“Girlhood” Edition>QOTT: Never "one of the girls". What kept you out?People talk about "girlhood" and "boyhood" like universal experiences.A lot of us describe a lifelong failure to fit in with other girls, and the humiliation of not knowing the unspoken rules everyone else seemed to know. How much of that do you put down to being trans or repressing, and how much to being neurodivergent, poor, socially isolated, bullied, or just weird?Imagine you could know for certain whether it was gender or purely social, would you feel relieved or devastated? What does your answer tell you?
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>>45165132take your HRT, retards
>>45165132Anyone over 5’4 not living in the Middle East or Somalia or some other shit country (no offense if you live there) needs to stop repping they have no excuse
>>45165132>whether it was gender-related or purely socialI don't think knowing the exact split would help me much... I've grown up in quite a conservative country, so any deviation from the female script was seen as being an abominable failure. I was a rowdy, brutish and masculine child who was quick to anger and resolve conflicts with my bullies with my fists. I was pathologized quite a lot for my antisocial behavior and anger issues, and a lack of empathy, even though I know they weren't quite "normal", I was made out to be a monster rather than a troubled child, so I was not let into a human childhood, let alone girlhood. I stuck to other weirdos and outcasts who were not afraid of me and had no social capital to lose by associating with me. I tried to mellow myself out to fit in, sometimes to the degree of overcompensating, especially when I was able to present as masculine as I would've liked, I shrunk myself into a shadow of a self to be less visible. It's stifling. No matter what I can't seem to be able to grasp humanity, not either man or womanhood, though I learned eventually how to be an invisible woman.I wish I could stop existing and be able to remain an impartial observer to everything
I think I would have been just as miserable as cism, I would've just not been "fixed" through rape and conversion therapy which probably would've made me a slightly less miserable person,Also 4chan lgbt server for friends:https://discord.gg/lostcord
this is one of those things i’ve been struggling with my entire life. always felt like an outsider looking in, especially as a kid, comparing myself to the very specific life of white, neurotypical, middle-class american girls who had a social life and fit the norms. girls whose families were supportive, wanted to set them up for success and actually showed them love. i mourn that. i really wish i’d had it, but i also understand they were blissfully unaware and have their own, different problems to an extent. it felt like i was living in a completely different world, and our worlds only collided at school, where i got to see how others had it. i think to an extent my upbringing led to the self hate, the wanting to be anything but who i am. probably a factor in me wanting to be a man too. i always felt like something was deeply wrong and i couldn’t put it into words. i’m probably neurodivergent, my upbringing will affect me for the rest of my life, and then there’s the gender dysphoria on top, all mixing into something that’s hard to untangle.if i could know for certain whether my being a femrepper was gender or social, i’d be relieved to finally have an answer to this lifelong struggle. looking back at the big picture, i think this is something i can try to reclaim. i can try my best to claw myself out of this and build the happiest life possible for myself. i can transition and live with what it can’t give me, or stay and live with what being a woman takes from me. i could transition and settle for being a transman, where i'd still dream of being a male, or i could try to come to terms with being female. time will tell, but yeah, it’s really depressing to think i’ll never be able to be a man. truly, i feel like i’m despairing, and the sadness is always there. i’m keeping my hopes up for future technology within our lifetimes like a robotic penis attachment, maybe neuralink, highly advanced surgery tech
i'm just a dog
>>45165132bump
>>45165132i might've been too stupid as a kid to figure out that gender applies to social circumstances as much as it does, even stupid enough to think it was normal for me to be in the boys bathroom in elementary, and because i used to believe girls weren't real as a biological thing until i learned about it through porn, i thought calling myself a girl and dressing like one was just something fun like dressing up as a dinosaur. i did conform to the social norms visually at least, and people thought it was endearing for a kid to talk for hours to any stranger on the streets, even though i learned to be properly polite embarrassingly late i think. after i grew up a bit i generally stopped talking to anyone unless i really had to or it was about some kind of interest of mine though, so i didn't really have much of a social life to care about, let alone be excluded from anything when i was already excluding myself lol. never really concerned myself with the gendered aspects of it too much either, though it was a bit odd that it was usually girls who tried to force me to be friends with them, especially the clearly maladjusted ones. i've had nicer and more peaceful times in childhood competing with the guys in my class over who is smarter or writes faster even without necessarily befriending them than with whatever kind of weird friendship some girls were trying to rope me into and of course failing.as for now, unsurprisingly i don't even have acquaintances that i talk to at least semi-frequently and just hope to get my degree and fuck off. not really sure why things turned out like that, maybe my upbringing was too culturally detached despite being a native and not an immigrant. maybe people were right and im too self-absorbed and detached from reality altogether. i do wish i knew though
>>45165132Would you peg a moid?
I want a femrepper to peg me then cuddle me afterwards.
>>45168013Give it up bro, none of us look like this
>>45168111desu I don't care what you look like. Also I don't care if you peg me I just want a hug.
i just need to kill myself i cant stand the level of social isolation I'm on. my entire rant post got deleted because i accidentally refreshed the page and it tastes a lot of effort for me to write these>How much of that do you put down to being trans or repressing, and how much to being neurodivergent, poor, socially isolated, bullied, or just weird?I'm only seen as gnc because of autism, there's nothing particularly masculine or feminine about me
Hi sorry to bother you allI'm not trans (as far as I know) but I thought you might be the best suited to ask. I do have a weird stupid fetish that's impossible in real life or rather couldn't be done in real life without breaking the law. I've decided that it's probably best to just try to repress it, but I'm honestly not sure how to. Are there any like, guides or stuff you have on repressing? Are there any chemicals or procedures that just remove sexual desire and actually work? I've heard chemical castration isn't effective in reducing sexual desire and bromide is just a meme. Is it just a case of not thinking about it?(For the record I don't want to imply that being trans is a fetish or the two are equivalent, but I figure that if you repress being trans it probably includes the sexual desire part)Thank you good day
>>45165132bumpi will not let you die femrepgen
>>45169598you're a shota fucker, arent you? am I the only one here not sick in the head?
>>45170256No, not pedophilia. It's a transformation fetish.
>>45169598i probably wouldn't be able to help much either way, but i am curious about what the fetish exactly is and how obscure it isi wouldn't really call it a fetish but when i do feel an attraction to something or some group of people which would be considered illegal if acted on, i try to relieve it a bit by gooning to either a fictional depiction of it, or if possible visually the closest looking legal porn i can findif what's out there isn't good enough or doesnt help whatsoever and im forced to repress i either just end up cucking myself by sticking to fantasies or trying to imagine things that would turn me off, trying to make my genitals hurt a little also works but i can't really pull that off in public that easily>>45170260saw this later than i typed everything but one cope of mine is lolis so feel free to ignore everything i said but i guess ill post it anyway as a bump, shucks man
>>45169598There's an incomplete guide for that on the discord server, the doc is a pdf so I can't directly link it sorry
>>45168129A lot of femreppers out in the world lean gynephilic (those are your butch lesbians who are too attached to lesbian community to poon out), and here on the boards, most are too misanthropic and/or have dysphoria induced asexuality to actually give you the soft touch you crave
>>45170287Women exploding >>45170299Thank you, might check the server out later
>>45165753Anon, I feel like we're pretty similar. Would you mind talking a little about your dysphoria? I replied that to me knowing wouldn't matter much, and that's partially because my dysphoria is primarily physical, so I would probably not go off T because no matter what I really am, I feel great relief about T effects and the fact that I'm stalling my adult estrogenic development. What about you?
>>45165753You have to hope for reincarnation and living as a man in the next life. Just rep. I know it's hard, especially for neurodivergent people, but it's what must be done. Don't even see it as reppimg. See it as undergoing a massive journey where you come out on the other side a god.
>>45170260>transformation fetish.oh god you're one of those ''its hot being a beast'' retards
Hi anons
>>45169598Curb your internet time. I'm serious. Do other things in real life, work and have fun and whatever.
>>45172403Hidesu
>>45173661hey you
>>45170412hey anon, if the fetish is effecting your life then i get it, but if not who cares? not like you actually wanna explode women irl right?
>>45173661Hi I'm the nona you replied toHow are you today anon?
>>45173701I'm doing swell, gonna go touch grass and socialize tomorrow for Halloween, what about you?
>>45173790I'm okay, probably going to do neither of those things but I hope you enjoy!!What brings you here?
>>45169598Avoid exposure to your fetish and whatever can trigger it. For some, combining the fetish with something that you find utterly unerotic and repulsive might work, but it's a risky gamble and I would not personally recommend that
>>45173842I checked back in on there since my 1 month HRT anniversary is coming up soon. I can't say it fixed everything, but I'm doing a little better. I breathe more easily now
>>45174106Happy for you :)The months will only get better
>>45173700I mean no I don't, but I dislike feeling like a freak or monster.
I'm tired of repping and /ftmg/ is useless, where do I buy T in 2026?
>>45174682Try /hrtg/ or >>>/fit/fraudI don't think people will just tell you where to buy T since it's a controlled substance
>>45174682Check out the eroids forum, Anon. The top sources that are linked here are pretty trustworthy, I myself used ////bazaar and was left pretty satisfied, they managed to deliver T to me even though I live in a pretty inaccessible location
>>45175333Don't forget about reading up on your country's customs policies by the way. And if you live in a third world country, it's possible for you to fraud your way through normal pharmacies and get your testosterone OTC. Particularly in some MENA areas doods are straight up able to get it from dingy downtown pharmacies because they care more about getting your money rather than asking for a prescription
>>45174753>>45175333thank you. how paranoid is receiving it though? I live in an apartment complex and im worried if someone else gets my package in the mailroom and opens it. the manager here that got fired was caught running a sex ring and other stuff with drugs, im worried the police have eyes on shit going in and out ykno
>>45165164this desu
>>45165947bark me a river puppyboy
>>45175425Order it to a PO box if that's a thing in your country. I'm not sure where you live but at least in the US if you receive a package you don't take responsibility for it unless you sign for it (so avoid doing that and ask for a reship)
>>45175480Yea I live in the US. I guess the other question is needles, what's the best brand don't have to worry about poor quality stuff that could lodge into your skin
Happy Halloween reppers
>>45165132what music do other femreppers listen tohttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUw8i7k1mwc
>>45177641https://youtu.be/U9t-bcJCiXI?si=fBFcyOIqxir1MC9W
>>45177641https://youtu.be/KrYSJ6E1rR8
>>45174673that’s the real thing you gotta work on. i have some fetishes i’m kind of ashamed of too, but you have to remind yourself that your thoughts aren’t what make you a bad person or a freak, it’s your actions that determine that.
>>45175607https://diyhrt.info/ has links to injection supplies, as well as some sources
>>45177641I've been very into emo (mainly Title Fight) lately
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>will never be a hot 20something teacher banging a suicidal studentwhy live
