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Apart from the GOTT, here are a few things you can do _today_ to make your life a little better. Keep a diary and write down every success. Some you may do as often as you please, but write down each one individually! You deserve it! Do not feel pressured to do all, but feel free to select one or two!

- prepare 1 load of laundry
- do 1 load of laundry
- read one page of a book or manga you have been putting off
- cook yourself a meal, or try learn to make a simple dish
- eat a meal
- pick up items on the floor for 5 minutes
- make your bed
- if you have a bad habit, try making it more inconvenient (putting things in hard to reach places for example)
- do the dishes for 3 minutes
- write down one thing you are grateful for (from abstract things to something like a cute image you saw)
- Clean up 1m^2 of your floor (~40x40 in)
- Open your window for 10-20 minutes
- try to exercise for 5 min (walk outdoors, walking stairs, whatever you wish)
- take out the trash
- drink a glass of water
- put one item of trash in the bin
- reach out to an online contact
(perhaps even try arrange spontaneously meeting up with an IRL contact near you!)
- BONUS: Repeat a goal to hit a milestone (1 book chapter rather than a page, the laundry pile, the floor of one room, etc)


Unofficial group chats maintained by kind anons of /sig/:
IRC: presently defunct afaik.
Discord: https://discord.gg/pUuXdBjKX2

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>>45166889 >>45180109

>>45126589
I'm at kind of a weird point right now. I've basically just been sitting on my ass since the beginning of the year, 2 years if we don't count correspondence studies, and I don't really see things changing. I mean I don't mind. I'm really getting into video games for the first time in my life and I'm writing a book, reading books, stuff like that. I think I'm going to be 29 soon. I've moved out twice and crashed back both times. I tried the careerslop but it was unfulfilling and made me miserable. Money is going to run out eventually but right now it's not an issue because officially I'm taking care of family members and they pay me for that with money to get from the government. So technically /sig/anon is paying for this. Thanks /sig/anon, you're the best!
I'm applying for disability too while I'm at it. I don't think I'll get money from that though so whatever. My parents don't mind too much either because I take care of the dog while they are away for weeks at a time.
So that's, like, the most optimistic way of looking at it. I'm probably going to be that guy who still lives with his parents when he's 40, never had a partner, has no friends and works at a gas station or something? I'm just not really sure how to feel about that, but all the alternatives seem worse. My psychiatrist and therapist keep telling me that I should be grateful for what I have and I'm trying but it feels my life is, uhm, over? I don't know. Maybe I should cross that bridge when I get to it. /bloggu

God, please

pg6 paw :3

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>>45132893 >>45157767

>>45043272
>I saw sig again and figured saying hi here was as good as anywhere
Heya Anon, sorry for the long ass time to respond, but I hope you've been doing okay? I know how it feels when your fingers carry you to 4chan before your mind catches up with you.
>Wishing good things for you all, and I hope you're doing well siganon
I've been a bit low energy recently, and took a bit of a break the past week.
>>45041952
>>45041958
>>45041962
>now i just feel screwed, the market on these thinkpads are so brutal right now its insane.
Which is ludicrous, having a T540p myself. They used to be the go-to for affordable, sturdy, repairable machines. The current hardware situation in general is an utter clown show.
>I don't study very hard but I do fine
In my experience, depending on what you study, this is normal in the first few semesters, and should change a bit past the third.
>I'm having fun still
That's the most important part in my book! Helps with retention.
>Nothing like spending other people's money.
Unironically what its there for! I'd die on that hill.
>So I've still been lusting after nice things I've had in mind for months but fear buying.
Do indulge in treating yourself to nice things from time to time, Anon!
>interpersonal conflicts
>I think it is inseparable from the personality required to do well in the reality of my field.
Some friction between certain kinds of people is unavoidable, and sometimes even enriching, I find. Like, I have butted heads with some dear friends on the reg and it tended to be intellectually stimulating usually.
>it gets more lonely, and I get more drunk.
That is of course worrying, but.. it sounds like you are also getting in contact with more people again.
>totalitarian personality combined with selfishness and/or retardation, which also fits the profiles of NIMBYs.
That is a flavor of person I do recall from especially elementary and middle school teachers, myself.
>>45052393
>I have lived poorly...
In what way, Anon?

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>>45130304

>>45050828
>how to cope with anhedonia
That's a big struggle for many when they're in a pit. A lot of the time the question is the root cause. Has it been a case of you enjoying less and less until nothing did anything anymore?
>>45056133
First of all I hope you had a great time! I see you're following noah's work too. Sounds like you've been stepping out of your comfort zone to treat yourself to something nice, that's something to be proud of, Anon. Also, cute you're posting some art from noah to catch my eye, I appreciate the gesture.
>>45055513
That was actually just me this time around, hah. I was curious if someone would catch the reference since I feel like there is some l/g/bt overlap present ITT. I used to be one of the first people who occasionally volunteered to keep the emacs/lisp general up, though I fell off of that when I started /sig/.
>>45056581
>I'm experimenting with different showering routines
Oh nice, how is it going?
>>45058522
>Parents went on another round of bitching about politics and I kinda snapped
I cannot blame you, this was my Christmas for a couple years. I'd love to hear more about your general circumstances, if it's alright.

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>>45054685
>>45055303
>>45058113
>>45066764
I hope you all know how much I appreciate the encouragement you give me, so frequently too..
I have become rather slow compared to 3 years ago, mostly due to ever shifting circumstance, but I am glad to be appreciated.
>>45062296
>Hello intersex born trans woman.
>I wanted to ask if getting hrt would be overkill on me?
As far as fertility is concerned it would absolutely suffer from HRT as far as I understand. Bear in mind though that even Finasteride can affect fertility to my knowledge, which you might also want to consider around 30 depending on your T levels and genetics.
>Id love to remove my body hair ofc and other than that I dont have many complains about my looks other than my skin being not very smooth.
In that case you likely want to look into laser first and foremost. Bear in mind I'm a cis guy though so you might also wanna ask /hrtgen/.

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>>45133832 >>45141946

>>45059854
>>45067002
>Went crazy well everyone was so nice and the author I asked for an autograph from gave me an oak sapling from a 600 year old tree
I'm happy for you that the conference went so well! Sounds like it was a very replenishing experience overall.
>>45043984
>>45049228
Alright bun, I finally got around to ask (regarding >>45026369).
The thing with cybersec in particular is that it tends to be a typical pick because it's a safe choice. The catch with that is that a LOT of people have that exact same idea. The thing that you need to focus on if you want to go in that direction is to first get a solid ground to stand on, that is, you need to study enough to have an idea what kind of cybersec you even want to get into (e.g. embedded systems, network stuff). In other words no project could prepare you for that specifically at your current stage.
>who will ruin his life and everyone else's for no other reason than he feels like it
That checks out.
>I am going to bed now.
Hope you got plenty of rest since, bun.

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>>45170253

>>45061308
>I'd like a full on guide to skincare in particular, not just moisturizer and sunscreen.
Not my wheelhouse unfortunately but this has become such a frequent question I gotta look into it.
>>45063279
>i NEED to get my brain in order within the next 3 days
>literally lost the mental skill to lock tf in.
Hey Anon. I am late to the party, but I would really, really love to do at least a post mortem with you, and take your hand to help you sustainably work on your procrastination before everything is on fire again.
>>45063522
>my doctor just retired and i might crash out desu
Oh fuck, general doc or specialist? Did he work alone or did he share his facilities with a colleague?
>>45071382
>It did. Got some bad news though.
Sorry to hear about the bad news, did you post them already? (still catching up with last thread)
>>45072340
>I wish I could be pretty for a day.
One thing I have learned is that, especially in romance, the things your partners will find beautiful about you will often terrify, confuse and delight you at the same time. It is not the same as what you wish for, but it may be something that will make you happy to experience.

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>>45174566

That's it for tonight.
>>45072742
>it's my teenhood game and i've played 50 hours last two weeks
It sounds like you're having a lovely time, Anon! I'm glad to hear you're finding joy in a teenhood fav.
>>45072484
>been pretty nice got done with a midterm on friday, so got an extra free weekend.
Oh, great news! Hope you had tons of fun with your friends.
>wbu siganon?
Overall the last week was a blur, I feel like next week is gonna be less intense, and I am more rested now. I am currently in France for work reasons and the strikes and riots make a mess of my schedule but nothing I haven't navigated before.
>>45073064
>started using retinol on my body a few times a week. smo
>i also probably have kp.
I believe there's also skincare routines that can help with KP, but I am not well-versed on the subject. Definitely keep us posted!
>>45076137
>Why does everything hurt now?
Hey Anon, are you the one who often speaks up about headaches and the like?
>>45077667
>take it easy, boss
Thanks Anon, I did. I needed way more of a break than I initially hoped.

p8

>>45126589
OP why do you like Helltaker so much

>>45128457
>Oh nice, how is it going?
I think I prefer bar soap to liquid

pg6 paw :3

pg6 paw :3

Good night

>>45128448
well, i go make frankenpad now, much cheaper. parts on the way. i have had the metal laptops, now it will be plastic. that is scary, i tend to drop things. hopefully, i will not mess it up. never done this kind before, plastic clips, lcd replacement,etc

went camping again, different class, different community college, super rich one, not camping-specific class. it was a shitshow. the rich kids, its true they're spoiled and immature. group tents were provided for entire class, boys/girls/remainder tents, but they kicked me out, because i am not part of their clique, but they would not dare say it straight to my face. so i said fine, and took all my stuff out of the tent and laid it under the stars, and then they came again to harass me with the TA, shining lights in my face, about how they were just confused, then dragged out the reserve directors wife to say the same thing.... "do you want to talk about it"
i am the one who got the fire started in front of near everyone, when the TA floundered, this is not my first time, clearly
spoiled retards, this is not an emotional matter, talk to those spoiled brats if you want, the low is 55F, go away. they are just overgrown children, it was impossible to have a conversation for it was all gossip, and they still point lights at people.... the only upside to that place is that they are very rich, and dump new linen shirts to the reuse clothes rack, so i did get a nice piece, and hopefully i will get more stuff.
prof chewed them out, but in the way that flies over the heads of children, in the subtle way so the lawnmower parents can't eat him,

then i got home, and my mom served pasta, and there is an additive in certain jarred pasta sauces that gives me diarrhea, and i tasted it and refused to eat the bowl, and she's the one who got mad that i tossed it. i did swallow a bite, so now i am sick with dread, and awake too late, because i am starving, afraid to eat anything.

well, at least i know where the problem lies now. i carpooled, and though the driver was supposed to take two others, they flaked, and we talked alone, and he had some maturity, life exp.

i miss bf and alcohol is good calories
but i cant have anything. i've had to move so much this semester, what an annoyance

>>45130085
probably because he is a polyfag

>>45128514
>That checks out
Yeah, there's nothing I can do there.
At the end of the day, he's gonna do what he wants to do.

All I can do is try to position things so that he doesn't hurt us too much in the process.
There's a reason I have the details of the local hotel service ready in case I need to leave his place in a hurry.
I should probably check in with them for the actual prices. Another thing to save up for just in case.

>Hope you got plenty of rest since, bun
It's been up and down but I have made a conscious effort to be healthier in that way.

I can only ever get 6 hours of sleep before a work day though, so that's an issue to correct.

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I have a major personal update with some good news. My dad has dementia and I’ve been helping my mom take care of him at home for the past couple of years. We weren’t sure if it was necessary to put my father in residential care. Now we know that it is. Recently my dad had to be taken to the hospital for an emergency, and in the aftermath the doctor told my mom that it’s no longer safe or realistic for my dad to be cared for at home by family.

My dad recently started losing his coordination and falling. It used to be that if I held out my hands, my dad would take them and I could help him get up. But now he’s so out of it that he can’t cooperate. A couple of nights ago, my dad fell and refused to be helped up. My mom called emergency services, and the paramedics had to pull him off the ground, with him fighting them the entire time. Even at the hospital a nurse is watching him at all times, just to make sure he doesn’t try to tear out his IV or wander off.

The hospital is going to fix my dad up, then move him into short-term residential care while we find a place for him to go for the foreseeable future.

So my days of caring for my dad at home are over. I’m glad I helped my mom with this. Hell, I’m glad to have been needed. But now I’m just as glad to be done. It helps to know that my dad is still around, he just needs to be in the care of professionals now.

These last couple of months, taking care of my dad took up a lot of my time and energy. That was okay, because I knew how important it was, and that it wouldn’t be forever. Now I’ve been given that time back, and I understand how valuable it is.

pg6 paw :3

>>45126589
I'm going to a psych soon and hopefully getting my meds adjusted, 150mg buproprion isn't enough, apparently. I worried about adjusted them for a while because I was afraid I had some form of bipolar and just anti depressants would make me flip, but I don't think that is the case. Any 'high' states seem to be caused by external factors and are significantly shorter and less common than my low states. My gp was also very useful in my appointment and seemed very understanding of my plight, besides him asking repeatedly about 'my sex change' lmao

pg7 paw :3

pg8 paw :3

pg8 paw :3

my tummy feel crazy

Good night

Every day I slip further back into far-right extremism.

Being more or less isolated again feels even worse the second time around.

I'm glad I still have a few anchors to keep me mostly sane.

>>45128514
>The thing with cybersec in particular is that it tends to be a typical pick because it's a safe choice
In terms of the amount of available jobs or ease of applying for them?

>The catch with that is that a LOT of people have that exact same idea
That's a very good point to bring up, I appreciate that.

>The thing that you need to focus on if you want to go in that direction is to first get a solid ground to stand on
>that is, you need to study enough to have an idea what kind of cybersec you even want to get into (e.g. embedded systems, network stuff)
Do you know where I can go to start?

Whether it is online courses or even websites/videos to visit?

>In other words no project could prepare you for that specifically at your current stage
That's a shame but at least I know better now, thank you.

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Goodnight for now, everyone.
Take care.

p10

>>45144588
good catch

pg7 paw :3

mao pg7 paw :3

Anybody else horrified of the future?

>>45147240
it's scary
idk about what id be doing personally, idk where things are gonna head with the political climate and inclusion of ai in everything. there's just too much going on, i try to focus on tasks at hand but it's still really scary :((

Bump from page 10

I’m trying to lose 50lb by the end of next year

>>45150218
goodluck, don't do anything dangerous

I'm launching a fashion line. Wish me luck promoting it. This could be huge.

>>45147978
ai helped me transition desu

>>45151065
it can always help when used as a tool but centering your decision making solely around it is scary imo

>>45151267
This.

>>45147240
yes, I try not to think about it but the future seems dreadful
"thankfully" I have more immediate problems distracting me

does anyone have tips to deal with willpower issues? I lack the willpower to do things I should be doing, and I lack the willpower to stop doing things I shouldn't be doing but that feel good

>>45151816
try Atomic Habits tbhtbhtbh

>>45151060
Goodluck.

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>>45151816
I struggle with these issues a lot these days, in addition to maladaptive daydreaming.

The best ways I know of are to make difficult/important tasks easier or very simple to do.

AND to internalize that doing what is needed will bring you more rest and peace in the future.

>>45124654
Vent Post, 29 October 2026 Part 1.5?:
>Thinking about my mother and sibling's neurological issues and collective trauma
>Thinking about all the times my father was unreliable and unpleasant to be around
>Thinking about how my father and his family acted during the early years of our family starting, and how none of them will say sorry or make amends
>Thinking about my Dad's driving lessons being the source for a lot driving anxiety
>Thinking about all of my self-inflected and circumstantial isolation
>Thinking about the state of the world and my home country
>Thinking about how anytime my Father gets angry or gets happy for me I just feel empty and sick
>Thinking about finances
>Thinking about how weird I look
I should just get some sleep soon.

I am forcing myself to come to terms with the fact that my indicisiveness and stumbling through life has made the future more unstable for myself and worse, my family.

I am obviously not giving myself the full blame for everything horrible in our lives. But the idea that my failures and weaknesses have hurt the people that cared about me most...makes me feel awful.
As it should.

I am and I must be committed to my family.

Goodnight.

>>45151060
Best of luck, it sounds ambitious.

p8

pg7 paw :3

I've been really dysphoric lately, even though im actively trying to make it better. it just hurts that noone around recognises that im struggling with something real.

i feel so incredibly behind in life and i'm just so jealous of people who got the support to get to be 'normal'. who aren't scared all the time, who can do normal things. i dont know at this point if this stuff will get better

it's really not healthy to keep stewing on. i fear i've regressed. it's just not fair, none of it is fair at all.

im going to try again to stop isolating myself so much, which is the only familiar, comfortable way i have of dealing with stress

i wonder if i'll ever 'fix' my life or if it's possible for me to find my way back into who i was 'supposed' to be. or if this is all more like an invisible disability that i'll either never have the courage or resources to address, or that's too deep rooted to address

i should just focus on the progress i can make but idk it hurts that like... the way to progress is to lean on people more and work on my social life, but it feels like people are actively oblivious, judgmental or not understanding towards the situation i'm in and why i am the way i am

i think the internet and the amount of transphobia i see, even from normies and allies and other trans people, has been bad for me too. so im going to try getting off it completely.

socially i feel like a total fuckup but i have to work on it, there's no other way. i think i have to stop putting rules or standards in place and just throw myself at it any opportunities i get, as long as im not pushing myself into more danger or dysfunction or nervous overwhelm/burnout.

there's so much wrong but maybe if i work on it systematically i can be okay

siganon you replied to me a while ago and i dropped the lead because i got distracted with other stuff, sorry ill try to catch up on it.

pg7 paw :3

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>>45158400

How do you deal with developing race anxiety? I feel like I'm getting more and more anxious about my skintone and I don't like it :(
I'm aware 4Chan might have a teeny tiny part playing into this, I also tend to get these weird obsessive thoughts that are detrimental to my sanity. I do plan to limit my use of 4chan and do something about the obsessive thoughts (I should mention that I also have obsessive thoughts about other things) but it's probably not gonna be enough.

i could go for a cup of tea

>>45106925
to give better context, this reply was also me, I also couldn't find my OP so I thought I hadn't actually posted it.

>>45128448
> sorry for the long ass time to respond
no worries at all, i'm happy that you've had the time to rest.

> I hope you've been doing okay?
struggles aside it's not all bad I guess. a lot of struggles and I'm handling them with varying degrees of success, but I have a place to live and there are still some nice moments. not great overall though, I wouldn't say. I spend a lot of my days just waiting for the next one, but they're all pretty much the same either way.

> I've been a bit low energy recently, and took a bit of a break the past week.
I love that for you :) and thank you again for the save yourself first post, I needed to hear it that day in particular I think.

>>45157153
should make some tea, I'm probably going to as well

I hate myself.

>>45156852
What exactly do you mean?

Good night

bweh ly all /sig/mas <3 lowk lately this board has been the only thing keeping me motivated to try and socialize more. ty silays <3 i've been a bit sick but recovering. i might have to get a flu shot soon. done with midterms and stuff so got a lot of time for myself which hasn't really been that fruitful but i'm trying. as always sending virtual hugs ⊂((・▽・))⊃

Sometimes I feel like totally isolated from other transfems because I am a veteran and I transitioned after my service, in my mid 20s. Not from the transmascs. They understand me. They don't judge me. They don't look at me as a walking landmine. They understand that it was just about getting benefits, and getting away from family. Whenever I talk to transfems it's like they want every tgirl to be a walking activist machine that hates the system and wants to burn it down.

Or it's the same shit with my business. Like it's a fucking crime to be motivated by profit. No one else has to wake up and occupy my body and my brain but everyone thinks that I should do everything for everyone else. Well FUCK YOU!

>>45158725
nighty night

pg9

Gooning for the soul
Nth nut November

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>>45162327

>>45158400
I sometimes get feelings that my skintone makes it harder to be cute or even just average looking. These specific thought tend to arise whenever I'm doing skincare or styling my hair
I don't really know what to do but to try harder at making myself look good. Though considering just how much of a Hon I am, it's going to be a very long time till It stops bothering me.
So it's kinda more of a mix of being a Hon and skincolor self-hate ig. I know there isn't really a permanent solution till passing but I hope someone has advice.

I hate that you can't complain about your parents past a certain age. I'm pushing thirty and I still hate their guts and I hate living with them and I wish I could move out already but schizophrenia is a bitch and they're taking advantage of that.

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>>45161742
If you’re self conscious about how your skin tone, keep in mind that pretty much all forms of racial resentment are cope. “I may be X, but at least I’m not Y!” People who criticize your appearance that way are soothing their own insecurities by finding somebody else to look down on. They’re trying to compensate for their own shortcomings by making a show of excluding somebody else. It’s a shitty thing to do, and it’s pretty arbitrary. You can be too dark skinned for some people, and too light skinned for others. You need to love yourself unconditionally, without comparing yourself to anyone else.

Now bear in mind I’m white, so my understanding of some of this is secondhand, but hopefully that helps.

>>45161824
It’s hard to stop being upset with your parents if they’re still mistreating you. That kind of thing will tend to remind you of the past, but this isn’t just about the past.

It might help you to talk about this in terms of what you want to change about how your parents treat you now. Even if your parents are only doing what they’ve always done, they can’t change how they behaved in the past. It’s easier to deal with present and past behavior separately. Connecting the two seems like it would be persuasive, but it can also be a distraction. It can put people on the defensive, and feeling like there’s no point in trying to change now if they’ll also be judged for what they can’t change in the past.

Speaking as someone who lived with my parents for most of my adult life, and was figuring out how to live with them in the present while also processing the past.

I feel like the only thing that motivates me to workout is getting hammered in vodka and self-loathing. Any good tips for motivation?

>>45161657
I hate being a porn addict.

>>45162407
Thanks for the advice, anon. I think I just needed to vent. It's actually not much of an issue.

>>45159278
>I am a veteran
>look at me as a walking landmine
I see what you did there. That's funny.
>Whenever I talk to transfems it's like they want every tgirl to be a walking activist machine that hates the system and wants to burn it down.
Honestly it feels like this is pretty much everyone who isn't a boomer these days. Being a "rebel" is so passé at this point desu
Best of luck with your business.

>>45163750
Thank you. I published some Instagram content and papered flyers in my neighborhood, I'm looking for artists to collab with in my city. I wish I could function without sleep, when I work I can lock in and talk to customers, do sales and such. but I've been waking up and crying lately from my dreams.

I feel like I enter the zone when Im operating, like I have 0 anxiety talking to potential customers. But with my friends, I feel like I'm walking a tight rope above a pit of lava.

I think HRT has been a double edged sword - I feel euphoria in my body and feel very pretty but I feel like my anxiety and emotional ups and downs have been heightened.

Anyone have any strategies they can recommend for reducing stress? Usually I draw a bath, pour a tall beer and chain-smoke but lately that's been less effective

>>45161824
Its ok to feel that way about your parents even if you are 30 and above. My parents became such different people after their parents died. they tell me, they didn't move far enough away. Growing up, there were so many fights and examples of passive aggressive manipulation in our family. People fighting over inheritances, petty awful shit. But once my grandparents died, my parents became so much happier, and they haven't been shy about telling me. They're 54, and I think they have the right to feel that way. So you do too.

My body is a fucking cage.
I hate my genes.

pg6 paw :3

>>45126589
No one cares but I honestly feel like OMAD is the only way I can actually lose weight and be consistent

I won’t look at porn again

>>45165441
honestly OMAD isn't that bad just make sure you're not severely undereating that one meal.
good luck <3

>>45165593
I try to reach 1000-2000 calories.

I've been going outside and walking around almost every day for the past several weeks. helps my mood a lot. I've been trying to go into stores I've never been in before and just look around. I'm starting to feel more like a real human being instead of a shell.

>>45165704
id say check your bmr estimates and plan accordingly. easier to gauge if you're undereating and harming your body.
https://www.omnicalculator.com/health/bmr

>>45147240
yeah :( idk I struggle just to eat and sleep normally I don't want to think about the future at all

>>45127384
>My psychiatrist and therapist keep telling me that I should be grateful for what I have and I'm trying but it feels my life is, uhm, over?
This is such a weird response to someone having a hard time, i never understood the point, especially coming from a therapist. Sounds a lot like "just be happy".

Good night

>>45167060
night night

>>45166889
A solution to my social isolation and social phobia has been "just join a club already" for over 7 years now lol. I joined a church choir with a bunch of church grannies for a while and she thought all my problems were solved.

pg7 paw :3

>>45147240
yeah

Everything speaks against me taking my hrt
Executive dysfunction
Fakeness
Depression
I know blaming externalities isn’t helping but I’m tired
Im so fucking useless i cant eveb do this right
Msybe I just dont want it ebough right? Yey I keep coming back to it
Im so broken

Fucking IP range ban on normal ISPs.

>>45128651
>bad news
A relative may have a shitty form of cancer.

>>45167767
Kek. Your therapist sounds like my mom, and i'm supposed to "find a girlfriend". She keeps reminding me how she "wants me to be happy with life", then proceeds to ignore everything. Haven't bothered telling her i'm on hrt. (to her defense, i think she's autistic)

How 2 get a job for hrt money so.im.no longer bald

>>45171613
Boomers are fucking weird to be honest.

pg7 paw :3

>>45128863
>Oh, great news! Hope you had tons of fun with your friends.
yes! it's been fun we ended up starting a baked study group for interview preps.
>Overall the last week was a blur, I feel like next week is gonna be less intense, and I am more rested now. I am currently in France for work reasons and the strikes and riots make a mess of my schedule but nothing I haven't navigated before.
sounds interesting!! hope this week was a bit laid back! and if you smoke pls do try out french blondes! they taste pretty good :3

my tummy hert

Good night

>>45147240
no shit

>>45174773
tummy rub o'clock

>>45167060
sleep tight

pg7

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>>45178104 >>45178931

I know this sounds kooky as fuck and I'm actually a little ashamed to admit it, but I've been reading birth charts for people on Discord (for free ofc) & I'm taking a 6 month+ course on (a particular branch of) traditional Western astrology. I genuinely can't explain it, but it just /feels/ right. And I'm glad I've found something to study again.

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>>45178234 >>45178931

>>45177912
Pursuing an interest in something is a good thing, and studying a belief system like that can be a comfort as well. I can imagine you’re a little embarrassed to be talking about this because of astrology’s reputation, but I’m pretty sure it’s possible to be into astrology in a chill, healthy way. The astrology followers who aren’t like that just stand out more. Godspeed anon, and always check your Gatorade for mercury!

>>45178104
>Godspeed anon, and always check your Gatorade for mercury!
Hah! Thanks panty.
>Pursuing an interest in something is a good thing, and studying a belief system like that can be a comfort as well.
Very much so, yes...
>I can imagine you’re a little embarrassed to be talking about this because of astrology’s reputation, but I’m pretty sure it’s possible to be into astrology in a chill, healthy way.
Absolutely! I'm not btw, the first lesson of that course required rejecting the Enlightenment and embracing the Medieval worldview as fact. It's fun tho!
My inner critic does kick me all the time... I was really into the whole skeptic/rationalism thing for the first 25 years of my life, and integrating that is just a little painful now. I also worry I might just be swinging too far into the other direction (having rejected the Enlightenment and such). I'm glad to have this thread as a litmus test tbqh

>>45177912
>>45178104
we have the inherent tendency to search for meaning in the world and ourselves in order to actually process the world around us. some need an explicit spiritual way of doing that, but we all are just going with whatever feels right. personally I like tarot card when I'm having a particularly hard time, they just help reframe and process things, and it essentially gives a "prompt" to use as a backing to figure out what to do next, rather than starting from nothing.

don't be prescriptive of others with it I think. It's fun and can help you make meaning of things happening, just try to keep a reasonably grounded perspective regarding how wildly varying people, their behaviors, and the consequences of them, can be. belief systems are just lenses for us to look through after all

Im sick in the fucking head.

>>45178234
Rejecting the Enlightenment sounds like a red flag, but it seems to be a pretty basic tenet of seriously studying astrology. If you’re going to learn anything, you need to start from the assumption that it is true.

I can imagine rationalism/skepticism putting you off lately. I definitely thought better of Richard Dawkins in high school for example. I feel differently about him and his sort now, not just because of what they’ve been up to lately but because of hindsight. They’re not so much in favor of the opposite of what they’re against as they are focused on being against something.

It’s natural to want some kind of certainty about the big picture. Even being sure about nothing can be a kind of certainty, but a certainty of absence can start feeling empty. Sometimes you’ve got to push away everyone else’s beliefs to make room for finding your own.

Think of it as a different way of learning to get at a different kind of truth. Science is quite transparent about the limits of what it can reveal. Plenty of things that always were true existed outside the borders of scientific fact before we could prove them. Pre-modern civilizations and people figured out things we also recognize as true using the methods available to them — that didn’t make them wrong. And learning about old ways of understanding the world can help us appreciate how things are now, for better and worse.

Maybe you are overcorrecting, keep an eye on that. But the great thing about changing is that you can keep doing it. You can change a lot now and a little bit more later if you decide you need it.

>>45178931 said similar things, but I wrote all this and I still wanted to post it.

>>45178960
same, I wish I could be normal or at the very least harmless

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Happy Halloween!
>>45077524
>i don't even feel joy even if i don't compare, so i don't know why shouldn't i compare my life with others.
I get why you say that, and it's a tricky situation to be in. But at the same time, misery in my experience follows Liebig's law of the minimum: If you have several problems that affect you to the same degree, you will only feel better when all three are taken care of, which means there is no reward until all 3 holes are plugged, if you will. It is a major problem I observe a lot, not just ITT. It is easy to consider any one leak not worth attending.
>basically was considered a missing person
Oh shit, that is an unusual situation to be in, could it be your family holds a lot of power over your day to day life, something like that?
>I don't have a blender sadly so i might just stick with clear soups for now.,
>cream soups are very hearty though i kinda miss it. I might try getting one.
I strongly recommend it, a stick blender is 20 bucks new iirc.
>Currently failing at both end.
At the beginning your focus will have to lie in creating growing breaks from the undesired behavior. So if you manage to evade the impulse one week a day more than you used to, and manage that consistently, then you made progress.
> I am trying but i am getting no results out if it now.
Do you log the days you do and don't cave? Given the above I would rec it.
>>45077732
Thank you, Anon. Trying my best, as always.
>>45077774
>also /sig/anon sadly you cannot use like any publicly available disposable email for 4chan email verification
The insane thing is that they don't even accept paid email providers because the... gentlemen in charge don't even know posteo, which is not exactly a small time provider all things considered.
>it's tiring to post here.
It is, which is a shame. I found a workaround but I am not exactly delighted, because at this point it almost feels like being shepherded into creating an account unless you're a literal fed.

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>>45077817
>It's either gel or pills and I don't wanna take pills
In that case I would strongly advise you to take frequent blood tests, it's the only authoritative answer that takes all variables unique to your metabolism and body into account.
>>45077750
>to the point i probably gave me self-psychosis that people secretly hate me.
Ah, yes that is a very different ballpark that requires attention.
>I still think that I am a bad friend which cannot hold friendships.
>i keep nipping people off when the budding of acquaintanceship starts to blossom, because I cannot bear the pain of the end
All of that sounds a lot like your problem is twofold, on the one hand you grapple a great deal with self image issues that manifest as you self sabotaging and second guessing stable relationships into oblivion, on the other hand it sounds like you might have attachment style problems. If there is a chance for you to seek out pro help on these fronts I would absolutely look into it. The fact that you held stable relationships over multiple years should encourage you, but it is clear you lack some grounding that keeps you from spiraling when you already have a good thing going.
>>45078900
It might be one of several things, an infection is possible if the problem is recent, you should likely see a doc. Certain AAs (spiro if memory serves?) can cause incontinence adjacent issues, definitely bear that in mind.
>I'm worried about seeing a doctor and I'm scared this might be permanent.
Talk me through your worries, I'm here to listen. I will reply more quickly this time around too.
>I'm in my twenties and feel like I can't do anything.
You're still learning, Anon. I have seen so many people who figured out some things only in their 30s, and it didn't make them lesser in the slightest.
>>45080428
>give me guidance on how to lose weight
>a diet i can stick to.
Oh of course! I just need your age, weight, and height and gender (mtf on HRT counts as F metabolically).

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>>45086997
>i literally have no one to talk about this to.
>Transitioning seems like only a way to pain and anxiety,
I am glad we are here, and I hope you still get to read this. It's difficult being in that pit, especially assuming you have a lot on your plate with dysphoria and social anxiety. It's no wonder you struggle to find the strength to go on. I know my reply is late, but I would like you to know that you are not alone in your struggles, not ITT, not on this board.
>trying to be fine on my own after getting broken up n blocked randomly is much harder than I thought.
I fully understand, you NEED to take some time to grieve, Anon. I assume you have very few friends to lean on, and are quite alone with your thoughts? A lack of support network can really do one in in such cases, and letting yourself be vulnerable around other people is immensely scary after having faced reaction like this. Would you like to vent a little, perhaps? Let some feelings out? You say you don't have it in you to try and get out of the pit right now, yet you reached out to us. That is something. Maybe what you really think is that you don't have it in you to take a step that is big enough to matter, in which case, I would love to try and break whatever unattainable seeming goals you have down with you.
>>45089836
>I forgot all the lessons from it, and they weren’t many.
>I lied to everyone
Out of curiosity, why?
>I should have probably seen what’s up with my position in the uni by now and not just assume my deletion means I'm done
Just to make sure I understand, do you mean you neglected your studies and you eventually assumed they exmatriculated you? Can you walk me through what motivated you to start studying it, and how things devolved away from the, let's call it "standard" trajectory? I assume you at some point got overwhelmed and stopped going to your classes?
>This is what I always wanted.
Is there anything in particular you feel makes you unhappy?

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>>45088402
>>45088418
>I haven't been around in a couple of months.
Welcome back, Anon!
>1. I got a job, with a salary! Which I though would make me happy, but it's been complicated.
Oh, those are great news indeed, I'm happy for you! Even with a proper weekend, thank fuck.
>only 1 single 15min break through that time
That rings alarm bells, when is one supposed to have lunch or toilet breaks?
>I'm "Independent" so they can fire me at any time.
Ahh, that's unfortunate. I suppose you can always be on the lookout for alternative jobs but that too is work and would drain you on top. It's no surprise the onboarding sapped energy out of your studying, that is perfectly normal and the main reason a lot of students I know that had to work took longer to finish their degrees. Given the added time pressure you mentioned I don't wanna frighten you though, I am just saying that it is normal that your performance took a bit of a dip there, you will bounce back soon enough.
>But I have this thing where whenever I have to do something stressing like that, I am thinking about it through the whole day, and it doesn't let me enjoy doing anything else until I've done it.
I know how that feels, it's something I struggle with myself. As for the scooter, I get why it's scary. It's easy to forget that modern cars are basically tanks, you don't feel the road, you are incredibly well protected, they are massive things. A scooter has a frightening amount of power with none of those perks. I definitely look forward to hearing from your experiences with it!
>I believe I am technically doing better than last time I was around...I just wish I could enjoy it!
I hope you will in due time, I wish you nothing but the very best!
>>45093600
>I'm not troubled, I am just a stupid neglectful piece of SHIT
Well, what is it you struggle with, (self) neglect wise?

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>>45097782
>Welp, I quit the first job I've ever gotten in my life.
Wanna talk about why? I don't think a single action like that should define you, but I understand why you express your feelings this way. A post mortem can help us figure out what led to you quitting.
>>45098367
>I got somebody hurt today, I was cleaning something
I'm sorry to hear, Anon. A lot of risk management is about safety procedures, because a lot of the time these things become a statistical inevitability. Was it a sort of situation where you were assigned to mop a floor with a lot of foot traffic? I understand why you feel the way you do, in fact it is very sweet of you to worry about the person. But I
>>45104381
>Hello, its been a while. i am alive, sure am.
As always happy to hear back from peeps. I see, you are in a nominally healthier position but don't feel any less hollow. You basically have a foundation now but it's not really like you have a home just yet. However, indifference is something that is often a transitional state to be in, it is much less emotionally exhausting than being invested but at the same time it is not at all recharging or motivating. However it can take a lot of effort to even get there and I hope it doesn't sound backhanded when I congratulate you for it. I mean it sincerely.
>My health has been deteriorating at parts,
I know going from doctor to doctor is very tiring in its own right, but without trying to sell you toxic levels of hopium, that indifferent stage is very promising a thing to achieve. I would love to see where your journey takes you from there. From my own experience, at least, I often had to work towards goals I was too numb in the moment to believe in. So I would never try to make someone believe in things getting better, but rather see what I can do to make acting as if they did easy given their energy budget.
>I search for something, I have tried things, but cant find an answer.
If you want we can discuss this in depth.

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>>45098639
>How do I look less ugly as a straight guy without getting plastic surgery?
Things like posture, beard, and outfits are common blind spots among straight men. Another one is to ignore advice from straight men about what they find attractive for reasons I can best summarize as "what men find attractive in men is not what women want to date", a very blanket statement but you get the idea, it's a dangerous pitfall.
>>45106925
>I'm one of the anons that struggles to eat enough. not sure how many of us there are, at least that hang around sig, but that's the only way I feel like identifying myself right now
Welcome back, Anon. There were.. a single digit number, I believe. That stuck around. If it was several years ago I think I know who you are, you might have posted around the same time as chart Anon. No matter how long ago, I would always welcome any of you with a smile.
>I was intermittently okay for a while. I was eating decently and I kept my weight on okay.
That already is a victory, and I am delighted to hear that!
>something about everything going on right now with GLP-1's and the heroin chic comeback just fucked me up immediately.
I understand, and ywam stress and isolation easily push us into old copes. I would never judge you for that,
>I don't have many places or people to reach out to, though I have where I can so someone else knows what's going on, and now I'm here again.
>hope you're getting good rest siganon, ty for all you do
I appreciate your kind words, and while I have been a bit low energy recently I hope to all things precious my words still reach you.
I would hate to see anyone here feel alone when they ping me so sincerely. I am here for you. If you want we can talk things through and try to give you a firm ground to stand on again. I would love to make you feel safe.

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>>45106442
>Around this time of year I begin to miss being able to get something out of scary/mysterious stories and stuff. It has been so many years...
Oh? What was the last thing you enjoyed? I was never deeply into horror but I did enjoy things second hand a fair bit, one of the first podcast adjacent things I ever listened to was about ARGs and unfiction projects.
>>45114731
>Thanks I really needed that
I'm happy to provide, Anon. I hope you know.
>talked to a person in close proximity of me who went to school with and is DL.
>don’t want to deal with DL or be someone’s secret
>I don’t know if I want to give him away
I get that you're not looking for someone like that. I think it would be wise to let him know that if he wants you he can't *stay* DL. I mean there is nuance, I think professional contacts have no right to know jack shit about one's personal life for example, but the implication of DL extends to family and friends too and that is a no-go.
>I need to look at those high school yearbooks
That is an excellent idea, people love to reconnect.
>The issue with my neighbor is that when I think about him it feels like there are daggers in my heart when I even think about him.
There is a high chance those feelings will pass when you have some romantic experience, I think. He was your first real experience with someone being openly attracted to you, right?
>I’ve been thinking that maybe I should talk to him and have sex with him
I get where you are coming from but I think your initial reaction of staying the hell away is wise.
>>45117589
>I want to complain but y'all definitely have it worse than I do.
That does not matter here, I promise. A lot of situations like yours can be what I tend to call brain chemistry bullshit. If you truly have it "easy" then it is not a matter of "you shouldn't complain" but "we gotta find out the things that make you miserable in spite of that"! Do you bedrot a lot, for example? What is your environment like? What do you do?

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Alright, this is it for now. Expect another few /sig/anon power hours to catch up with the thread, and please always make sure to ping me should I somehow lost track of a post. Have a lovely night, everyone. I feel very emotional right now and.. I really want to hammer home how happy I am to help in what little ways I can. I mean it. Please never hesitate to criticize or correct me. I do this out of love.
>>45117687
>I've started journaling again. Still bedrotting most days though
It's a start, and it matters. And I want you to know that I am cheering you on for it.
>>45120864
>fuck it, I am going to be healthier from now on
Nice, do you have concrete goals in mind?
>>45123615
>This time I'll actually apply for a job surely
What kinda jobs are you gonna apply for?
>>45125020
Welcome back, Anon.
>unfortunately I still am a p*rn addicted freak, though I don't do it as often
>I've been doing marginally better
It's a start, and I am glad you made progress. How are other aspects of your life treating you?
>>45127384
>So technically /sig/anon is paying for this. Thanks /sig/anon, you're the best!
1000% where I want my tax money to go and I am not joking, I'd rather pay more taxes than have people in your shoes excluded. I don't think it is healthy for 100% of the population to be employed full time. I am not keen on the idea of 100% of the population working half time, either. Not everyone can or should need to be employed to "earn" the right to live.
Given what you wrote in
>45167767 (can't link because spam filter fuckery)
I would say your psychiatrist and therapist are a bit too detached from modern reality. Like, I agree that you can use more people in your life, it would do you incredibly well, but their way of suggesting it is almost childishly naive and stuck in a world view where your entire social circle met at the Sunday mess every week. Tell me about your phobias, I would prefer to take them into account when trying to help you on the front of making friends.

>>45179796
>If it was several years ago I think I know who you are.
I'd be surprised if you didn't, I was always surprised by how well you could recognize some of us. I've come back a few times here and there, but only ever lurked because of the ISP bans and captcha errors, I appreciate the warm welcome <3

>That already is a victory, and I am delighted to hear that!
I wanted to discount this at first but took long enough that I think you're right. even falling a few steps back doesn't mean none were taken forward. thank you

>while I have been a bit low energy recently I hope to all things precious my words still reach you.
I'm liable to stick around at this point I think. that's my hope, anyways. I hope whatever funk has got you down lifts soon, I know that the season around an anniversary like that tends to feel fairly grey as a whole for me, so I'm glad you've been taking time for yourself.

I'll be around, though. thanks again.
and happy halloween :)

pg7 paw :3

>>45181552
Thanks, kitty.

Good night

>>45182850
mreaow :3

it pains me that i still hoped, i hate how all the promises where empty and you just gave up, i knew it would be like this, i know i wont see you again. i was stupid for hoping you would be any different. but really had hoped you would have been different. all i wanted was a life that was a little kinder

I am such a fucking pile of SHIT.