I wish my family was normal. My mom hates men and made me hate myself. Now I'm jealous of women and feel uncomfortable in relationships with women.I hate every instinct I have. I tried to just turn off my brain for the last month and keep going but it's a never ending cycle of freaking out
>>45164285I'm too privileged to even know who I am, or develop myself in a natural way. I'm too privileged that I can waste my energy freaking out about this.
>>45164285i was going to say that my family is actually pretty normal but upon reflection i can see what made me idolize women and dislike masculinity and male socialization. i guess you are onto something
What parts of you do you like?
>>45165143Great question but idk anymore. I'm in a total identity crisis when I've always thought I had a firm idea of myself. I think I'm a nice person which I like about myself but also resent about myself.
If you’re mtf I hope you can find peace in yourself, do what you think is right and don’t worry about any mistakes you might have made. Life is a journey.If you’re ftm, you better not fucking detrans and become another depooner optics nvke you idiot. Go lift some weights.
>>45164285cord?
>>45164295Privilege in one area doesn't mean you can't have your demons in others. Having a shitty childhood with abusive parents that stunt your personal development and traumatise you is universally an awful experience, even if you materially never wanted for anything. I don't know what's happened to you to make you feel this awful and say these awful things about yourself, but you're allowed to freak out and you're allowed to address the issue and work on it, because you deserve a good life full of love and kindness. I hope you can find happiness, wherever you are <3
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