>spent the past week agonising over whether to request a transfer to a job in a different city that would've required going into the office but maybe could've advanced my career>started binging on junk food out of stress and indecisiveness on Wednesday, breaking diet for first time in weeks>binged on Thursday, then Friday, then realised I wasn't eligible for the transfer anyway after reading the terms>binged one last time today on Saturday, but it was really dull because I was wired up with sugar anyway >went to gym for first day in 4 days>bought ice cream and chocolate this evening and saw students dressed up and realised it was Halloween and normies were having the times of their lives and I'd never been to a Halloween party in my life and was an ugly mid-30s male with a failed lifeI am sure I will go back to my regular diet tomorrow. Before Wednesday I was around 21kg lower than my typical weight a few years ago, which is quite incredible.Frequently when I feel really low and pathetic in life I start watching anime, since I see it as unapologetic loser slop. But I never like it because it's so transparently indulgent kids nonsense.I am no longer right wing. I will not lift a fucking finger to help normies stop being replaced by third worlders. Three simple words: DIY.I sometimes wonder if I could bear working minimum wage if I lost my job. My thoughts on this vary.
>>62842957I made my first pork scratchings tonight: shit was cash. So crunchy, salty and porky, I could just buy 10kg of pork fat and live on scratchings until Xmas and put the money I save on other food into investments.
>>62842957this isn't your personal blog, faggot
>>62842957STFU Yoko you fucking fag
Kaeru you fucking tranny I saw that
Londonfrog I have been reading your sad musings for going on a decade now. You need to hop on tirzepatide (reta is cool for fat loss on autopilot but tirz controls cravings much better) and find a therapist. Maybe hop on an antidepressant but fixing your binge eating disorder with tirz and talk therapy might fix that on its own. Change is uncomfortable but clearly for you so is staying the same. You need to get a little courage and take the first steps towards bettering yourself in a way that sticks or else you will soon be 50 and still making these sad posts on an armenian teacup poodle fanciers' penpal network.
