what if mommy and daddyShut the fuck up. You aren't special. There is no magical force keeping you obedient. You are the one repeatedly deciding to follow along with your parents instead of growing the fuck up already.Your laziness does not deserve special sympathy.
>>45175326How the fuck do I leave when I am so controlled? Do you think I can just hop on a plane and go to some rich first world country and magically be greeted with open arms with free housing, free healthcare and shit? Immigration is tough especially if you're not being supported. I don't care about my parents' feelings but they have forced me into a situation where I cannot take control of my own life.
>>45175347Are you physically chained to your fucking bedposts, you fucking cretin? Just leave your house. Just pack your shit and walk out of the door. Your parents do not have magic powers and you are a legal adult. Make use of the freedom that you already have.Even moving to a first world country won't help you if you still can't conceive of doing anything without asking mommy & daddy for permission first.
>>45175394I don't want to be homeless
>>45175316just don't go to one for terf island
>>45175138Dooming is just an illusion we build to not have to challenge ourself and put the effort and pain into changing our position. Doom and misery gives a certain comfort. >I'm only allowed to go outside alone for uni.Study to get a scholarship and move out. Study a lot make it your priority, liberate yourself.
>>45175138yeah you should probably kill yourself. seems fucked
>>45175459you might have to sleep rough for a little while, but you could probably get asylum somewhere in europe, or in canada, with a story like this. think of it like a camping trip. you said they let you out alone to go to school. say you need to stay for extra tutoring in a difficult subject, meanwhile, use the time to gather things you might need on such a journey. you'll have to hide them somewhere your parents won't find them (at uni for instance). be really careful if you do anything like this! and don't tell anyone about it, even people you really trust, unless you absolutely have to rely on them to get out
>>45175482terf island is better than egypt retard.
>>45175347>? Do you think I can just hop on a plane and go to some rich first world country and magically be greeted with open arms with free housing, free healthcare and shit?yes you literally can do this, fly to the UK claim asylum at heathrow and we give you a free house and shityou may as well, we're giving free shit to everyone else in the third world
>>45175138hi im egyptian too can we become friends ^-^ t. mtf repper
you should allahu akbar your parents
>>45175292What do you mean live with themselves? They would not give a single fuck and would blame OP for being a freak and making them do it.
>>45177037OP should marry this guy and they can both troon out or seek asylum somewhere that isn't shit then troon.
>>45175138Your best option is to marry someone who lives in a western country, thats also basically the only option. Perhaps you could also volunteer for a foreign military that will give you a place to live and money so you can transition. I dont know how realistic any of that is though.
>>45177499Or pretend to be normal and then go overseas for postgraduate education.
>>45177499women aren't considered people in muslim countries0% chance anon could serve in the military
