A thread to talk about your kinks, where they came from, and other kinds of conversation you can't find anywhere but /d/. Images requested! Venting, rants, ect are fine, but include images, please!Previous Thread >>11565933
I blame this episode of reboot for my drone fetish. either this or the TF scene in the mario bros movie.
Hey, it's me again who hates dykes. A fantasy I've had for a while now, but also lately have been thinking a lot about, is turning Tsukasa into an alien. Not a little green/gray dude but a Giger-esque abomination bordering on cosmic horror. I know I mentioned it but I didn't get into much detail. It wouldn't be a permanent transformation, I wouldn't want to do that to him, but still extensive: SFX prosthetics covering the entire body, built-in spikes and projections forcing him to move and hold himself differently, voice changer, drugs heavily altering his thoughts and senses, hyperrealistic immersive VR to create the effect it's all his real body. I've seen the potential for a bizarre sexual creature inside him since early on and I think changing him into something so dramatically different would help him bring it out to its fullest. And maybe I am also projecting my intense desire to escape my own self onto him; I do enjoy the idea of being transformed as well. Really though I think these kinds of fantasies of mine, bizarre shit in general, I developed it as a cope for how scared of a lot of things I was when I was younger
I got my first ever boner to the episode of Sabrina the Teenage Witch where they shrink.These days I mostly just like minigirls, but I get a nostalgia boner for shrinking itself.Probably also contributed to my appreciation for ENF
Honestly, its a little embarrassing to admit to enjoying petplay and bad-end, identity death CTF stuff, but what's weird is thats almost what makes it so enjoyable in the first place. Maybe that's what it is, having no choice but to endure, be strong, soldier on without thanks no matter how grim it is but secretly desperate for acknowledgement, for someone to yell you you're doing a good job, to not HAVE to constantly be on guard and overthinking everything, maybe thats the appeal to being told to sit, and being called a good boy for it.
>>11588526How did you develop those kinks anon? Was it a TV show? An experience?
Girlstink, and urethral playThe first is 100% from my sister. She did soccer for like, all of high school, and just the way things worked out, was my mom would pick me up, then head over to pick her up after practice. So, I'd be next to her in the back, drenched with sweat, and eventually that broke me.Urethral play, is actually kinda funny. The first few times I saw a pussy I thought the urethra was, like, the way in, and I remember thinking about how tight that must be (bear in mind, I had no idea what being tight even really meant, besides this being "good"Then, some of the first hentai I encountered was pretty bad, and just stuff mistaking the urethra for the pussy existed that I thought that was just how it was. It's funny now, it's completely porn only for me, but hits a weird, like, nostalgia attraction for me?
>>11588561I don't know if I developed them or if they were just always there, and I only discovered them and learned more about them. The pet play stuff kind of activated when I made a dog joke to someone and it ended up with me domming them, and over time it sunk in that I wanted thay, too. I think, like I said before, it just slowly developed in response to endless, unsustainable stress with no outlet, validation or realy even acknowledgement and I think that's why its so common.The CTF stuff... Iiiiiii got no idea there. That might just be a brain-wiring anomaly.
>>11588781>The pet play stuff kind of activated when I made a dog joke to someone and it ended up with me domming themWhoa what
>>11588108This is not an origin, but an observation.I work full-time as a cashier at a convenience store, meaning I see a lot of freaks walk in at different times of day. Last week, this one kid, some pasty looking short ginger kid with glasses and freckles walks in with his gf, presumably. A brunette. They both look like they're fresh out of high school or some shit, because she mentioned a college exam while she was talking to him. Boring conversation. Whatever. Ok, so the real meat(no pun intended) of this story is when they walked up to check out. Forgot what I rang up, but he asked to buy a box of condoms in a real nasally voice. Of course, still teenagers, still rabbits. They have a lot to learn. I went over to the condoms, which the display is behind the counter, and was about to get him the normal Trojans until he asked for the Magnums. I was kind of surprised and thought this was some joke, but I rang it up, thought nothing more of it....until today, when I saw them both come in again. I didn't even notice them walk in because I was talking to a coworker in the break room until I heard a loud sneeze from the coke cooler. It was the guy and his gf there and he was picking out a drink there. As I rang him up, he asked for another box of condoms while sniffing every couple of seconds. And as I was getting them, he asked for the XLs because the normal Mags were hurting him. I genuinely thought this was a bit, but nope. I could clearly see through his sweatpants, which were a weird shade of pink, a BEAST curved down his left leg, like at least 8-9 inches flaccid. I rang the condoms up and watched the two walk out. As he opened the door, I got a good look and...yeah, he's so well-endowed he's probably on the verge of passing out when he gets an erection. The co-worker asked me if I noticed he was packing, and not to sound gay or anything said no, even though the condom size should've gave it away. Point is: Freaks. I've been thinking about it ever since.
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>>11589625That's not surprising. I'm pretty feminine and I was small even in college. Except my dick is 5in flaccid 8in hard and very thick. For some reason that seems to happen a lot
>OP picNo wonder this thread is getting zero traction. I remember this retarded shit
>>11589800I'm 5'5" and my dick is huge. Not as big as that other anon was talking about, but next to my small body it's crazy big. I remember my dad told me a story about how my mom was baby sitting a bunch of boys from the neighborhood and tossed us all in the tub together. Later on she asked him if there was something wrong with me mine was so much bigger than the other boys. I keep myself very thin so it does a whole illusion thing where it seems much bigger than it is as well. I really do not like it, and I have a kink for nullification. Not trans stuff, but eunuch stuff. I have no idea where that kink comes from, I think I've always been kinda sick of it. I wish I was just totally smooth. I have the obvious kinks of transformation, and furry due to all the furry and transformation stuff I injested as a child. I have a medical kink wrapped up into bondage, transformation, petplay, and femdom because of a Choose your Own Adventure Goosebumps book where I was infatuated on getting bad endings. My anal kink comes from finding a giant stash of anal porn mags when I was in like 1st or 2nd grade. I couldn't jack off because I was too young, and didn't know how to cum, but I could do the other stuff, so I started putting things up my butt. Then I started dressing as a girl and doing it. All to mimick what I was seeing in those mags. Later on, and this is shameful to admit, I got a kink for beastiality because I got the Internet and I was very young and found a beastiality website. I never have participated in any acts of beastiality, but animal turn me on if they like get a hardon or rub themselves on me. I can't even be around horses I blush so much if they get a boner. It's shameful I know. But it's my one dark kink, and one of the lesser kinks. I would rather be getting bound, paddled and dominated because my dad beat me too much as a kid. I'm really into the leftover marks. Sometimes I get smacked around so good I have to hide marks with clothing or makeup.
>>11589864>something wrong with me mine was so much bigger than the other boysEverything you said in this paragraphs is literally my life. I hate being that big because I crossdress and it's impossible to feel completely cute when I'm dealing with something that massive. People I've shown it to have been weird about it too.>Goosebumps booksHoly shit those gave me so many fetishes. I remember feeling funny reading them and wishing some parts went into more detail. All this before I knew what sex was and before I could get a boner.
>>11588108when i was 6 years old i had to spend a weekend during summer at my mom's friend's house. my mom's friend had a 4-15 year old mentally handicapped daughter with the IQ of a drooling toddler but the body of a post-puberty titcow.while taking a nap i woke up with the retard humping my leg and groin and hugging me, moaning and grunting. i freaked out and i was still at the age i thought girls were icky but she smothered me with her tits and even though we were fully clothed her grinding groin started making my lil willy feel all tingly.I started humping back which made her grunt even louder and pant, eventually she began bumping against me so hard it made the sofa shake. at that point my stiffy was painfully erect and i was overwhelmed by an urge to touch her crotch so i did. she was sopping wet but i didn't know what female arousal was at that age so i thought she had peed herself and it grossed me out and i managed to wriggle myself from her body and went to the WC to wash my hand.Anyway since that day i slowly started to develop a fetish for what i would call ''earthy women'': unwashed, feral, hormonal bitches in heat with pubic hair and unshaved armpits. Also /ss/ and Venus bodies i guess...
>>11589924Do you have big hands too? Mine are massive. I would dislike them, but they're very useful. It's just funny to me to have them so big. Like I've shook hands with guys twice my since and my hands were bigger or at least as big. One time I developed a little eating disorder, nothing crazy, but I lost weight. I saw my sister for the first time in years and the first thing she said other than she hardly recognized me was >Your hands are so bigI like how long my fingers are, and I'm an artist, so they're dexterous nature is super useful, but I'm curious. Do you have big hands? My feet are a little bigger than I think they should be, but not as crazy as my hands, and of course, my dick.
>>11590834Funny you say that. I don't have manly hands but people really like my hands. Not big but definitely not small, I have had people say i had graceful hands if that makes sense.My feet are kinda the same way. Been told I had beautiful feet before. But I'm not a footfag so i wouldn't know. Id love to do that to a guy like in your pic lol
>>11590576Nowhere near as much as this, but I've had similar experiences with my cousin. She's a few years younger than me, I cannot recall what she definitionally has, but, pretty basic mostly non-verbal 'tard. Occasionally I've been bolunteered, or genuinely did volunteer to "babysit" her, most of the time she just vibes watching whatever has been prepared for her, but she does have a habit of just masturbating when she feels like it. The first couple times I was scared I was somehow going to get in trouble for it, but, nah. I do think she does it more when I mind her, though. I've toyed with the idea of doing something with her, but... it's one of those things where the reality is surprisingly unsexy. Like, physically she's kinda pretty, but, the whole package just doesn't appeal when it's actually happening in front of you. To me, at least. Did get to answer almost all of my younger curiosities about the female body off of her, though. As far as I've observed, she doesn't really seem to masturbate to anything in particular. There's an evil little part of me that wants to see what happens if I introduce her to actual pornography, but I'm not willing to kick that hornet's nest over some passing curiosity. Much as the porn scientist in me is utterly fascinated by what her kinks and preferences would be. I don't think she's really influenced my kinks or anything though, besides maybe the slight blackpill on retarded girls being not really all that hot, even when one's literally masturbating in front of you, and has been for like 30 minutes.
>>11588108>been into inflation since I was maybe 8 or 10 or so, probably sooner>no clue why, just liked it a lot for damn near forever>inflation gags were pretty common in kids' media at the time, though I can't really pinpoint anything specific>pretended the "play structure" / jungle gym at the playground at my school was actually a giant lady and I'd climb around inside "her" and pressing rivets, bolts and nuts like they're buttons to control her body>not "control" like puppeting her, I mean like making her fat, gassy, inflated, taller, shorter, or turn her hair purple, etc.>never got into giantesses or really any TF stuff, just inflation/expansion>pregnancy and WG are okay>write whole-ass stories about inflation in my head for yearsI really just don't know.
Since I was a little boy, I've always had an attraction to the idea of "feminine strength" - not musclegirls - but the idea of a woman's strengths: her attractiveness, her ability to command a room with her mere presence, and her power to bend men to her whim through feminine wiles. I get the feeling I developed it due to some kind of hero worship of my mother as she was the one who was always around and was a pretty strong and sexy woman herself. In any case, that attraction would manifest, ironically, not as a desire for other women to use their powers on me, but as a desire to WIELD it. So I've always had a fetish for boys and men becoming, or presenting as sexy women who can overpower men through their own femininity. Hence my fetish for crossdressing and TGTF (particularly AP TGTF). I myself have ended up a crossdresser, and while I haven't necessarily managed all of the "sexy" looks I'd like to pull off any time somebody compliments me for my femininity I feel a surge of ecstasy.
It’s kind of crazy how many different kinks I have, I don’t think any of them are strong enough to really be considered a true fetish. But I definitely remember my first couple of sexual awakenings. The first one was an older math game called ‘Mega Math Blasters’. The villain in that game is a big orange space goop that latches onto people and drains their intelligence. (The first cutscene is on YouTube, if anyone is curious. It’s hilarious to watch that old CD-ROM style animation.) I had no idea why it made me feel strange at the time, but looking back now I’m definitely like ‘okay, yeah, that’s where my dumbification/brain drain, bondage, helplessness, and orgasm control kinks came from’. The second one was the awakening of my exhibitionism and ‘humans as property’ kink. I was too terrified as a 12/13 year old to search up porn sites on the shared family computer, so I would just go to Google and search up ‘breasts’ and pretend that I was looking at women in sexual servitude who had their breasts projected through the internet for people to virtually fondle and they would feel the sensations. I thought I was being so clever by not actually going to any sites, but my older sister saw the dropdown google search history that I didn’t know would save and called me a pervert. Lol.
>>11591310>Mega Math BlastersI have a feeling you're around my age. I'm glad I was enough of a gamer when I was 7 years old to know that Freddi Fish and whatever that Putt Putt dude was about were complete garbage compared to Command and Conquer and Half Life. The fact I could play those games relatively unsupervised also lead into having completely unsupervised access to a computer and the internet from the time I was in middle school, which was a fantastic way to get exposed to all sorts of weird porn. I swear I had BDSM lifestyle slavery built into my psyche though, so it rarely got weirder than wanting to express my undying love and connection to my lifelong partner by keeping her as dehumanized property. Newgrounds had a lot of "games" that were just galleries of anime titties, and ended up being my first. There was one that tried to be a actual game about whipping a girl but H-games kind of suck. I didn't have to imagine the anime titties astrally projecting into my computer which is a honestly far more innocent kind of childhood than I had. Sounds like a sweet memory to have of your older sister.I found a upload of the first cutscene for Math Blasters on youtube and some slime monster is enveloping people in order to capture them and enslave their very intelligence. Like come on, there's no way Gelator didn't awaken something in thousands of people.
>>11590894My hands aren't manly either, but I have very long fingers. My ex gf used to suck on my toes, and my mom was obsessed with my feet growing up (they have freckles) my skin is very pale, and I'm not freckly all over the rest of my body, but my feet have them. My mom has always loved them. And yeah, that would be fun to do to some big guy.
When I was in high school, there was this girl I had PE with who would always sit on the outdoor bleachers, would always lift her knees, and thus you could always see her underwear. Usually just underwear, but sometimes either they'd be put of place or she'd be commando. I have to imagine she knew. Like, accidents happen, but this wasn't a one off thing.I noticed a few other guys looking, so I have to imagine she noticed as well.I dunno if this really contributed to my kinks, but I do really like casual nudity, embarassed nude female, and exhibitionism a ton. So maybe.
>>11591407That sounds really cute! Though I'm ticklish, no way I'd let anyone near my feet lolIdk why but I always just wanted to be small and cute for someone. Like not even about the sex part. I don't care for it much desu. But I would like to be someone who can take care of them sexually if that makes sense, even if it's just me being there and running around their house dressed up or undressed. I've done it before but it's rare, most people just want a quick fuck then tell me to leave.
>>11591780Oh it is very tickly. Yet another kink I have because my mom tickled them too much, and then my ex learned how ticklish I was and constantly did it to me to an insane degree. I like the idea of making other people happy. So yea, what you're saying makes sense to me. I hate to admit this online where anyone can read it, but I'm pretty envious of my sister, because of her incredibly manly, very tall husband. He's like 13 or 14 inches taller than me. He give me the deepest fucking hugs, and he has to bend so far over to do it. He could pick me up like it was nothing, and has just goofing around. Last time I hadn't seen either of them in a while and was picking them up, and I knew I was going to get one of his legendary hugs so I intentionally made myself smell extra good, and then went and got my awesome hug. I can't believe my sister scored such a person. He even lets her stay home all day and she doesn't even keep the house clean. I would literally treat him so much better than she does. And we have never fought. Him and my sister fight all the time. My only real complaint about him is he's a little dumb sometimes but he even does that gracefully he's said some silly things that I've corrected him on and he always looks it up and tells me I was right, and so now he just listens to me about things. My sister on the other hand is a bit dumb too, but never listens to anyone, and if you ask her, she's real smart. But now I'm just rambling. At least I get the hugs and occasionally picked up and literally swept off my feet.
>>11591795>Me againSorry to keep yapping, but I felt I needed to add my sister doesn't take care of herself anymore. She used to be a smoke show, but now outweighs me by more than my entire body weight. But if he ever found out I was saying any of this he would never talk to me again. I have no idea how he hasn't gotten any vibes from me, but I guess I'm pretty good at hiding. I would be the best little house boy though. He goes to work every day and my sister won't even make him his lunch. I like girls too, and my ex who ticked me too much was a female. I find that I can pick up on tall women pretty easy because guys are self conscious about their height, even the Chads so the real tall ones never get asked out. I could definitely be some big hard working women house husband. I know how hard it is to go work everyday. So anyone willing to do that for me, and my benefit, I would repay with everything I had.
I'm a guy, but I inherited my mom's curly hair, her height, her fair skin and freckles, and a lot of her attitudes about things, especially her self destructive nature... I got my dad's colors. My mom and dad had a nasty divorce when I was young, and just for whatever reason I spent a lot more time with my dad than with my mom. He was very angry at the time and if I slipped up in things I would say, or act in any sort of manner he would get pissed and always yell at me that I'm >JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER! in a very mean way. It definitely changed me because it was years of it. He even still does it when we argue.
When I was in late second through third grade, I had to do the after school program 'cuz both my parents were working. Normally, my elementary school had a like, division between 1-3, and 4-6 grade, with recess and lunch staggered by an hour, but this wasn't true of the after school program.The first few days I got picked on and bullied pretty badly by some older douchebags, then a couple older girls adopted me and looked out for me. Both me and them liked pokemon, so we'd play, trade, and stuff. I forget how it started, but, eventually we had started to play at like, being pokemon and trainers, I dunno, the cringe shit kids do. But, I had a sort of moment, when I was pretending to be a charizard, laying in the lap of one of the most beautiful girls I have a memory of, in the sun, right next to another girl pretending to be an Ursaring in the lap next to me, both of us getting our hair brushed and braided, that this was a level of, I dunno, idealism and happiness that I could spend the rest of my life enjoying.And I really do mean it. She was gorgeous. 6th grade, already like 5 foot 6, already taller than some of my teachers, already like a B cup. Long blonde hair down to her hips. Cushiony thighs, unimaginably kind and sweet. The kind of person you kinda just melt into, and get dragged along with, and permanently alters the way you look at women, you know? So, uh, yeah. Pretty strong pull to pet play, older and larger women, shades of role reversal and feminization, matriarchy, and stuff of that nature. Bit of a white whale I know I'll never really catch again, but, I can hope. These days the fantasy leans a bit more, "captured by a tribe of amazons who protect me, dote on me, and treat me like a human pet they sometimes have sex with" but, I'm not too picky.
>>11592588OhForgot picMy closest example I've found to that experience.
>>11592588>>11592589Thats so cute I almost teared up lol. You experienced something a lot of guys never get the chance to from their own cohort sadly: genuine care from someone else.
>>11589864>>11589924I'm curious as to what constitutes as "huge" here. You're probably just a shower, meaning your erect size and flaccid size are the same.
>>11592740I'm the 2nd anon. 5in soft 8in hard. 2in diameter. I've had people go "whoa" in person. Which honestly I don't really like, sucks trying to stuff that in panties.
>>11592747Sounds like a pain. Why don't you try cosplaying in ones with a crotch area or just have a custom made care with a pouch?
>>11592749Both just look silly. Almost all of them are advertised as some dumb shit like "sissy panties" too which makes it worse. I'm a guy but i have a lot of dignity when it comes to crossdressing if that makes sense. I'm able to fit in panties though but not all of them sadly. When i have kids I'll start tucking. Until then don't want to risk becoming infertile.
>>11592755Still wouldn't think wearing normal ones would be comfortable.
>>11592768They're not but they offer enough resistance to mostly hide my bulge. But i have to fold up my penis
>>11588108Happened at a Wegmans when I was 16. A girl, no more than 20 had walked by me in the store. She had short black hair with pink highlighted tips. Her face was heavy with makeup and I think lipstick, but I can't remember. What really caught my attention as she was walking in my direction was her hips. She was skinny up top, but her hips jutted out to a point where they looked super curvy. I remember looking back as she passed by and saw two double wide ass cheeks stuffed in tight pants. This was just my first encounter of quite a few with her, and it awakened two things I didn't know I had: a preference for ass and goth chicks. Willing to share the other times I can recall, but maybe later.
>>11592251I have a story like that, all the time my mother would say to me as a kid:>"oh I wished to not have a girl with curly hair and instead I got a boy"for the longest time I was super young too which put the idea of "my mom wished for me to be a boy" into my head (not what she was going for but that's where my mind lead me) which wasn't helped by my upbringing watching cartoons and liking cute stuff so I ended up with a TG fetish for awhile but then I lost interest in it after my teen years (mostly due to trans stuff putting a very bad taste in my mouth and also realizing that I don't want to be a women so it became a cross dressing fetish wherein a women dotes on me like a princess and calls me cute)I really hate typical "sissy" stuff because it's always "durr fag blacked cuck chastity verbal abuse" and I'm not into guys at all, I want a nice women to dress me up and spoil me with cute shit like a proper lady not be some cheap hooker or used as an object, that shit is absolutely vile to me.>>11592588another story of when I was a kid, alot of the boys in my school were absolute assholes which was not helped by my more gentle nature at the time (l was ALOT more shy and timid I still am but not nearly as much) but there was this girl who was super nice like the sweetest girl you'd ever meet we liked the same things though she left that school for reasons I'll never know but there were other girls/women that were cool/nice to me that influenced my tastes of "genuinely kind guardian sweet girl/mommy who is powerful but always takes care of me saying sweet stuff" like the stuff they wore effected me too so I have a thing for big glasses nerds, girly princesses, "the girl next door" who smiled at my stupid jokes and chill but surprisingly sweet (and hot) goth girl and quite a few older ladies that gave me a mommy complex (and probably why I've been getting into abdl, y'know besides cartoons/anime)
>>11592607the unspeakable things I'd do for a crumb of affection like that, I just want to be loved be a genuinely sweet lady who cares about me.
>>11592812>>11592822We're all going to make it anons. It took me years of loneliness but I have a wife who likes that I'm feminine and encourages me to dress up more. Stay strong
I mentioned earlier that I have a lot of my mom in me, and I have my dad's colors. When my mom divorced my dad he was heartbroken. It was a nasty breakup. I was mad at my mom, so I stayed with my dad. He had the depression, so I did the house cleaning, cooking and laundry for him. My dad was old when my mom did this. My parents have always been a bit older than other kids my age. I knew he wasn't going to even look for someone else, and I couldn't just leave him like that. Then he got disabled, and had to retire, and now I get paid by the state to be his live in caregiver. I've thought about it many times how I've taken over the wife role, not in an incest way, because I would never let my dad fuck me, but it has changed me a lot I think over the years. Now when I fantasize about being in a relationship, I think about being the house husband to mostly dudes.
>>11593090Oh shit, lol, I forgot the part that messes with me the most and has all my life. My parents gave me a girl's name. Not like any girl's name either. A super fucking girly one. Like someone who would be friends with Barbi. I don't know why they did that. They never said they wanted a girl, and I have sisters. I hated it when I was a kid, and was made fun of mercilessly. Even some of my teachers made a comment. When my guy friends date women sometimes they'll get in trouble because they'll think it's a girl texting him and he has to explain my girly ass. A couple of times I knew when they would be together and would intentionally text them shit to try to get them in trouble. :3 but yeah, my name still makes people wonder. I can see it on their faces all the time when I meet them for the first time. I love it now. I was doing a favor for a girl who had this suck job of getting people to go into a high pressure sales thing for timeshares, and she wasn't making her quota, so she asked me to sign up. It was fucked. The super fucking Chad Thundercock super salesman saw my name on the list and figured I would be easy because he was so Chad. No one else in this thing got a special one on one salesman from the very beginning. They all got to watch the stupid timeshare vid in peace while I had this dude. As soon as he walks in I knew I was fucked. He yells my name with a big handsome grin on his wolf face and I have to raise my hand. He could've bailed but didn't and figured I would be easy anyhow and he kept me there for hours. I went with a buddy and he just got to pretend he didn't speak English and left, but had to wait for me. But yeah, incidents like that have stacked up like a thousand cuts and now I love it. Call me a girl. Pull my hair. Pound my ass. Fuck me and say my girly fucking name over and over plz.
>>11593090>>11593096You sound really amazing anon. Truly I wish only the best for you. I'm some idiot in a shithole 3rd world country but I'm rooting for you.
>>11593100You seem very nice, and not like an idiot. And thank you for saying nice things to me. It doesn't cost a thing to be nice and it really does a lot for the people you're nice to. I bet we would get along.
It's not my own fetish, far from it, but I have a suspicion that ABDLfags have impaired development in part of their brain
>>11588108When I was like 13 and discovering porn I saw a woman with a penis, thought that shit was straighter than straight porn. A few years later I'd meet a new friend and shortly after they came out as trans.She quickly became really beautiful and sexy, even when she wasn't wearing makeup she'd look more feminine than most cis women. Before I could actually understand my own feelings for her she dated a few people and decided she was exclusively attracted to women.I'm still friends with her and she knows I think she's very attractive and has a great personality. I still love her but that love has changed from me being attracted to her to a brother-sister relationship.Anyways I want to get railed by women who have a pair of big tits and large cock.
I could be a case study on the slippery slope of fetishes.Started off with femdom back in elementary. Not sure how exactly I got into that, but I suppose it stemmed from me being pretty meek and introverted (so the idea of the girl taking the lead seemed nice to me).Years went on, with me having unlimited acess to internet and pornography BUT zero acess to actual women, since I was too much of a shy pussy to get a gf. The same old stuff eventually lost its edge, and things that seemed weird and gross at first started to look a bit interesting, again and again. So I went from some light femdom, to pegging, dickgirls, traps, and my fantasies slowly got more and more violent...Nowadays, I often jerk off to a fantasy of me being a cute femboy thats hunted, beaten into submission and then violated by a futa wolf monstergirl (with a wolf dick ofcourse, knots are fun). Im pretty sure that lately, im starting to go from monstergirls to HMOFA.
So I finally pulled the trigger on a silicone horse cock so now I can satisfy my horse cock kink that's been there since I found all those fucking websites when I was a kid. I'm going to immediately cram it in my ass.
As far as I can remember, I always seemed to get off to hypnosis. idk why. Maybe it was from the junglebook or something. Anyway, anytime there was an episode of a cartoon with hypnosis or mind control, I'd always feel uncomfortable cuz it'd make me "feel funny." Especially when the bad guy makes a good guy turn against their friends or do something they otherwise wouldn't under normal circumstance. Recently, I think I've grown a liking to Instant loss as well. Specifically cuz I read in 40k lore, an entire Sister of Battle convent/order was put under mind control and turned against the imperium simply by hearing the name of a psyker. And for some reason I found that really hot. So now I've grown the NERVE the utter GALL to draw my own fetish garbage despite being too embarrassed to do so for years.
>>11588108Discovered Dmitrys around the time I was 13. But it was this particular image that awakened my disparate fetishes for submissive futa, feet, deep tans, and bimbos. >>11593898Cute story. Ban's another one of my favorite artists.
>>11593864Impaired how?
transformation is hot.I like it when the one getting transformed has the most divine orgasms feeling every tendon, muscle and fiber getting rearanged, expanded and shrinked in a good way instead of being in pure agony like a werewolf tf.
>>11593864given alot of autists are into ABDL? yeah, but there's two different flavors of ABDL, one is from neglectful parenting yearning to get that unconditional love and the the other is from abusive parenting: parents who are extremely harsh/abusive so they develop wanting to be punished/humiliated because the feel they deserve it for not being good enough or see it as affection in a twisted fucked up way (IE any attention is good attention) though there is times where you just see a anime/cartoon that makes one "feel funny"there are cases where it's just arrested development/peter pan syndrome, I knew a special needs kid who was around the same age I was (around 13-15ish at the time?) and he legit acted like he was no older then 5, always threw a tantrum and cried like a toddler whenever he didn't get his way, though probably just an autist.there's definitely an escapist element, it's probably not the most healthy coping mechanism but hey at least it's healthier then smoking/drinking/doing drugs as long as you are discreet about it I don't think it's an issue as long as there's consent and they are adults and don't act like creeps/sex pests or go for actual children.
>>11594183Yeah I'm with you on that one, transformation should feel good like an actual sexual experience, at most they should be shocked/confusedalso I think it's better if they are into their new form "hell yeah this is awesome" more then "oh god this is awful" or just "huh...well that's new, weird"
>>11594177Arrested development basically, like >>11594255 said. They're stuck in full cope mode and think infantilism makes them feel "safe" and "free" while us adults realize it's the opposite of that.>>11594255>alot of autistsMakes sense, autism is one possible cause of cope brain
>>11594358Dude came in here to make fun of one very popular fetish in a thread where people are sharing how it happened to them. That's messed up.
>>11594358to be fair most kinks tend to be born from childhood, be it cartoon gags, kids horror stories or experiencing something specific.>>11594392making fun of fetishes on /d/ is poor form.
>>11594392>>11594529it's like going to an anime convention and calling everyone around you a smelly dweeb. Like, why are you even here?
>>11594392>>11594529>>11594532This. There's a fucker that pops in and out different threads just to make fuck of everyone. Best to ignore him, and I'm certain hes an underaged virgin, because he won't shut up about grooming.
>be me>maybe 8 or 9yo>prettiest teacher is pregnant with really late twins>visits our class one day since our assignments were all finished>giga belly>twins kicky as fuck because more movant / noise than normal>shortest girl in class does fetal position next to belly>almost the same size>later get to feel squirming belly>neuron activation>spend rest of class hiding diamond bonerIn case you haven't guessed the fetish this awakened, pic related.
>>11594533I used to be like that, making fun of strange fetish stuff (despite having kinks of my own at the time) then I grew up. (which given the talks of ABDL, is extremely ironic)the "ew gross what the fuck is wrong with you" to "that's fucking hot" pipeline is a real thing, my stance is that as long as everyone is having a good time, keeps it in the bedroom and isn't making anyone do shit they don't want to then it's fine.
>>11594543Yeah, for sure. Kinks are kinks and no one really is in control over how they become a kink. I would've probably had a diaper kink... For whatever reason when I was like 10 I was into wearing diapers. One time I was at a friend of my mom's house, and they had a bigger kid and shitload of diapers that I could fit in. So I put one on, and was just hiding in a closet. Not doing anything, because I didn't know how to do anything, but just being in the diaper was enough. ofc right at that moment my mom bursts into the room, drunk, and probably on coke and is like outside the closet yelling for me, and I have no idea what to do. She knows I was in here. So eventually she just opens the door and sees me in a diaper and starts laughing hysterically at me. Then told my dad, and everyone else she could. So I had zero interest in diapers anymore, and that probably contributed to my masochist nature, and kink for degradation. But yeah, I hate that kid. He'll be in the anal masturbation thread claiming people are trying to groom him into putting things up his butt. Like go away lol. I can't speak to anyone in my life about my kinks, or my anal shit, so having a little tard like him running around shaming people really is hurtful to the whole point of this all.
Hiccups. They're so involuntary, and embarrassing. I have hiccups right now, and I'm with people and it so embarrassing, and cute.
>>11594626I'm the same anon. I'll add that I think it's completely adorable when someone gets into a hiccup fit, and they can't stop it. I remember my first one was with my buddy, and we were drinking and it lasted for the entire night. My buddy, who was like almost a foot taller than me was making fun of me the entire night. Trying to scare me, all sorts of shit. But my hiccups just wouldn't stop. I have them now, dammit, and that's what made me remember this. I think they're so cute. The way they sound, how involuntary they are, and how harmless they are, but they still make the huccuper so pissed off. I think it's hilarious, and hot.
>>11594626as far as fetishes go I don't think that'd even make the top 50 worst or weirdist.
>>11594590it's interesting to think about kinks and how much of them are "nature vs nurture" though that's the case for people in general would you still be you if you were raised differently or were exposed to different stimuli, I'd say to a degree some of that stuff is just built into us/DNA, that need to be curious or do stuff that is alien or taboo.Like I figured out I liked women's breasts when I was like 6 because of an old ass movie with women dancing a saloon dressed like showgirls with nice cleavage that's partly/probably why I like women in elaborate outfits that shit drives me wild.
>>11592778 here with another memory of my "awakening" as you might call it. Same girl was in the store about a week later and I can't remember where I was in the store, but I know I was looking for some cake because my mother's birthday was coming up. I remember looking at some food on a shelf while she was nearby talking to someone else and I hope she wouldn't come over because she fried the fuck out of my neurons after the first time. I firmly remember her coming up and asking "sir do you need help?" and my ass pretending real hard she wasn't talking to me. I didn't even look at her or even talk just out of fear I'd fuck up, so all I could do was shake my head. She told me to ask someone if I need any help and I don't know, but my anxiety briefly left me and I turned my head and watched her and those cheeks swishing as she walked away. That's how I knew I had to come back.
Genderbending is the big one for me. As for where it came from... A lot of it was probably jealously of girls when I was younger. I'm not a troon or anything but I can remember as a small child throwing coins into wishing wells and my wish would always be to wake up as a girl.Earliest triggers I can remember... I do think of the Scooby Doo movie a fair bit, Shaggy gets gender swapped in it. I can also remember looking at Midnight Bliss art an awful lot.
>>11594743yeah the whole troon stuff put me a bit off, I still like TG but realistically I'd probably hate it grass is always greener and all that even if I could become what I'd consider ideal I wouldn't cope at all.I'd be content with a women dressing me up in cute shit and calling me a cute girly boy at this point, the fantasy of girls bringing me to the slumber party and spoiling the ever loving shit out of me more so then the whole "hurr sissy fag" crap I only really like the clothes and cutsy stuff I still very much like girls, at most I'd want them to tease me in a "aww anon likes being a pwetty pwincess so cute" way and then having them pleasure me in the ways I enjoy, I don't care for anal either, nipple rubbing would be fine though.
That futurama scene with amy and leela wrestling each other led to me finding ultimate surrender which then I found mixed wrestling and thats how I got a femdom fetish
>>11594775Leela had some really sexy outfits.
>>11593898Pretty much the same, minus the friendFutas were love at first sight for me and rewired basically everything about how I look at sexI've gotten to bottom for a few transgirls and it was everything I always hoped
>>11594772Don't get me wrong, if I could swap into even a below average woman I'd eat it up in a heartbeat, but sabotaging your bodies and mind just in hopes of passing is a level of mental illness even I know to keep away from lol... Did you ever try Drag? I'm not big into makeup so I didn't delve into it but there's a lot of pretty decent drag queen clubs or hangouts that may be able to tickle your kink in the right way. You're not even seen as a fag for taking part in those, your drag persona is considered completely separate.
>>11588108Tame for /d/ but something that catches me off guard how easy it is to turn me on is lot's of jewelry and adornment. Ritual clothes, tribal adornment, princesses, etc... I assume it's from exposure to watching media like Oh My Goddess!, Tenchi Muyo, and Princess Mononoke when I was 8 or younger.Anime and cartoons definitely didn't help with my love of mind control and upfront women. No idea why I love Sphinxes so much, honestly. But give me a sphinx wearing a bunch of gold and I'm set.
>>11594984I don't think drag would be right for me, alot of that stuff is just too over the top/boomer coded for my tastes, plus I'd prefer keeping such things in the bedroom, it'd be too awkward for me personally and I like the idea of being clueless about make up and such and having a women pamper me with a make over and I don't really have the space for such things currently though I wouldn't mind making a feminine persona.seriously some of those sissy/drag outfits are just stupid looking, if I'm gonna wear stuff it actually has to look good.
>>11595044ntaI feel the same way. I love proper lady style, long dresses, Mary Janes, twirling skirts. I was just thinking about it today. Selling my shit and moving to a new town and just living as a girl. I'm smaller than most women, so that's like half the battle.
>>11595053Yeah, stuff like lolita fashion, rococo/varsailles, Victorian/steampunk, southern belle/western anything cute but elegant without being over the top/sissy that looks like a parody of what women would've actually worn/wear, I'm not apposed to traditionally "sexy" stuff like cheerleader, bunny girl, etc but it'd have to lean more cute then trashy/sissy I have no desire to dress like a 1950's stepford wife or leopard print hag hooker or anything that'd look gaudy.
>>11595063I'm a super short and this thread got me thinking about, and I mentioned it before, in this thread, my kink for straps on shoes because my sister was putting them on me since I was a baby. But yeah, this thread got me wanting some new shoes so I'm going to get these in 9.5 and black. https://harrisonandgrace.com/products/womens-leather-flats-mary-jane-block-heel-pumps?currency=USD&country=US&variant=57520069378374&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=Google%20Shopping&stkn=084d70e1ce5f
>>11595074Mary janes are great because I don't think I'd handle heels (plus I'm tall enough as it is) I feel like knee/ lace up boots would be good too depending on the outfit.also girls dressed like princes/dandies/knights
>>11595074I've worn 3 inch heels to clubs. Platform boots too. Really they are easy to walk in, it's just like tiptoeing!
>>11595089For >>11595085 too. Don't worry about being "too tall." That's hot to a lot of people
I have a thing for small things in baggy clothes. One time I was sleeping, and my bed game has always been on point. Like I've always had super giant fluffy blankets. My buddy came over to visit, and my mom let him in, and told him I was in the bedroom. He came in and couldn't see me because my small body was buried under a bunch of blankets and figured I was in the bathroom or something and flopped backwards onto my bed and landed on me. He was so embarrassed and shocked he didn't see me in the bed. For whatever reason, probably because I just got body slammed, I found the whole thing to be a bit hot. I felt very cute, and I think him blushing made me feel like he thought it was cute too. Then I got a very very thin and beautiful gf that I fell absolutely head over heels in love for. She always wore such big fluffy hoodies. I used to buy them extra fluffy and oversized. And I thought it was the cutest thing in the world when I would go in to embrace her, and her body was so tiny inside all that fluff. My bed game is still on point, I have the fluffiest bed in the world, even though I lost one of the loves in my life, I still think about that time with my buddy when I'm curled up in it.
Gender play, reversal, and general dissolution and subversion of gender roles.I can't pinpoint a single origin for all of it, but I can for a lot of the individual components of it. I have a somewhat older sister, 5 years older than me, who was very assertive, but affectionate for basically my entire young life. Genuinely, I think I imprinted harder on her than my actual mom, and I definitely have some complex emotions around her I haven't totally unpacked, but it absolutely planted the seeds of the kinds of women I prefer. Throughout elementary school I just got along better with girls, then come high school I was bullied a lot, until a group of girls kinda scooped me up. That kinda made the bullying worse, and between my general shy, non-outgoing or assertive personality, and hanging out with a bunch of girls, rumor started to be that I was gay. Kind of a self feeding cycle there, since the more hostility like that came around to me, the more I'd just exclusively hang out with them. Went through an entire period where I thought I might be, then thought I might be trans, ect ect. None of that wound up being the case, as far as I'm aware. I'm definitely some kind of gender nonconforming myself, but, I think that's just down to my lived experiences. For whatever that's worth. This largely repeated in college where I just made female friends and hung out with them. 'Course the vibe was a bit different by then, and some of the friends I made in college were themselves women that were some degree of, I guess, also non-traditional, lot of gay, queer, or otherwise just alt or different women. Long story short, it has just become very, very natural to me, to vibe in social environments where gender expectations were completely upended. And, that's just how I like things now. It's a lot more rare now, years later, and pretty much the only places I've been able to find it is in kink spaces. Not really the way I'd like to live it, but, it's a fair compromise.
>>11595044Yeah, I agree. Drag is... I dunno how to put it exactly, but, not feminine, to me? Sissy/emasculation stuff, too. It's not feminine. Anti-masculine, maybe?Like, masculine and feminine aren't opposite ends of a spectrum, you can't just invert one to end up on the other extreme. It's different qualities entirely. People try to make that relationship between them fit, but, it just isn't how it is.I've met people that could pull both off at the same time, it's such a cool experience. Drag and sissy are, in my mind at least, very very "male" in conception. There are some women that look like that or present that way as well, sure, but, that always feels weird, too.
>>11588108I got a lot of kinks but these are my top ones.>Size DifferenceTHIS IS A BIG ONE. Just the thought of having a boyfriend who is almost 2x bigger than me is so fucking hot. A lot of the porn I save tends to have some kind of size difference, but mainly with the man being large. I’m not into giant/ess stuff, weirdly enough. (Pic related. IraMako fans where are y’all at, this is my self insert ship)>Shibari/Rope BondageVery big into this one. Wish I had someone to do this with IRL but I get no play. I’ve realized that I am a huge bottom and would love to be tied up.>Body Writing and Wax PlayGoes along with the Shibari/Bondage stuff. Never tried them of course but still.>CuntboysI like men, and I like dicks, but if a man has a pussy like me I’m also into that shit.>GuroPurely fictional scenarios, most definitely. A lot of my favorite anime/manga have guro elements, I def remember discovering a lot of 18+ torture porn games and being really into it. IRL I’m a fucking wimp and don’t like the idea of getting cut during sex.>TentaclesThis was one of my earliest fetishes, LMAO. Of course it had something to do with having unrestricted internet access.I might be vanilla for /d/ standards except for the guro stuff but yeahhhhh that’s about all I can think of
>>11595939Self-reply, I forgot femboys too. I like the types with wide hips rivaling that of biological women. The dick just makes it better! (There is a severe lack of femboy-on-girl stuff out there and it makes me cry)
>>11595888>Drag and sissy are, in my mind at least, very very "male" in conception. There are some women that look like that or present that way as well, sure, but, that always feels weird, too.I've seen women do themselves up like men in drag and yeah it wasn't feminine looking at all, it was odd to say the least given it's very redundant for a women to dress like a man in drag (I forget the context but to each their own), I think it'd be accurate to call it anti-masculine rather then pro feminine, while sissy stuff is more for humiliation/making someone a little bitch/dominating more so then being feminine.tomboy feminization is good though, wish there was more of that. (maybe we could both wear dresses, that'd be peak)>>11595887I'm partly like that, most of the time it was only the girls who didn't give me shit (though it did happen from time to time but most of the women in my life have been nothing but sweet to me.) though I'd say I don't hate my masculine aspects given the types of content/media I enjoy but I can't deny I've always had a yearning for gentleness, I've had quite a few unfortunate situations with toxic masculinity in my life (like actual borderline psychopath behavior and not what tumblr would consider to be toxic) which I NEVER want to treat someone like or treat others like that.
>>11595942>There is a severe lack of femboy-on-girl stuffAs a straight married femboy this was my biggest issue for the longest.
>>11596823>As a straight married femboy this was my biggest issue for the longest.Just make your own porn.I'm not with a girl now, but when I was, pornography was the last thing we were thinking of. We didn't need that crap to get off. We just got off, and regularly. She would get so angry with me for being so fucking horny all the time towards her, sometimes. Like, for instance, if I was sick, and she was taking care of me, I would get a huge boner, because I was so hot for her, she would have to take care of too, and boy she would get mad about it. She pegged me a couple of times, but it was nothing to write home about, and as apprehensive she was about it, I should've never pulled the trigger. We used dildos together a lot, so I didn't think pegging was too big a leap. She was super submissive, like me, and in the end we never figured out a way to make that work. I took the Dom role, most of the time, but it didn't fit me really. And she almost never took it, and I was very starved for that in my life. I don't like people being forced to do thing they don't feel like they're comfortable doing, so I never asked much of her. But she also never asked me what I wanted. I was just her fuck machine, basically, and I figured that out very quickly. We're not together anymore, obviously. But we were together for a decade.
>>11597028Self reply >I figured it out quickly >We were together for a decade I'm so delusional. I obviously didn't figure it out quickly. It took a decade.
>>11597028>Just make your own porn.We do! Not saying we need it, but when I was growing up and exploring myself it would have been nice to have. Was confusing for years everyone insisting i need to be gay if I'm a guy who isn't manly.
Gigantic breasts have been the most prominent fetish through my life. Even as a 4 year old, I always had a fixation for breasts but once I was about 7 and could figure out a computer well enough to search for pictures and videos of them, I just wanted to see bigger ones. I never discovered masturbation until I was about 12 but until then I would occasionally be on the hunt for the next biggest tits I’ve seen though. This would eventually turn into my fetish for Macromastia/Gigantomastia and hyper tits. As a kid, nude breasts were something that felt impossible to see because of how my parents wouldn’t let me see any tv shows or movies with any amount of nudity in them. Despite that, we would watch movies that were definitely more suggestive than my child mind could handle. And often times those movies had pretty actresses with big tits as well. While I have a ton of other fetishes and kinks, my love for huge breasts started so early it feels like a core part of myself somehow. Unfortunately finding a huge breasted woman to date irl isn’t easy. The biggest I’ve dated had DD cups but she still had a great personality so I was still happy to be with her. Now that I’m single again though, I hope to one day date and marry a woman with G cups at the minimum who won’t want a breast reduction one day.
>>11595888>>11595995drag is blackface aimed at women
>>11597674Agreed. It sickens me.
>>11597674I mean yeah it kinda is no women would be caught dead wearing half the shit drag queens do or acting the way they do, it's a shameless parody, you'd be better off taking the brolita or femboy path, alot of people who crossdress just don't put in any real effort.
>>11588108Me? Just bondage. Just boring ol' bondage, and S/M too. >where they came fromI know I shouldn't have watched all those exploitative R-rated B-movies as an 8-year old. I was a classic 1980's latchkey child. While dad was at work, there was nobody to supervise me when I helped myself to his collection of sleazy VHS tapes. Seeing Ajita Wilson hang spread eagle crucified in the jungle from a wooden bondage frame in Savage Island definitely did things to me that made the downstairs tingle. Later exposure to dad's porno mags with S/M content just sealed it: Anon is into BDSM. All the classic leather harnesses and whips stuff is nice too, German actress Gudrun Landgrebe saw to that when she made Die Flambierte Frau. But jungle prison camps take the cake. A criminally underrated fantasy with nowhere near enough content, despite how ripe it'd be for all sorts of scenarios.I'm also a massive fan of low fat-% anatomies. Growing up during the 80's and 90's era fitness craze, I love muscle definition. They don't have to be huge, but I love it when muscles are well defined and visible. No prettier bodies exist.
>>11598259"Captured by amazons" is one of my most longstanding fantasies. No real origin for it.It's surprisingly rare to have all of the features come together. Feral, cavewoman aesthetics, outside in the forest or some tribal village, y'know, the works.
>>11588108I don't have an origin story for my peril fetish, and I really wish I did. There's plenty of peril scenes in media, but I can't point to any particular one as the spark. I didn't have my awakening from Disney movies like so many other kids seemed to have. The earliest peril picture I can think of seeing and awakening something in me is this one of Lyn of Fire Emblem fame, tied up and frightened, menaced by some guy with her sword saying "Let's test your blade on YOU!" I wish I still had it somewhere. But at that point I was already looking for pictures of tied up anime girls, which is how I found it in the first place. And looking back, I think I was already looking for more extreme peril than just plain bondage and DID stuff. So that can't be where it actually started. It's all a little frustrating.
>>11598634I'm more into military themed stuff. Prisoners of war and all that. Uniforms, rifles, strict military discipline, political intrigue and secret missions behind enemy lines gone horribly wrong. Or, alternatively, forced labor camps, take your pick. Definitely OK if the camp's female commander is a properly muscle trained contemporary amazon, lol.
