sighh i had a whole thread going in r9k with a bunch of advice about how to treat my self harm cuts and it was all really good info but then i made a stupid idiotic post and got banned and now i have nothing to read and reply to and im so bored. I made my first 4chan post and im already addicted siighhh
>>955845465Wah I'm emo wah
>>955845661yeah yeah yeah shut up, who cares
>>955845465just ban evade you don't want to be on /b/what did you even say?
>>955845774ban evading does not sound like a good idea... and why dont i wanna be on /b/? But uh i didnt really say anything.. i just made a second post that was against the rules in a moment of weakness.. but i didn't know it was against the rules! I dunno if i wanna say what I did though cuz it was super duper embarrassing..
>>955845774Mascara and razors are my best friends lol
>>955845863That is NOT what i said, im not the type to romanticize self harm anyway. My razors are my worst enemies, mascara however is good yes.
As someone who used to cut, it's worth quitting.
>>955846328i know.. im having a real hard time quitting, but i hope i will find a better coping mechanism soon!
>>955846396I wish you good luck! Have you tried spicy food/snacks? That kinda works for some people.
>>955846890Ahah thank you, but to be honest I even struggle eating lately, so I hardly see that working unfortunately, I appreciate the advice though!
>>955845465>self harm cutsproof?
>>955846969You dont really need to eat it though, right? Just cut the tip of a ghost pepper and suck on it like a cigar.
>>955845465rude but fair. also insane wtf lmao
>>955845465you should make a game
>>955848503That is true.. i suppose i could try.. I don't know though, ugh, no motivation to do anything hahah
>>955848561Why should I make a game?..
>>955848143They're not that crazy or anything, i havent been cutting for very long. These are the ones on my left arm, i have some on my thigh and i recently did a pretty bad one on my right arm but it's bandaged right now and im too lazy to take a bunch of pics so here have this pathetic one.https://litter.catbox.moe/a9squxfy9gllcvu3.png
>>955848701Why do you cut yourself though? Treating the cuts won't solve shit if you don't solve the root cause of them. You'll keep going in circles.
>>955849108I'm just treating them so they dont get infected. I cut myself cuz of a bunch of shit i guess. Trauma, bad home situation, life getting shittier and shittier. I just don't have the energy to deal with emotions anymore and this the only way i know how to cope. I don't know if i can get better.
>>955849340What about a hobby or some other shit that you like? Drawing? Music? Dancing? I mean, anything else but self harm.Yeah, at the end of the day you'll be avoiding your problems but rather do that than harming yourself.
>>955845853because they're enablers here they have a sexual fetish
>>955849768every hobby i had is just not fun anymore for me. And for most of them i don't even have the energy anymore. It feels like my body is failing me. I don't have the energy for anything anymore. I can't keep jobs and i failed college so now im just a shut-in neet. Even just lazy stuff like games and anime isn't fun anymore. I just lay in bed all day and get out of bed every now and then to maybe try at least playing a game or watching something but i usually just end up listening to music and staring at my wall, which doesn't really help.
>>955849772Eh whatever, at this point I don't care anymore. I have no self dignity or respect left and I might be able to at least relish in getting worse if anything. I'm not planning on sticking around very long so might as well get worse and find some kind of enjoyment in it, i don't know.
>>955845465ah sorry to hear that. having threads deleted sucks
>>955845465that's why i came to /b/ actually, my bsky was deleted
>>955850300I can relate with what you're experiencing though, went through similar shit (became numb to everything, still do) and became a hiki but still forced myself out after years of that shit just to try something different. Went to college to finish something and at least have proof that I tried to feel alive again.My point is, you gotta try something, find something that sparks some interest in you and give it a shot even if it looks like a lot of work.>Staring at my wallYeah, rather do that than doomscrolling while looking for some dopamine hit that'll never fill that emptiness.
>>955851102Yeah i know i should.. but ive been trying stuff and i just keep failing. I just can't anymore. I've given up, im in therapy and it's not working either. I take anti-depressants and they are hardly working. I've tried college three separate years and failed every time. I can't keep a job for longer than a couple months at most even if i only work one day in the week. It's just a lost cause.
>>955851569That's rough. I guess I've nothing else to say besides wishing you the best and don't rush it, take your time to figure things out.
